My feels are numb as I type this... too much ugly crying...
This pain... like a thousand arrows piercing your fragile heart...
Poor, poor Aahil... kya sazaa hai yeh?
Getting away from his dark misery of a life was hard enough... but the next hurdle is even more difficult for him...
If only we could go and give him some strength and hope... Be strong Aahil...
At the mandir he prays most sincerely, please bring Sanam back into my life, only then I will find my peace...
Sagish mein shaamil sara jahan hai
Har zare zare ki yeh iltiza hai ... Ore piya...
( The whole existence is part of the intrigue.
Still I hold on to hope, and kindle the embers.)
<How cruel is Fate? She appeared right there... and he can't take her into his arms... how will he find his peace? >
He turns after the prayer and takes a cursory look around him with eyes blurred with tears. But something stops him,
Wait... who was that? Was my eyes playing tricks on me?
He turns around, and his heart stops. She's right there...!
"Sanam...?"
Is this possible? I just asked, and she appears like this?
He can hardly believe it. Enough times he had wished and wished, and nothing happened. So much that he feels scared this is some kind of cruel joke.
The emotions overwhelm him. It's so sad to see a man lose control of his emotions , his weakest moments. His instinct is to run to her and hold her, but he checks himself. She is praying... She hasn't seen me yet...
I can't wait to see her smile at me... again.
The tears won't stop falling... He turns away...
Get a grip over yourself Aahil... She can't see you like this...!
He thanks Allah and turns around with a joyous smile... Now I will smile..
For her... at her...
She turns and smiles...
and he can't hold him tears back any longer... his tremulous smile belies a hurricane of emotions...
A smile of recognition on her face...somewhat less in "watt'-age with regards to the smiles of Sanam... and she walks to him...
near him... as Aahil just stands there...
and past him ...
to Shaad...
<Cruel... cruel writers... argh.. my shipper heart... arrow straight in the middle>
<cue: noisy wala ugly crying...>
To watch Sanam walking away from him towards another man, and see this man touch her like that. I do not wish that pain upon my worst enemy. Oh my God...
Somebody sedate me...
<I dunno how KV does it, that glassy eyed sheen of moisture , simply heart wrenching>
Wait, what's happening? How is this possible?
I know it right to my bones that this is Sanam...but
How can my Sanam be another man's Jannat?
Jannat asks Shaad, How is he... um Mr. Qureshi...?? Is he alright now?
Shaad: Why he is right here !!
Aahil quickly dries his tears, but he can't hide the devastation in his eyes. Jannat can see something has tortured the man , and asks...You are alright ?
"Just remembered someone important to me..."
Sanam's voice is speaking to him, something he thought he'd never hear again... but the words are all wrong...
At this point, i saw that Aahil is not going to let this go without some questions...
"You're married? But you are not wearing a ring?"
a mark of a ring is visible on her finger, his ring, on his wife Sanam... missing.
Jannat shift uneasily, and Shaad answers for her...
"Oh , we don't believe in such rituals..."
"But she has a ring mark... as though she had worn a ring before..."
She speaks... " Actually I was in an accident, after which I lost my memories. Everything that happened before that accident, I can't remember..."
1st HUGE clue... for Aahil...
"Your wedding... happened after the accident?"
"No, that too before the accident..."
"Do you remember the wedding?"
"Unfortunately no... but I had my husband to remind me of it..."
2nd HUGE clue... by now, Aahil is convinced this is his Sanam.
"Janab, why the interrogation? " asks a shifty Shaad.
Aahil holds back with Shaad, Something strange is going on here, I need to get more information...
"Can I ask you something?"
"You can ask anything of me..." <deeper more intense meaning that intended...>
"Who is Sanam?" Jannat asks..."In your sleep, in your dreams, all you speak is her name... who is she?"
He falter... She's asking about herself... What do I say? How to tell her who Sanam is? I won't let her go without telling her...!
I will tell her, and I will take her back with me...
Shaad distracts them to leave to another place...
Precap:
"Your Sanam is just like me..! Trust me, I'm just like that !
"Not just your nature, your face too is just like hers..."
Aahil has realized that something is amiss here... he must make sure Sanam is really Sanam before he reacts to Shaad. I suspect the friendliness isn't going to be there for long...
Even if she has lost her memories, she should be with her family, not some random good Samaritan who rescued her. Thats' just wrong.
I hope Aahil doesn't just walk away...
Back in Bhopal:
Sanam2 is finding her sapno ki duniya falling into ruins around her. She has no money to even buy food. She stalks the door for the pizza guy.
When he arrives, he demands payment before he delivers. She is outraged, but he is derisive...
"Everybody knows your husband left you, and you have no money. Please don't wave your title around and pay me in cash."
Desperate and hungry, she yanks off her earrings and gives it in exhange for the pizza box.
She swallows the pizza down and hiccups, her mother hands her a glass of water. She hugs the mother, as the older woman explains her duty as a mother.
Sanam2 finds out that it was her mother who advised Aahil to run away from here and find his love. She screeches betrayal and hisses like a scorned woman. Unrepentant.
Mummy shakes her head her unrepentant child. I have only one gift for a child like you.. Sanam3 finds a pair of slippers, and a note saying, with these , go back to where you came from.
Precap: an angry mob of women throw Sanam2 out of the Ibrahim Mansion.
I keep thinking about Aahil's wallet in Sanam and Shaad's room... the one full of pictures of Sanam...
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