Bepannah ~My Thoughts ep 35~4.5.18 Self- preservation or others first ?
All living organisms will fight to survive. It's the law of nature. Thus its natural to look out for self-interest. However with humans, that which sets them apart from other living things is the option or ability to make choices. Discerning the another aspect of a situation where the other takes preference over the self. For me, today's episode covers the dichotomy of preserving ones own needs and wants, or put others welfare and needs first. It goes without saying that the former is based on survival instinct, while the latter signifies branching out for the greater good. It's interesting to note how one's personal circumstances often have a bearing on why one is forced to see situations in a different, opposing, contrasting, perspective. How after which one's mindset under goes a change.
Take Zoya for instance, she is homeward bound. Whether she takes a knee jerk decision? I feel is her prerogative. She faces a bitter truth, that proves how erroneous she stands today, in a landmark decision of her life. Stoically she faces the back lash of her folly of falling in love with the wrong man. Now she needs respite which she believes her home ground and family can give. Aditya's words, though, follow her everywhere. Put her off in her homeward bound stride too. There's no getting away from them. They disturb, distract and interfere with her mindset to forget her bad experiences with Yash! All she is doing is trying to survive! but Aditya's shadow complete with his resounding taunts travel with her in her sojourn?
The cab's engine malfunction, symbolises Zoya's present condition. She appears to be road worthy, but not long before she ends up totally faulty and ends up like the ceased cab! Right in the middle of the road, just like her life! The mysterious hand of providence gives her ominous signs, which she fails to fathom. Her recent grief is far greater, and blurs her ability to think straight about what life wants from her now? It appears , Zoya leaving Mumbai may be yet another flawed decision she takes. The cab symbolises Zoya's personal comfort and convenience. It also stands for Zoya loving a man like Yash. The cab like Yash ends up defective and flawed. Zoya has no option other than to disembark from the cab! But the truth she pushes behind her, is that it was more like Yash who abandons her. It's Zoya now, who undergoes discomfort. End's up on the road! But even now Zoya takes a common sense decision.. her sibling Noor arranges for another cab. As life goes on.
Where will this new cab take Zoya? where she was heading before?or elsewhere? Providence once more shows her the way to the destination chosen for her. In a new cab. Oblivious and still in emotional pain. Unsure still, if returning home is the right route for her to take. It's providence once more that shows her the light. Her fallen handbag with Mona's novena gifted bracelet pops out! reveals the symbol of the crucified Christ! It's the sign Zoya needs for her beaten, lack lustre life! The image of the crucified Christ reminds her, how he surrendered his life for others! So that others may live life abundantly[Bible] She gathers her resolve for the future!
Alongside Aditya's words, of terminating services of Zosh staff! His deliberate strategy of using their first names! Brings back for Zoya personal connections she had struck with the interns ! It hits Zoya with the reality. A mixed age range of staff, are at risk of losing their livelihoods due to no fault of theirs! She hears Aditya's accusations. How Zoya broke promises she made to them! come back to haunt her! Gradually the truth lies before her. Zoya only lived a self centred existence . Now her personal gain will be to profit the deserving others! Steadily the self in Zoya becomes secondary and others interests become primary! The other side of the coin .. flips in Zoya. Quite a contrast to how she viewed things in her life before. Out of her personal tragedy she finds a fresh new way to plant, sustain, nurture and grow a new harvest! Bit by bit, the directions for a brand new journey in different cab that is hopefully reliable! become evident. Hence let the past stay behind her. As Zoya feels she has bigger, better, and more meaningful matters to deal with!
Besides as Zoya confesses to Noor when she tells her sister she's back in the game of putting Zosh back in business. Zoya has learnt to differentiate between being loyal to herself and being faithful to those who are sincere. Life, along with Aditya's crude words have taught her its worthy to back and reward those with loyalty , rather than those who smile yet cheat blatantly. Yes she will resurrect Zosh! not out of love for Yash. But rather, for those sincere people whose efforts will make Zosh bring it alive ! it's work force who in reality turn its wheels! Noor as a sister can sense her appi previously down. Now gets a new lease of life. The fallen angel begins to flap her feeble wings..
For me personally, the scene where Zoya opens her heart and soul before her office staff is all about confessing about the golden chance that life gives her once more to redeem herself. To make amends for broken promises, a past misdeed, shortcoming, she did done in an hour of weakness. Now she wants to do something positive. Pick up from where she left!
For Mahi she doesn't know what hit her. Looks like she celebrated too early. But true to her nature she will resort to seedy methods now, to scare Zoya into fleeing Mumbai so she can get her hands on Yash's property. Looks like the tug of war between virtue and vice is on. Mahi will discover, that Zoya despite her morose self is strong enough to dig her heels in! Zoya this time choses to stay and fight. For this time Zoya is not alone by backed by an army of common well wishers headed by Aditya Hooda!
For Aditya the moment he sees her back! He knows that she bears herself.. well just about. His coarse, abrasive words, show results. He knows she always, thinks of him, and still does, of him as a law unto himself! One who breaks rules and regulations! But seeing Zoya back on parade tells him his brash attitude has paid off well!
But then, what would Adi be without his mask? On the face of it he plays nonchalant and indifferent to Zoya's sudden return to Zosh! Yet within, curiosity kills him! Whatever brought her back? I suspect he wants to hear from her mouth that she returns due to his fierce words, and animated performances. But no such thing happens! although Zoya,as dead and phased out she looks ! Yet she silently laps in how Adi bends over backwards to draw her attention! The scenes are amusing to watch. Harshad gives the best facial expressions that are sure to make audiences laugh. I was reminded how he called Zoya a cartoon! But as Adi... now he becomes a caricature himself, of a crazy bob cat! one busy body! Dying, desperate to know what's going on in that pretty little head of her!
He labelled her a attention seeker, yet he is ready to stand on his head to draw her attention. She is aware of his childish antics. But keeps her head buried in pending work. Is she trying to give Adi a message ,yes she is back, its strictly business! But the more she maintains distance with her body language. The more Aditya is emotionally hauled towards her. perhaps a tad guilty for adopting the grumpy approach with her. Zoya ,still even in her fizzled out mute disposition, intrigues him! In fact he ,like Zoya does with Noor, confesses before his brother Arjun, that Zoya is his pleasant preoccupation.. without which life appears monotonous to him! and yes he is chuffed she is back!
Like Noor, Arjun too is relieved.. to note after ages his big bro returns the way he would like to see him..seems the past grief quells.. Zoya perhaps is the harbinger of smooth sailing on the ocean of life, for Adi bro?
But for the erratic Aditya there is a thin line between funny antics and the concern on the return of near dead, without steam Zoya. His confidence betrays him that all is well within her? she appears , work motivated, driven, mechanical on the outset. But her lifeless gaze caught by his piercing eyes, tell him a differing tale that makes Adi anxious. Jokes apart! , he did desire her self assertion into play! But his eyes, by now can read her like a book. The title of which reads, I live..but Adi picks on the silent inference ..but are you alive Zoya?
The episode encapsulates Aditya's heart warming efforts to infuse her snuffed soul with the enthusiasm of his soul. In all his little actions he reminds her he too broke into a million pieces. But if a flippant guy like him can get his act together, partly with her help. Then a good soul like her too can draw herself up! stand up straight and tall. For this time she is not weak, vulnerable and alone. This time another who wants to give life another chance and live for others stands beside her. She just needs to sense his presence..adi will be there for her.. he will restore life back to Zoya! hamlet53 5.5.18
pardon me,for very late post.. meanwhile enjoy the weekend.. much love hammie
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