Spam Lovers chat club #390 (open 4 all)next thread on pg 1 - Page 11

Christi Ybarra

Some say a broken heart is like a shattered vase

Fragile pieces scattered all over the place.

The shattered pieces of broken glass seem to go everywhere

Unlike the pieces of a broken heart that seem to pierce your soul.

With faith and hope you try to mend the broken heart

Unlike the vase it cannot be so easily replaced.

It takes a while to mend it and then you lock it up

You hide the key and wait to see if someone can be found

A special person who will use the key to unlock the heart

A unique person who will handle the heart with gentle hands,

Who can be honest, truthful and handle it with care.

My heart and I wonder is there really that kind of person out there.

Susan Christensen

I'm sitting on the porch
Wind blowing through my hair
The ducks are frolicking in the pond
But I just can't seem to care

Life goes on around me
I don't participate
I go through all the motions
But what I really do is wait

I dream about the day
That you'll come home to me
Nothing else is important
Why can't people see?

I don't want to go out
I don't want to have fun
I don't want to do a thing
Until all is said & done

They took you in the summer
Now fall is almost finished
Winter will be here very soon
And then the year will have diminished

You have no idea how much I cry
I never let you know
It's so hard out here without you 
But I'm not allowed to let it show

I must pretend all is fine
Everyone thinks all's okay
But what I never ever tell them
Is that I cry for you every day

Sanghamitra Ghosh

You left me alone, I didn't cry,
I didn't call you didn't try.
Out of all the things I chose you,
I said I love you I really do.

But now that you are with her,
I don't know why I really care.
I tried to get over you,
But I realized that my love is true.

I did all I could to forget,
But I couldn't do it you bet.
I waited for you on cold nights,
And watched over you from great heights.

Now that you have forgotten me,
I always stand under the tree.
Waiting for you to hold me tight,
And then I see you with her at night.
Finally you start coming to the tree,
just to say, you never loved me.

Caity

Saying you loved me, with that look in your eye,
I wish I could say, it was a cold hearted lie,
I know that you love me, I know that you care, 
But the rage inside you, slowly flared.
I admit I've made mistakes, overstepping the boundaries, 
Which made me look fake, 
I always said I would never do the things I did, 
And I know that's why it so hard for you to forgive.
So many times, we've said that we'd try, 
Just to turn around, and make each other cry.
Remember how it was, when we first started out?
We fell so hard, maybe fell in love too soon, 
At one point you'd notice, ONLY me in the room.
We both did things we can't undo, 
Now it seems our relationship is headed for doom,
And not that long ago, I was EVERYTHING to you,
Now your looking for other things to "do"
I admit my mistakes, but can you admit yours?
I have paid for what I have done, as you've paid for yours.
So why is it like this? Why can't we even talk?
You call me names and act like you don't care, 
All the while, our love for each other is still there.
I never meant to hurt you, or cause you any pain,
I know neither of us want to go through this same old shit again.
I owe you so much, and I have so much to prove to you
But you continue to do things you wouldn't want me to do
We always have these tears to cry,
And are left with all these wondering questions of why?
Why can't we get past the past? You think I expect to much to fast, 
But don't you want to become whole at last?
Why won't you at least try to believe me, instead of pushing me further away?
I have these emotions, I wish you could see, 
Sometimes I get really upset, cause I feel you don't understand me
Will you ever love me like you USED to? Show me the love that I ONCE knew?
The love that from, we Both grew,
When will you see? I'm starting to feel like I hardly know you anymore? 
When can we go back to how it was before?
Will we still hurt if we heal? Or by that time, will we still feel?
My dreams of US does not look like it's coming true, 
All I feel is sad and blue,
And I know you're looking for other things to "do",
You're sick of me, and want something new.

Shelly

This addiction, my worst enemy
Has gone from days, months, to years
It's taken over my life, haunted me
It's become my biggest fear.

The consumption is overwhelming
Without it what would I be?
But with it, it leaves me emptiness
and many left years of misery.

Many times I've tried knowing,
That I have to let it go
But I continue to torture myself
and spend my life alone.

Why is it that we hang onto
The one who doesn't care,
I have to try and change it
I have my own life to spare.

So with this voice inside me
And all the strength I have left within
I'll push myself to move forward
My new life is waiting, ready to begin.

Stephany Manfull

Tears Tears go away
Why must you come back almost everyday
You remind me of my pain
You remind me of my past
Why can't you go away
Just let this happiness last

Tears Tears flowing so fast
You're telling the story of a child in the past
She's stuck with the memory of what has just happened
Praying to god, one day she won't be broken

The bruises the scares
The one's that will never heal
She grew up thinking that's how you need to feel

This little girl 
Not sure about life
Cut after cut 
Then took her life

Tears Tears come as she leaves this world
"So young, So happy" For all they know
Beaten as a child
Not loved all her life
Backstabbing friends

Oh wait that's my life...

Stephany Manfull

Tears Tears go away
Why must you come back almost everyday
You remind me of my pain
You remind me of my past
Why can't you go away
Just let this happiness last

Tears Tears flowing so fast
You're telling the story of a child in the past
She's stuck with the memory of what has just happened
Praying to god, one day she won't be broken

The bruises the scares
The one's that will never heal
She grew up thinking that's how you need to feel

This little girl 
Not sure about life
Cut after cut 
Then took her life

Tears Tears come as she leaves this world
"So young, So happy" For all they know
Beaten as a child
Not loved all her life
Backstabbing friends

Oh wait that's my life...

Samantha Medlin

Getting left behind
Not being loved
No one understanding
No one caring
are
my fears

I had a dream 
I was lost
No one tried to 
find me
No one cared
No one listened
understood

Feeling left out
Feeling like no one 
understands
Feeling like No one 
can hear me
When I'm screaming 
to be heard
Destructive behavior
I have

Wishing I could change
Wishing I could make it
better
Wishing for another chance
Wishing for someone who 
will come and save me
from myself.

my fears
not being heard
being left behind
not being understood
no one caring.

how can I
disappear
make people
understand.

Disappear from
this world
Show people what
It's like to
worry, misunderstand
not care.

my fears,
people laugh
people tease
people misjudge 
people misunderstand 
me.
Behind my back,
they laugh,
tease,
hurt,
so I can't see
them. It hurts.

Now,
I hide this
pain 
in my heart
making sure
No one sees
my hurt,
Pretending to be
someone 
I'm not.

Trying so hard
to fit in
to cover the 
scars, trying
so hard,
to be liked
by you.

My feelings
disappearing
No regrets
Hoping no one 
resents me.

After my dream 
ended 
I wondered...
What am I leaving..
When I leave here?

The pain
I've caused the hurt
the disappointments
The worries

Hoping, now
people understand
people miss
people hear me
and others 
Forgetting all,
all the pain, and hurt
I learned to hide
inside
buried deep in
my heart. No way
out

My fears...are these..

Dane Yule

I miss the times when you were here
telling me to have no fear
To hold my head up high and strong
add happy notes to my sad song

I miss the way you look at me
As if I were too blind to see
The path I'm on might hurt and scathe
But all goes well if you just have faith

I miss the sound of your sweet voice
Through bitter times a saving noise
That told me what was right and wrong
But rang in my ears for far too long

A caring person, you were such
That helped and hurt me, oh so much
You'd guide and mislead me through the day
You left me lonely when I'd rather you stay

Over things like that you had no control
A rock set in motion will continue to roll
No matter how hard you tug and heave
You were always pushed and forced to leave

Then one day you never returned
My tears so hot they almost burned
Aware now about what I lack
But crying and mourning wont bring you back

For me to let out what I need to say
I can't do much more than pray
No longer am I weak, my hearts quite strong
From adding a happy chorus to a sad, sad song