Dude...He glimpsed...I glistened...with tears..
My Dude... He just glimpsed for few seconds... that second...my eyes glistened just at the sight of him but glistened ... shined just looking at him but again glistened, shined with tears.
I don't want to be a spoilsport but I waited for this scene (seeing the episode after a week) after seeing the precap and I was sure that Chakor will tell Raaghav how to say, "I love you" by reminiscing her Suraj... and I was not disappointed.
(I don't know why the makers chose this scene as this was during the Holi dahan after the bandhuva period at the Basti and Suraj was hallucinating Chakor being there, and Chakor was not even aware of his realization but leaving aside the logics (which is in the stratosphere) this scene was superb..)
Why??
This was the first time and the first scene where Paakhi made Suraj realise his love for Chakor and he spelt those beautiful words to himself... I LOVE YOU CHAKOR...and he realized that he is turning into her, she has indeed become his world and he is no more himself. (Thanks to Paakhi!)
This was also the first scene where Chakor realised her love and spoke out to KN that she loves Suraj and he is her future and he is her life...(Thanks to then Imlu)
Sukor were not with each other physically when they realized their love but their souls realized their love in their absence but at the same time...
Can my Sukor, adories love vanish so easily? I am glistening...
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When Chakor spoke those words she brought Suraj in her mind, he glimpsed in front of her and she closed her eyes to feel him, to listen to those magical words and her face was so peaceful, so calm, so beautiful, such a tranquility when she spoke those words... That few seconds, she had indepth love in her smile, her eyes were closed but was indeed smiling, she spoke those words with full of love...
She indeed lived that moment after weeks after he vanished in thin air! She forgot everything and lived that few seconds!
Why did she open her eyes?? I would have sublimed in that glimpse forever!
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Raaghav was smitten, why will he not be...each and every sukorian would have sublimed in that bliss.
My dude indeed came like a glimpse, but made me glisten completely.
That's the effect my dude Suraj Rajvanshi has on his Chakor
That's the effect my dude Suraj Rajvanshi has on me
Will he stay as glimpse??? Will he rise again to glisten my eyes with his rays, his shine or should my eyes ever glisten with tears??
Indeed his glimpse made me glisten!!!
She Prayed...while the other Preyed...will he be saved?
One Prayed calm... while one Preyed like a storm...
Thanks Mai for the summary which prepared me to watch the episode as because you all spoke about Meera's performance I wanted not to miss it but got the warning of the OTT of ****
She Prayed
Meera was excellent, Chakor...calm, composed, used her wits, wise and the positivity to save Raaghav and Imli. She was praying to Daak Baba to show a way to reach to them. She did not have any upfront clue but her firmness, positivity, that firmness to find them did bring the results... Her heart was worried, upset but her strong mind was fighting to find them, thinking ways to reach to them, she cannot lose, can she?. Will Daak baba make her loose...
I am not talking about her turn of Imli to Imlu ( as I get irritated at the writing and the makers)
In all she prayed with confidence, brought him to the hospital, yes he was holding both the hands... superficially I was getting upset at this but to Raaghav indeed he is treating Imli as a person who wants to change(in Raghaav's POV) he fought to save his maidam's sister. Chakor does not mix words, she said save our friend, I will follow all the hospital procedure... She reminisced all the apt ones. She cries at her heart but her mind is clear.
He was holding Chakor's hands too, the maidam who he is admiring, her fight, her zeal.
Her positivity in her blood matched his blood, He will be saved as she prayed.
For she is Chakor, born winner...She will defeat the defeat
She will bring that Aakash to Darthi!!!
She Preyed
Imli was completely preying upon Raaghav in all the earlier scene and in the coffin box she was saying when she tried to be evil she was fine but when she tried to do good look the state...and also in the hospital, she was negative, she was threatening the hospital doctor, she was again talking revenge of Aakash and that line apna Raaghav ko bachao!!! She decides inspite he was clear that he has no interest in her... and when the doctor told that she cannot go inside the OT, the negativity in her brought out those words Is he Dead?... all through she was just preying on him and not once she prayed to almighty... Should he be saved to be preyed???
In all this I liked the positivity of Anjor as she prayed...gave a good vibe. Raaghav is Suraj or not he is a good, kind, though initially for money but values relationship (his vow to Rajjoo to bring her culprits to books) he has now gone beyond his deal as he is relishing the bonding with Anjor, he is a carefree person but with his own values and loves to live his life.
He will be saved, for his blood is matching with the epitome of selflessness.
He will be Saved as She Prayed no so He will not be preyed by the other!
Daak Baaba, Bolenaath, I am also praying for my dude to come back!!! I am indeed behaving well as I donot steal any of your Prasad!!! Please get back my adories, my Sukor, My Suraj Rajvanshi and only he can Say those words Suraj Rajvanshi hai hum which is copyrighted to him and let not the evil say it in the same way!
I pray that her prayers will safeguard him from being preyed!!!
(T)HE Smoke(d)... I choke(d)... Suraj Rajvanshi...
January 9, 2019
I was seeing the episode with a neutral mind near my drawing room window, with fresh air, taking things as it was striding, with heavy heart as I saw the glimpses of my dude in her thoughts...
Raaghav's eyes the respect and admiration and I was taking it for he wants to turn himself into Suraj for Chakor.
Suddenly I choked as there was smoke, and that voice "Chakor just that and nothing else but uncontrollable tears rolled down my eyes (even now as I type) and that smoke, I literally choked to see my dude Suraj Rajvanshi stand there, with that magical smile and that eyes full of love for his Chakor... I am unable to explain that feeling, that emotion. The Mahiyaa at the background made me go completely uncontrollable.
I know many are making peace with the fresh air, Raaghav, I too don't have qualms as him individually I like him a lot, love him too to an extent that he goes all the way to bring happiness and smile in everyone's face.
So I thought I am moving on...trying to make myself believe... I am enjoying the fresh air but suddenly that smoke, my dude brought me that realization that I have not moved on for this fresh air is good but that too chokes me for it comes gushing on my face...
I realized that I choke with this fresh air too as I realized the truth that I enjoy my breeze, my Sunlight...My dude... the one and only Suraj Rajvanshi...
But, Is he really gone? will he come only in smoke? When I see the smoke I choke but I rather get choked.. be with the smoke as I can see my dude there and wait for that breeze to clear the smoke as only breeze can clear the smoke while gush of fresh air swirls the smoke..
So, Should Chakor also stay behind and not embrace the fresh air but long for the breeze which has turned its path to the North, heavenly abode? ( I hope not)
No Chakor, I will not stop you as In the fresh air you felt a bit of breeze in it as you reminisced Suraj while with Raaghav... is it wrong? No...
Chakor, my birdie, You may move on with the fresh air, I will not stop you for you too need to live your life but I will not and shall not move on as I will be in the smoke, choked waiting for the breeze to embrace me, if miracle happens!
I realized myself that yes it is VJ the versatile actor who is playing both Raaghav and Suraj so I should like him, whatever it is but it is not true, my heart adores and admires and love only Suraj Rajvanshi.
I realized that I have indeed fallen for SR, this character more than the actor himself. Yes it is MeeJay who are playing but my SuKor, my adories takes a step ahead than MeeJay, Raaghav and Chakor.
I don't know what he is going to say tomorrow...Will he say Chakor move on or will he say "DP I love you and no one can love you as I can I am sure I will be wrong as many are thinking he will ask his Chakor to move on but ...
Suraj, will the breeze breeze to clear the smoke? Or will I remain Choked...
Yes its Smoke and I am Choked but I will not and cannot Move On.
I rest my pen but not my tears!
Ammaji ka Pyaara bana Gyanidevi ka sahaara - Raaghav indeed a string of melody
I wrote when Raaghav was introduced whether he will turn into Kaccha wound (Raw Gaav) or String of melody (Raagha)
My loyalty remains with my dude but why not have have fun without feud! (Nikki, thera RR mustu bey)vv
Ammaji ka Pyaara, indeed always taking his amma's name, quoting his piousness by chanting bajrang bali and making me believe that he will have only one woman in his life as a follower of Ramji.
Raaghav indeed the fresh air in everyone's life... not only for Chakor..but for all... when he comes on screen my face goes glee! Indeed he brings the lighter moments.
In a very short span he has won so many hearts that yes he is indeed loved by one and all. He is innocent, pure, unadulterated and speaks his mind and does not hide.
He is not a magician nor a comedian but a practical guy full of life.
His dialogue delivery, those special one liners, he the calm piratical person does not get agonized and handles everything in his own style.
Over the past two episodes right from the hospital scene its indeed so refreshing.
I am searching now the one who was so worried about his handsometa, of being a father to a 8 year and wanted to just enjoy life, is stringing melody around that little angel (yes I am liking anjor now, thanks to the powerhouses beside her she has mellowed a lot and expressing well) has considered her as his own that he starts his day exercising with her on him, even practiced to plait the hair on the doll to be perfect for the little one. He did not want her to get scared that he was buried alive but turned into a comedy saying he acted to be saved from Imli. Indeed he was.
I am still searching the one who came for money and to have masti, has attuned himself to his Maidamji (not madam, this too in his own style).. a smile on my face when I saw the way he had saved Chakor as Maidam Ji on his mobile phone and in his heart too with highest regards. (no love). His eyes emitted those regard, respect, rever when he found that his Maidamji brought him alive by giving her blood. Amma's pyaara became Teju amma's pyaara too.
Amma's pyaara came to help Chakor without any attachment just for money but he stepped into becoming her Sahara not by compulsion but by his own choice.
He is a piractical guy but still has his morals as he fumed, flared when he was wrongly accused but when realized the injustice caused on his adopted sister he did not fear to dare the culprit to bring him to books and stood like a pillar for his maidam ji.
The piractical guy he is does not fear anyone so casually flirted with Imli too so what she may try to turn hard but would he care.
His respect and rever is starting to mellow into feelings for his Maidam Ji still he knows he is not Suraj but somewhere he wanted to be him as he is becoming attracted to this strong lady not just for her beauty but for her boldness and selflessness when he saw her walk up the staircase after telling whether few other things will ever be fine?
He is unpad, buddu, not smart does not know anything about farming but within no time has learnt everything about the grains as he wants to become her Sahara but no less in crediting her as Gyanidevi. (this made me think of my dude who named her so many... chalo let me not slip into my emotional side now)
Hmmm he seems to be no less in naming my birdie, Apart the initial shayari as Suraj ki Kiran, bahubali, now comes Gyanidevi... His mind knows he has to leave as everything is sorted but his heart wants to stay and not to leave for he just wants to be her support.
She tripped and fell and he caught but his eyes were plain just that innocent smile seeing the grain and removing it, while she slipped a little bit in his minsicule touch remembering those intimate scenes, her eyes closed for a sec but my birdie quickly came to sense (this was the afterthought because of Teju's words)
The next scene proved that this Amma's pyaara wanted to be Maidam ji's sahaara. She shouts at him, he doesnot understand her anger but all he says chalo lets cool down with elachi chai... I indeed smiled at his innocence but I felt proud of him even more when he could relate her anger after hearing to Teju's words. When she called him not to speed he did not divulge what he heard but just kept it plain as he did not want to embarrass her at that time.
Yes Raaghav lalla, indeed this amma's pyaara has indeed become my birdie's saharaa!
I don't know whats in store, what is going to happen but for one thing sure as Nikki says just enjoy the mastu bey!
He Spoke the Unspoken...She Broke being the Reason
Yesterday!!!!
For the first time saw a pure soul's confession
For the first time saw a pure soul's confusion
A teary applause for the powerhouses, Meejay proved that they need no special settings, need no special ambience, need no special costumes to set the screen on fire..
A normal night, abnormal situation, serene calmness, the souls were screaming but I was freezing within myself.
Just that scene I want to share...
Sukor's confession has always been something out of the world...but ... this is not my sukor and there is no confession...
It was a moment where the pure, unadulterated soul, which had to face such a situation where he had to speak those unspoken as she is shaken with those words of Tejaswini.
He spoke what he did not want to speak as he knows his maidam is shaken but after he spoke she was broken not because he spoke but because she was the reason for those unspoken words.
(confusing my lines isn't it, yes first even I too felt confused but slowly got fused into the soul ...that soul which spoke all his heart out)
He knew she was disturbed, she did the unexpected, showed her anger on her little angel... she ran, wanted to run away from everything, to her Suraj but she couldnot as their symbol of love is holding her...but all she wanted is some alone time as life is posing a big question in front of her..
Raaghav the pure soul knew what was going through her, ran behind as the little angel was upset...
She spoke out making him see where he stands but he said he will not leave as she is parishaan!! And he knows the reason of her worry as Amma has told him!!
The shock in her eyes, the shock that he knows and maybe was expecting an affirmative answer and that range of emotions which brought out
I will not accept... Suraj is still in every part of me, he is the essence of my breath, and I was, is and will ever be of Suraj... You are an outsider, for me and for my daughter so stay away... Her anger, her frustration came out, she calmed,
I thought he would shout but I was taken aback when he said if you are done with your anger can I speak?
Chakor is Chakor she decides that everything is over so she wanted to leave, but the next line, you have spoken, but let me speak now... No... but that pull started to speak those unspoken words, those unshared emotions, his soul started to rattle which came out so calm. He did not crash her on him but did hold her close, he is pure so he did not feel uncomfortable and he spoke... He spoke... She broke at every word of his, as everything was unfolding in front of her she broke as she began to feel that she was the reason...
Those words with such soul soothing modulation...
The first confusing line... Looking straight into her eyes...
Maidam you should marry me, your life will be good with me... she was confused... Amma told this.
You did not want to spend your life with me... You told this, You spoke everything but
What did I do...I did not speak anything, Did I... and thus he spoke , he unfolded those words which made me freeze...
Did I say that... When I look into your eyes, I forget the world...I did not na
Did I say that ...When you smile I just think whether I should even breathe or not...I did not na
Did I say that ---after you came into my life, my life's direction has changed..I did not na
Did I say...When you are not near me, I feel everything around me is blank... I did not na
He spoke those words which was deep inside his soul, and as he spoke she broke for she saw the truth in his eyes, the unadulterated love in his eyes, she could see his heart through those eyes which was looking so innocent, so pure... she broke as she started to realise those emotions, feeling which was not supposed to be... She was breaking...
I started to feel more for him as this carefree, rustic rowdy has so much hidden in his heart, never brought it out as he knew that she was in deep pain and constantly made to remember that he is imposting Suraj and not her Suraj, but at the base of his heart he is yearning for Suraj to come into him... I reminisced those moments when my dude said he has no life of his own as he has become her... he breathes only for her...
I got shaken like Chakor for a sec when she was brought back when he said you are angry with me fine but angry with our daughter... The reality dawned... Dawned upon her she spoke her agony, hiding her shock... he is an outsider to her and her daughter but those words of his, first time he raised his voice not he was angry on her but angry on himself as he knows he is an outsider but his heart does not, as it considers the little angle, that little princess as his own, the bond he is cherishing, relishing which he does not want to forego and the bonding he has created with his Maidam...
Those words reverberating...Galti, Galti, Galti yes he is wrong
For he is loving her
For he wants to start living for her
For he wants to start owing his life for her so that she is his...
When he spoke there was only love, no lust or passion for he was just speaking those unspoken emotions piled within him, which he was concealing as he knows he cannot be her Suraj but... wants to be...
He has done a mistake, he accepts it, its not his mind but his soul (I remembered my dude who never shy to accept mistake)... and that thapad that slap which brought out her anger on herself which was shown on him, disposed self agony in psychological terms!?!
She soon realized this pure soul is not at fault for she was the soothradhari of the whole thing, she was to be blamed and when she said I know something was cooking but could not identify, I am to be blamed and not you... that second his face was shocked, changed as he does not want her to feel guilty (I remembered Suraj when she felt guilt of running away from him during the Benaras track, his expression changed for he cannot make his chakor feel guilty).
She realized that this pure soul has hidden all his words inside and was still with her as he knows his Maidam Ji is always selfless. She felt guilty and she broke as she has unintentionally been the reason for those words which was unspoken but just spoken.
Raaghav stood tall in front of my eyes as even after the slap, he was calm, understanding her agony, her guilt feeling and was wanting to be there for her.
I donot want chakor to feel guilty nor I want Raaghav to feel heartbroken as for one I was sure Chakor will not move on with any melody till she is in harmony which is only with her Suraj,
I am praying to almighty to hear my well spoken words and bring a reason to turn Raaghav into Suraj for otherwise this pure soul will forget to live...
Hope my prayers be a reason for the unspoken to become well spoken!
(Sorry girls... I know it is too long but... Nikki I owe this to you dear are you are the reason for these written words of mine🤗)