DAY 50! - "Bye!"
"Bye..."
To sanity...bye to the mind's ability and capability to think...bye to the peaceful ordered state his world was in, mere minutes ago...bye to the norms, the morals, the rights and wrongs of the world...bye to the calm, composed grip he had on himself earlier in the night...bye to his soul's skill of being able to breathe out of shock and contemplate of anything beyond her...bye to the heart's gift of listening and absorbing the sense-filled words being spoken to him...
...I welcome you all to insanity, to restlessness...to furious wrath enveloped in urgent need of finding her. I welcome you all to the numbing of the heart...to the jammed functioning state of the mind...to the fire burning inside his core senses, ready to set ablaze anything and everything that comes in his way..."Paagal hone ke saath saath mai dangerous bhi hoon"...
Bye Nadnini's Manik...I welcome you all; Monster Manik.
"Bye..."
To heartbeats that beat only upon seeing her soulful smiles...bye to the needful breaths that are only inhaled when she is in front of him ensuring she is as real as she can possibly be...bye to the mesmerising smiles that adorn his face when her presence is felt ...bye to the healed wounds and bandaged guilt that she's spent endless moments soothing...bye to the joy sparkling eyes which express his soul's calm when he hears her laughter...bye to the rational nature of thoughts...bye to the soft caresses of his hands...bye to his whispering lips wanting to recite their confessions again and again...bye to the heart, mind and soul which possess no life anymore as the one they think for, breathe for, beat for has taken them along with her...
...I welcome you all to, shrieking and desperate yells...to powerful, avenge-filled, balled fists...to blood-red, raging eyes...to bruising punches...to jaws clenched in unimaginable anger. I welcome you all to lips slithering in demand of the whereabouts of his heartbeat, his breath, his life. I welcome you all; a lifeless, senseless, unleashed wild soul...a guilt-filled, a remorse-filled and newly wounded heart..."NANDINI!!"...
Bye Nadini's Manik...I welcome you all; Monster Manik.
"Bye..."
To old promises of controlling his dangerous anger...bye to all previous line of thoughts of never losing his cool...bye to the hesitancy of revealing hidden secrets due to shame and disgrace...bye to kind pleas and requests for the exact "what", "who", "why" and "where" related to her kidnapping...bye to patience-filled discussions with the opposition team...bye to controlled, sense-making words which were once ready to make any deal in return of her unharmed soul...bye to any and every chance of forgiving the culprit of the sinful act of touching the sole reason of his survival...
...I welcome you all to unexplainable madness...to life-changing warnings...to inexpressible desperation...to intolerable separation...to fearful eyes...to stern, deathly stares... "Nandini ko waapis lane ke liye mai kuch bhi kar sakta hoon"...
Bye Nandini's Manik...I welcome you all; Monster Manik.
"Bye..."
To selfish, egoistic and deceiving plans... bye to deceitful and impure relationships...bye to the detesting and deceitful demon...bye to his psychotic and manipulative, evil ploys...bye to the concealing and unfaithful intentions...bye to the unworthy respect of being called "panditji"...
...I welcome you all to revelation of true intentions...to unmasked faces...to hidden evidence...to unspoken truths...
Bye danger and darkness...I welcome you all; the victory of true love.
"Bye..."
To old needs...bye to previous wishes...bye to old emotions...bye to old desires...bye to old aspirations...bye to old confessions...bye to the old definition of love...bye to the confused mindset of whether he can or cannot kill in love...
...I welcome you all to more frantically desperate needs...to escalating desires of seeing each other...to re-discovering more powerful emotions of love during hours of separation...to rising and falling in love with one another all over again whilst being away from each other...to the realisation of a new dimension and unseen depth of their own love for each other...to the notion of craving each other's breaths and heartbeats to revive their own halted hearts and paused breaths..."Kahan ho tum...Kahan ho...tum...I'll find you soon...myself"...
I welcome you all to the truth she had already understood and the truth he will now understand; the truth of dying for her as well as killing for her...
Bye Manik and Nandini...I welcome you all; MaNan...
He was hers when he was the spoilt, rich kid; "Manik Malhotra". He was still hers when she named him "Monster Manik". And he was definitely hers when she changed her contact name for him to be simply "Manik".
Long gone is the time when Manik was his name for himself and Nandini was a name belonging to his routinely obsessions...
The truth is... Be it Manik Malhotra, Monster Manik or simply Manik...That one "n" that joins the first half and last half of his name; stands for Nandini. The Nandini that relates his heart to his heartbeats...That Nandini who connects his soul to his body...That Nandini without whom his true identity is incomplete because it's now time to say...
Bye Manik...I welcome you all; Nandini's Manik...
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A BIG SHOUT OUT TO PARTH AND NITI FOR YET AGAIN A PHENOMENAL JOB WITH THEIR EXPRESSIONS, DIALOGUE DELIVERY AND JUST THEIR PERFORMANCE OVERALL!!! A PERFORMANCE TRULY WORTHY OF A STANDING OVATION !! 👏👏
P.S: So guys...it's time reality hits Twinkle too and I become more aware and focused on the piles of books and articles awaiting my read and note-making. End of semester is nearing and so workload and assessments are knocking on my door and the cruelty of life is such that the days don't get any longer than 24 hours. I have tried to make a timetable for myself to ensure I can take out some time to write for my MaNan babies, for my own passion for writing and for mostly for all of you wonderful people who take out their time every day to read my work. However, please excuse me if I'm not able to reply back to everyone. Reading is a must...I promise to go through the thread and read and of course drop in a like button for everyone who comments on the thread. If time avails...I will also drop in a few lines here and there but sincere apologies in advance especially to those who write a lengthy response and analysis of their own on my thread as I may not be able to further analyse your posts.
Love as always
Twinkle <3
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