Our love is our epitome of survival...
It soothes our nerves,
It calms our mind,
It heals our scars,
It lighten the darkness,
It inculcates the hope,
It makes the ache go away,
Together we will survive this...
Our love is Our Promise...
A promise of Togetherness,
A promise of completion,
A promise of being there for each other always,
A promise of finding happiness midst sadness,
A promise of survival from the tremors of evil,
A promise of Forever ever after,
Together we will survive this...
Our love is our Salvation...
Salvation from fear,
Salvation from demons,
Salvation from this evil world,
Salvation from every abomination,
Salvation from being adrift,
Salvation from losing ourself,
Together we will survive this...
Because whenever we will fall,
Our love will pick us up,
It will give us the fervour to fight the hurdles,
So that we can rise as Phoenix...
Together, our love will
find us, eventually completing us...
bye..
take care...
EDITED 😳
Okies, here I am. Today's post was just all kinds of amazing, seriously. How did my Manik become so positive, so hopeful ? lol. I joke. I love that your positivity has a way of shining in your writing. And today, it was especially needed. Needless to say you are all sorts of utter perfection' and absolutely beautiful.'
I am gonna kinda let my thoughts loose first. Honestly, there has been so much negativity since yesterday in regards to episodes and the characters. While everyone is entitled to their own opinion, I think the negativity tends to spread easily. Anywho, I wanna be able to rant about what I feel Manan are going through and I know this is the perfect place to do it.
Survival instinct. There is something called survival instinct that living beings have. It's almost like adrenaline. It's there to keep us going until we need to. It's what keeps us going psychological, the survival instinct tells the mind and body, keep going, keep going. And so the person keeps going. Nandini had a fight to win, she had to defeat evil. She had to be strong for that. Her survival instinct kept her going. Kept her going until...until the battle was won. And what happens after a energy drink ? We crash. That's what the survival instinct does to us to, we keep going until we have to and then we crash and burn. Nandini's battle has been won and now the reality of how one night has changed her starts to show. The scars start to show, the mental scars. The flashbacks are making her relive the nightmare, over and over again. No matter how she tries for normalcy, the memories are numbing her to everything but those images. She stands in one place, physically present but mentally she is trapped in the endless hours of the horrors. She pretends. Nandini Murthy who was nothing but real now feels the needs to wear a mask. She is going to wear a mask and make the world believe that one night of horror changed nothing. And only one person will see past her mask: Manik Maltorta. Of course he will, if she was the only one to see past the monster manik mask he wore and slowly but surely made him shed, then you can bet that he knows when someone is wearing a mask; especially when that someone is his Nandini.
The wounds start to show, the wounds to her beliefs and faith. Nandini, the beautiful bight star's light has now dimmed. The world has shoved her hard into the darkness, and it's starting to become so hard, she cannot see her Manik clearly enough, she cannot reach out to and hold his hand to steady herself, she cannot see clearly enough to find her way home. She is lost, she is so lost, so lost. Here is a girl whose beliefs have been proven wrong. Manik kept telling her, kept warning her but she kept her faith strong: a guru and student's relationship is one of purity and respect. She was wrong ! She has been proven wrong hence the fault is hers ! And no matter how hard Manik tries right now, this is how she sees the situation. It's a sad world when the victim blames herself and it happens so often. But this is Nandini, this is Manik's Nandini. This is Manan. This is love. Even in pain, they are companions. When they have promised each other togetherness for a short span of Hamesha, then they will go each turn of life together.
Nandini, sighs, she is broken right now, she is lost right now. Just think, a girl so full of love and positivity has been broken. She is allowed to be not make sense', she is allowed to break down. She is allowed to put up walls; a man loves her more than enough to break them down. Give the girl a break, most victims wouldn't be able to get up and face the next day. And this girl has. Now she needs time. She needs time to heal and find herself. She needs tender love and care, and she will push against It but again, a man loves her enough, is stubborn enough to keep loving her until he can heal her, until he can help her find herself again.
Did it hurt when Nandini flinched from Manik's touch ? When she didn't allow him to heal and soothe like his touch does ? Of course, it hurt like bloody hell, hurt them both. Have no doubt about ! Their sense of touch is one of their languages, one of their means of communication and that was cut off today. Their touch is magic for each other, it has the ability of heal and soothe. Today, Nandini fought that touch, maybe because she isn't ready to heal yet. The hurt needs to stay for a little bit because her heart needs to be able to grieve properly, she wants to cry about it so she feels lighter. Manik needs to touch her, touch her for her and for himself. Her touch calms him, soothes him. Seeing her in this state, so defeated, so broken is shattering his heart too. When he was on a mission to expose the Pandit, he knew his Nandini would be hurt, he just didn't foresee the damage being this severe. He never thought the Pandit could hurt and scar his Nandini so deeply. Not being to hold her and absorb her tears is leaving his edgy, his anger is filling him up and he is pacing around wishing he had killed that Pandit for hurting his Nandini. One of senses is missing today and the effect of it, so evident for both of them.
Are Manan on a rocky road ? Yes, a trauma has a way of scarring a couple and it takes time to heal. Have Manik and Nandini ever be able to walk away ? Never ! Do Manik and Nandini love each other? Of course ! And when does love show their deepest colour ? when one is in pain, and the other will hurt just as much. And they will find a way to make the hurt go away. Like they say: "Love will find a way." And Manik and Nandini's love is strong, they will find a way for Nandini to find her way home, to her Manik.
Did I make sense? Maybe, maybe not but I am glad I let my thoughts loose.
Love you my Twinkie bear,
- reya aka your sunny <3
Take a bow tinks,
Your writing is just amazing...I just loved reading it..Your post has so much passion in it..😳😳😳. I wanna write a long paragraph lekin sach mein main khud hi lost hooon.. The last two episodes have been really heartwrenching and heartbreaking.. I chose not to watch it.. but after reading your post, I went and watched the episode... so here it goes.. its gonna be a small...
The first thing that came in my mind was this after seeing Manik and Nandini.. " Kaise main baatoun yeh tera is tarah rona..dekha nahi jaata hai sun..Shaam jab dhalti hain suba muskurati hai..Khushboo lutati hai sun...Udaasi ke lamho mein humein muskurana hai...Tere dil ka meri dil se rishta purana hai...In aankho ke har aansoon mujhko chura na hai"...Just like in Koi aap se hai, Anita was sad and she was broken. She tried very hard to pull herself out of the world..out of crowds because she was sexually assaulted... she wanted to hide from the world. This is exactly what Nandini is feeling, doing..She is scared of every relationship..every pure relationship that she believed in... You see tinks, no one can understand the feeling of being assaulted unless they go through it. For nandini, the world has been pure..everyone is good.. she was raised like that.. She was not raised to face monsters like manik, she was not raised to deal with witches like nyonika..she was not raised to handle devils like pandit... She was raised in the most loving caring nature..she was not aware of big bad wolves in the forest that exist and that come out to hurt people when darkness falls..she is having a hard time coping with her surroundings.. You remember that scene when Manik says, "Nandini, its me Manik"..this sentence didn't get through to her.. This is the same Manik that she hoped to be with.. She had hope to sing with him at the FC..the same manik who she challenged that her hope will win...this is the same Manik who said "I Love you Nandini"..The same Manik who promised her "forever, Hamesha"...Despite Manik being her manik..she cannot see that... She is lost...she is lost in this big bad world.. and she is very vulnerable at this moment...she feels that everything around her will suffocate her...
You know that old saying right? A phoenix must burn to ashes to emerge? Same thing with Nandini..she got a huge blow at her reality that not everyone in this world is a nice person, never go for face value... she is broken and this will make her into a strong girl..The same girl who punched manik..she will emerge again.. its just the process of growing up.. we all take a huge hit sometime in our life and that teaches us to be strong and rise...The precap that I saw was confusing...The sexy dangerous Manik is back though...I loved what he said, "IDC if you like yourself or not, I will not let you lose..If you still think that we should not be together then we wont be"...Even though Manik knows Nandini is hurting, he is for her sake willing to stay away from her...not be together...I saw parth's new insta update about searching for peace...so it must mean that he stays away from her and leaves...For her happiness and her sake, judaai bhi manzoor hai...He is trying to find ppeace in those waters but he is probably worried for her... Let's just hope either he drops at her place or she comes...
As for Nyonika and Harshad..My favorite two villians are back!!.😳😳😳..Harshad is back with a vendetta on his mind...He is not what he seems.. Again face value... harshad harshad harshad...aise hot hot villians kahan se laate hai yeh cvs.. lol.. but drama hone wala hai... since harshad is back in space and pandit is out...Its all about Fab 5, NavNi and Harshad now!!... Now back to my favorite couple...Cabir and Navya...khuda jane inn dono ka kya hoga?..I know harshad is about to create some problems for Cavya for sure..Like I said, it's a whole new game now.. which will be interesting to watch.. The show seems to be dragging a little bit but hopefully by next week...kuch drama naya milenge that will be entertaining and you know when harshad and manik are in the same frame...kuch to jaalne wala hai..
That is all... forgive me for any mistakes... I have no idea what I wrote.. Aaj kaal meri dimaag lost hai... pata nahi kahan kho gaya... ;)
Queen of Cabir <3