Part 50(b): I Hate You kalpi (Part II)
"I HATE YOU..."
she just stared at him with a shock as he just practically break her heart with his words, His Words were clear, voice was cold.. "I hate you.. I HATE YOU KALPI.. I.. HATE.. YOU..." he confessed bitterly
She lowered her eyes, remembering each nd every moment they spent together, she agreed she never expected him to lover her back, but 'hate'... Tear rolls down from her cheek, she never expected him to use this word for her.. Her head was heavy with d moments they share, her hopes, everything falls badly.. She closed her eyes to calm herself... 'It's ok kalpi.. You knew from the very first day you can't expect him to love you... He never will..' She assure herself nd about to took a step back wen "Careful.." Raghav hold her waist, pulled her to him as she was again about to bumped with d corner.. He stared her face, tears were flowing down, while her eyes were on his chest, but she feels his gaze on her.. She doesn't want to break.. Not in front of him.. He who never loved her, she knew but he hates her.. "I hate your tears..." He gritted out, "leave me.. Raghav Singhaniya.." She said coldly while his grip tighten on her again, she struggles in his arms "leave me.." He just stared at her blankly.. With all her strength she pushed him away "I SAID LEAVE ME..." she yelled causing him to take his step back.. She glared at him angrily 'I hate you kalpi' she clenched her jaws, she know she just need some tym as today her Rakshas Singhaniya again become heartless.. He just broke her heart, but after his care, protection, possessiveness he not only broke her heart again.. He broke her.. She wants to cry out loud, she wants to scream, shout but she just stared at him.. N then turn to leave n b4 she opened the door, he hold her elbow b4 pinning her to d door.. "Le..
"Don't.." Raghav said coldly "Don't even you dare.." He said dangerously "you want to know the truth na kalpi.. Then y r u running away.. Just accept what I feel for you HATRED.." She closed her eyes doesn't want to show how badly his words hurt her.. He close the gap b/w them by pressing his body on hers, she struggles but immediately stopped wen he buried his head in crook of her neck.. Her still closed while her heart was beating faster bcz of his touch, his closeness... "You take 30 years of my lyf in these 30 days Woman.." He whispered b4 kissing her neck, she moves at his touch.. They stayed still for a several minutes "you scared me kalpi.. You scared your Rakshas Singhaniya to death.." He confessed kissing on her ear, causing her to open her eyes, he looked into her eyes b4 brushing away the stray of hair from her face.. "What you did to me kalpana vithal jadav..??, I wasn't lyk this EVER... I was rude, heartless, incapable to love anyone.. I was a hard stone..." N then you came, he cupped her cheeks "Now.. I smile wen you're happy, I feeling killing everyone, wen I saw tears in these eyes..." "Secret.." He whispered "I sometimes feel to kill kamla maa for her behaviour towards you.." He accepted innocently a smile finally broke on kalpi's face causing kalpi to look at him amusingly... "I hate attachments.. My dad was everything for me, I was totally dependent on him, he loved me, played with me.. N then he left me, someone doesn't want me to be happy in lyf.." He laughs mockingly "N now, wen I have you, to love me, to care for me.. Someone again wants to snatch you away from me.." He laughs weakly "you told me you don't trust your faith kalpi.. I don't even trust mine.. We're on a same page.. Fear of Faith Singhaniya's..!!! He smiles sadly "Raghav.." She brushed tip of her finger on his cheek "Shh.. I want to talk.." He whispered "will you listen to mee chatter box.." He asked innocently causing her to nod her head slowly "I was scared I pushed people away... Wen I lost dad, I lost my every relation.. I was a bad son, who thought that his mother had an affair.. Kalpi open her mouth wen she placed a finger on her lips while shooking his head "A bad Son, who never talked to his mother for 15 long years.. And then you came, All misunderstandings, truth came out.. And the funniest part was The girl with whom i promised she'll be my first priority 'My tigress..' Became my wife.. One more relation added in my shattered lyf.. I thought my married lyf with you was a adventurous ride, n very torturous as we both are different... " she lowered her eyes "Ever heard about opposite attracts.." She looks up at him causing him to sigh "was our case.." "Each n every pain made our relation stronger.. Each attack shows me what's your place in my lyf.. But y always you kalpi..?? Y everyone tried to hurt you.. Including your mother.." Tear fell from her eye "This.." He slowly took d drop of tear from her cheek on his index finger "You know y I hate this..?? Bcz I know how much you suffer in your life.. This made me realise I want to do lot in my lyf... FOR YOU... Too keep u happy, give you every happiness you deserve.. To make you feel special.. To make you feel that your presence, your existence made me alive.. To show the world that you're MINE..." he confessed softly while she looked straight into his eyes... "You said you hate me.." She snapped in a whipered
He smiles sadly "I do.. I do hate you.."
"I was scared kalpi.. I was scared.. Wen I saw you lying lifeless on d road, in pool of blood.. Something died inside me.. N wen doctor declared you were in coma.. I was dead at d moment, I don't wanted anyone but you at that tym.. I want you to woke up, to shout, to argue, to fight.. But you didn't... He cupped her face again "I thought I never able to feel your movements again..." He kissed on her bandage forehead, she closed her eyes.. "Never able to look, and lost in those eyes, which talked to me more than anything.." He kissed her eyelids one by one, her heart stopped at his words "Never able to tease you again..." He kissed her nose, at his every kiss, every touch she closed her eyes.. "Never able to feel your touch.." He gives a long lingering kiss on her cheeks one by one, n then d moment she opens her eyes again she saw him looking at her lips, he closed the gap between them, "Never able to hear your confession.. The names you give me related to my actions.. With that he leans in n brush his lips on... Her palm.. Yes d same moment she raise her hand n keep it between their lips (terrace scene of EMA almost kiss typs..) Their eyes were closed for d briefest second wen she opened it n remove her hand while leaning back, he looked at her "you're drunk raghav..." She whispered b4 lowering her eyes, "let me leave.." She murmured he takes a step back allowing her to leave, she moves, turn around, opened the door "I was drunk bcz of you.." He said with a small smile "Bcz I know you never allow yourself to fall for me.. But this bear bottle did.." She turned around to look at him confusingly "fall is a wrong word raghav singhaniya.. I already fallen for you.. In fact I love you.." She snapped "But you don't.. So stop saying n doing things which you definitely never do wen you are in your senses.." She turns
"I thought I lost you kalpi.." His words were urgent, again stopped her, she turns to face him, his face was lowered eyes were closed "I thought never able to say what I wanted too.." "I thought I lost you lyk I lost dad.."
She took a step towards him, slowly she cupped his face, she froze wen a lone tear fell from his eye.. "What you're doing to yourself raghav..?? She asked wiping d tear while looking at him strangely "what you're doing to me kalpi..?? He asked "I don't want to loose you.. I want to feel you're here, that this not dream.."
"I'm here.. I'm here.."
"Show me.." Her expression changes "Show me that you're here.. Let me feel you.. Take your touch as eternity.. Take your words as forever.. Let me feel you chatter box.." He said cupping her cheek pressing his body on hers, making her gasp "Let me feel you.." With a nod she closed her eyes, he leans in.. D moment his lips touches hers spark flies.. She moans at d first touch, feels weak, as if about to pass out wen he hold her waist with his arm, while his hand showing him how where to hold him, without parted his lips on her, he gently placed her hand on his shoulder, she hold his shoulder blade tightly while he pulled her more on him rested other hand on her cheek to deepen d kiss.. With a moan she finally gave in n respond to d kiss.. She kissed him back with more urgency, her hands tangled up in his hairs pulling his face more to kiss him, to feel him... Their tongues fights for dominance, which clearly won by her dominating husband, he tasted each n every corner of her mouth, she moans in his mouth, n pressed herself on him making him groan.. After a long passionate, intense kiss they pulled away breathing heavily, resting his forehead on hers, closing their eyes, they can listen each other heartbeats, feel their breath "I love you.." She whispered after a long silence causing him to smile "I hate you.." She wide open her eyes looking at him shockingly.. Wen he touched her cheek "I hate you for making me feel things which I never felt before.."
"I hate you for breaking your promise that you'll keep my wife safe, which you didn't.."
"I Hate you for making me feel mentally sick.." He closes the gap of their faces.. "I HATE YOU FOR MAKING ME FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU..." he finally whispered
It took 25 minutes to make her understand what he actually said.. N wen she did
"What did you say..?? She asked
"I hate you.." Was his instant response causing her smile "after that raghav singhaniya..??
R: to make me feel things which I never felt before..
Kalpi looks at him trying hard to control her smile "No, after that.." "I hate you.."
"Urrgh.. I know you hate me, but what you said after that Raghav singhaniya.."
R: After what kalpana.. That you broke your promise to, you make me mentally sick... He said irritatingly
K signed: and the last one.. "I hate you.." She rolls her eyes trying hard not to fight with this arrogant, & attitude singhaniya..
K: yes.. You hate me bcz..
He looked at her, they share a long eye lock wen "For making me fall in LOVE with you..." He whispered taking her into his embrace while a tear happiness roll down from her cheek.. "You're impossible raghav singhaniya.." She said with a wide smile b4 hugging him back
"Am I.." He asked kissing her on her hair.. "Yes you're this is d way you confess..?? I hate you kalpi.. Bappa.. You n your style I never expected you to love me back, but still there was hope that may be you do n confessed to.. N now you do love me but you said hate me and
"Stop..!!" He said breaking d hug "I don't even understand, y u talk so much chatter box.." She pouted "I'm only confirming..!! He looks at her confusingly, "Confirming what..?? She sighed "See, you hate me, right..?? He nods "right you hate me, but you hate me not that way, you hate me lyk other way, so you love me, but at end you confessed lyk you hate me but you actually don't, still you hate me.." She huffed
He looks at her, with a raised brow "fyn even I don't know what I'm saying.." She said confusingly causing him to shook his head b4 scooping her "Confused soul.." She widen her eyes "Raghav Singhaniya what are you doing..?? Put me down..!!" While he make their way to d next bedroom...
He gently placed her on d bed, sitting besides her n taking her in his arms "I missed you chatter box.." He muttered while she buried her head in his chest "i want this tym alone with you.. I don't want to go back.. Stay with me.." He whispered causing her smile "always.." She said softly while kissing his neck, she frowns "but on one condition.." He pulled away "condition..??" He asked she nods "yes, condition.."
R: Great.. What's that..?? He snapped
"I want my Rakshas Singhaniya back.." She whispered softly
Kalpi sat on the washbasin slab, wearing a long n loose maxi, while her dominating husband stood b/w her legs, they both were looking at each other, wen she finally sighed "R you sure Raghav singhaniya..??" She asked.. He smirk "this is your condition.. N I'm lyk this bcz of you.. So m sure kalpana raghav singhaniya.." He come close, wrap his arms around her waist "Do It.. I'm going to help you..." He whispered b4 pecking her lips.. While kalpi gulps, "you sure..?" "Yes kalpana.." He said irritatingly she pouted, with shaky hands she hold shaving brush, put some shaving cream on it, n look at him with a raised brow, he smirk n keep his face more towards her "bappa.. I'm doing this first tym, y you don't do this..?? She asked while rolling the brush on his beard "bcz you said you want your rakshas singhaniya back.. Your Rakshas Singhaniya is lyk this bcz of you chatter box.." He taunted, she stopped "Don't taunt me.." She pouted he smiles n hugs her "m not taunting you, this is my way to tell you much I missed you Mrs. Singhaniya.." She smiles hugging him back "say it again.." She whispered "Mrs. Singhaniya.." She broke the hug they share an eyelock, wen he keep his index finger on her cheek n then keep it on her nose "Mrs. Kalpana Raghav Singhaniya.." She frowns n keep her finger on her nose, she widen her eyes wen she found shaving cream on her nose, she makes a complete o shape mouth wen she found it on her left cheek bcz of the hug "yikes raghav singhaniya.." She said wiping it, causing him to chuckle while she looked at him "I lyk wen you laugh.." She whispered, he stopped "N I lyk wen you're the reason of my laugh.." She smiles "I know.." With that she start her work with the shaving cream n Razer on his face...
"Perfect.." She said kissing both on his light stubble cheek "Welcome back the Mighty Raghav Singhaniya.." He smiles looking at him at mirror "Not bad kalpana raghav singhaniya.. You did this fyn..
She makes a o mouth "what fyn.. Its perfect Mr. i me n myself.. You never look so handsome ever in your whole lyf.." She said proudly, he raised his brows "don't I'm saying correct.. I...
"You called me handsome..?? He asked
She smiles "well yes, but if you want i can call you more better words than this.." She said wrapping her arms around his neck "Really.. Well m waiting Mrs. Singhaniya.."
Kalpi pursed her to stop her smiling "well for more words then you are handsome off course.. He nods "apart from that arrogant.. He twitched his right eyes "Aggressive, Akdu, stubborn...
Stop it..!! He interjected "you suppose to say better words for me.." She smiles pecking him sweetly on his lips "for you these are not just better but best words I can give you n I'm glad in this whole world only I've a right to call you everything on your face..." His expression soften at her words, he touched her cheeks "What you're doing to me kalpi.." He asked in a whispered, she sighed b4 resting his cheek on his heart "Loving you raghav singhaniya.. Loving you with everything I have.." She said softly he kissed on her head "You're making me mentally sick.." He whispered causing her smile "good, bcz a few days back.. You were doing d same thing.. They laughed
"Raghav please.." Kalpi finally whispered with teary eyes, while he clenched his jaws "I can't kalpi.. I can't.. I want to kill that... She keep her finger on his lips "I just want you with me.. Pls let me do this.. This is not going anywhere.. I hate seeing you lyk this.." She said as they are arguing from past 15 minutes him to change this shirt which covered with her blood, while he vowed first to kill that bastad who attacked on his wife, this shirt made him realise, he was careless to accept her wish to drop her there only.. They stood still at shower, he closed his eyes, wen she slowly starts unbuttoning his shirt, with every button she unbutton, his jaws works, she looked at his face, his eyes were close, she can see how much this effect him.. A whole month he wears the same shirt.. Tear roll down from her cheek.. "Done.." She whispered on his ear as her front touched at his bare chest, she shivered still remove his shirt, while taking her steps back she on the shower, d moment water drops fells on his bare chest, she studies his expression, they were intact, he was angry, angry on himself that he doesn't save her that night.. He finally opened his eyes meeting with hers, that unspoken words were they read in their eyes, she lowered her eyes n turn to leave wen with one swift move he pinned her wall next to her, crushing his lips on her, she kissed him back almost immediately "I'm sorry.." They both apologise in each other mouth.. She moans as he pulls her more on him while his lips travelled from her lips to her neck, she tilt her head back, her fingers threading on his hairs 'Drunk..' The only word came in her head.. She immediately pulled away causing him groan.. She keeps her hands on his chest, she was wet too bcz of him, plain stuff of her maxi was not doing anything "you need to change.." They both said at the same tym
After a long argument raghav finally wear a lower n T while she stood still in d washroom, "kalpi.. Come.. It's only me.. I ask someone to send your clothes tomorrow morning.." He said for the fifth tym.. With a gulp n sigh she opens d door, with d sound of click, raghav snapped his head towards her, while her eyes were still on d floor, she keep lowering her bathrobe, he smile, pulls the comforter up so she can lay besides her, with a long wait of whole 10 minutes, she finally lied besides him, he cover her up with d separate comforter up to her neck so she feels comfortable, she took a deep breath b4 a smile crept on her face "better.." She smiles b4 nodding her head on him.. He stretched his arms she immediately hugs him "I missed you.." They both again said at the same time.. "Chatter box.." He hugs her tightly not wanting her to go... While she buried her face n body in him to feel her mattress singhaniya warmth... "I love you Raghav.." She whispered b4 kissing on his chest n closing her eyes
Kalpi opens her eyes, as there's a slight pain in her head, she looked at d wall clock, it reads 3.00 am she sighed n looked at her left, she widen her eyes wen she saw raghav was watching her, "Raghav..?? Y you're not sleeping..?? She panicked n about to sat up wen he stop her, she looked at him confusingly "I doubted if you again leave me in my sleep.." He said innocently, she winced at his words, b4 cupping his cheeks "I said I won't leave you and I promise you that.."
R pass out a weak laugh mockingly "you're not trust worthy kalpi.. You were almost leave me, wen you were lying there in pool of... He stopped doesn't want to remember that event..
"I'm sorry.. I should've told you about.. She stopped wen he moves n moved him partly on top of her, her heart stopped, she wasn't ready for this.. Not now.. They just expressing their feeling.. She just start knowing him, his fears wen "Don't worry chatter box.. I just want to feel you.." He said kissing on her throat, she tilt her head back, "Raghav..."
She still threading her fingers in his hairs while he was sleeping peacefully on her.. Yes after accusing her that she broke her promise to keep his wife safe, she's not trustworthy, he's not going to trust him again n most important that he hate her.. He finally rested his head on her neck with a last long lingering kiss he felt asleep while she still playing with his hairs.. Today was special, her Rakshas singhaniya open up with her, share his fears with her, d man who thought he was incapable of loving someone finally confessed his love in a most unique way 'By saying I HATE YOU..' she smiles as if he again said these words she will be going to love him more n more, bcz she knows his hate means his love.. Raghav singhaniya n his style.. N moreover ways of confessing love.. Agreed or not she has to deal with this Attitude Singhaniya.. Still she promised herself that she's going to love him with everything she have.. She's not going to ruin this.. This as in their khatta meetha relationship 'SWEET & SOUR' she smiles n kissed on his head "I love you Rakshas singhaniya..." He hummed at her response hugging her tight while buried his face more in crook of her neck n kissing her softly, she can sense his smile on her neck.. With sigh n a hopeful morning, she closed her eyes...!!!!
Raghav fluttered his eyes, move his body causing kalpi to wince he immediately stopped n look beneath him, she was sleeping, he smiled as they both were on d same position they fell asleep last night his hands were on her waist, her fingers threaded on his hairs, tangled legs, he smiled b4 giving a long lingering kiss on her chin, she moved her head to d right "umm I know you know that I love you.. N you know I knw that you hate me.. But let me sleep bulldozer.." He smiled as she talked on sleep n turning her back on him, he immediately wrap his arms around her waist b4 kissing on her temple, n remembering moments they spent last night.. With satisfaction he pulled her on him, wen his grip loosen, n pulled away immediately b4 stood up on his feet n looked at her back in disbelieve..
He was standing by d window, after studying his sleepy annoying wife for a whole hour, he finally stood there lost in his thoughts, as how weak he sounds yesterday, she must be thinking what a weak man I'm, with no love, with nothing.. I'm incapable of loving someone kalpi, n moreover I don't think you ever listen to me, you broke your promise, you let those bas**ds hurt you.. His body tensed up wen he felt her touch his back, "Morning.. Raghav singhaniya.. Sleep well.." She asked resting her cheek on his back while wrapping her arms around his chest.. He took a deep breath b4 gently removing her hands n turn to face her, their eyes met.. She looked at him confusingly while he looked at her with a blank face, she was about to ask what's wrong wen "I'm sorry...!!!! She shook her head "what do you mean you're sorry..?? She asked
R: for yesterday...
They just stared each other, he gulps, tried hard not to show any emotion "I was concerned for you, doesn't want to... To.. To...
"To what raghav singhaniya..?? She snapped
R: to touch you lyk that..
She just stared at him, "I'm sorry, whatever happened yesterday, that.. That kiss, will never happen again..!! I'll ask someone to bring your clothes here.. He said passing her.. He stood there for a moment hoping may be she stopped him but even aftr 15 minutes wen she didn't turn he left.. At same tym, she fell on her knees, while tears rolling down from her cheeks "He apologise for confessing his love, for sharing his pain, his fears...!!, she cried 'it will never happen again..' She sobbed as she was looking forward to this changed singhaniya, who said that he hates her for making him fall for him n now he apologise.. She closed her eyes "I accepted your apology, Raghav Singhaniya.." She muttered while wiping her tears..
While he too flung his phone on d bed angrily, he know he hurt her, but he just can't let himself attached with her, he hates attachments, he just hate wen people leave him after he starts depended on them.. He has to hurt her, bcz he don't want her to leave him.. "I'm sorry kalpi, I'm so sorry.." He muttered wiping d lone tear with his thumb which stayed on d corner of his eye...
Precap: fighting with feeling, Chatter box Ignoring her Rakshas Singhaniya.. His restlessness n finally prem entry n exit..
Read Note on pg 62
Edited by sugandhii - 18 July 2015 at 9:51am