SoJi OS : Dooriyaan Nazdeekiyaan
Sohum and Rajji were brought together by destiny under the mask of Desho playing a dirty game. They were destined to be together though both of them did not want to. While Sohum is still engulfed in Bani's thoughts and his one sided love for her, his attraction for the innocent Rajji is growing by the day. He is not allowing himself to recognize those feelings. Rajji has fallen head over heels in love with Sohum. Is it because he is her husband and she has to? Unaware about his attraction for her and the confusion of her own reasons to have fallen for Sohum constantly create a storm inside her.
Rajji had not been keeping well and Sohum was taking care of her. In these times, his attraction increased due to the constant closeness. There was a war waging inside him. One night he left to get some medications for Rajji and did not come back. It was getting very late. Rajji feeling restless and worried for Sohum in her condition left to find him. She searched the entire village and finally found him in the fields on the bamboo and hay shelter.
Rajji: Sohum aap yahaan kya kar rahe hain? Maine aapko poore pind mein dhoondh liya aur aap yahaan iss halat mein. Aapko pata bhi hai mainu kitni fikar ho rahi thi.
Sohum: Main jo chahe karoon tu kaun hoti hai poochne wali? Tere ko kisne kaha meri fikar karne ke liye mujhe doondhne ke liye.
Rajji: Kisi ne nahi kaha. Ab ghar chaliye.
Sohum refuses to go but Rajji holds his hands and forcibly tries to get her drunken husband off the ground. Sohum was too heavy for Rajji while pulling him she falls on the hay stack and Sohum falls on her. They have an intense passionate eye lock. Rajji sees Sohum but the drunken Sohum sees Bani instead of Rajji. Rajji pushes him on the side and gets up. This makes Sohum believe that she is Bani as she pushed him away because Rajji would never do that to him. He now sees only Bani.
Rajji: Sohum ghar chaliye.
Sohum: Haan chalo (Bani).
Rajji carefully gets Sohum down the stepladder. They begin to walk towards their home. Once again nature plays a hand in trying to get Sohum and Rajji closer. It starts pouring. They get drenched from head to toe and take shelter in a hut nearby. Sohum sits on one side admiring Bani (Rajji). She lit a kerosene lantern and with the glow of the flame her face glows too. She looked ethereal. Sohum felt a magnetic pull towards the beautiful face. Sohum saw her shiver and he got up and went close to her. Rajji at first did not understand what Sohum was trying to do. She turned away from him and was about to move away just then he caught her hand. There was something different in his touch. The warmth in it was of passion. Rajji stood still as the touch of Sohum burned her skin. He came closer to her and stood behind her. She tried to move but he held her tightly at her waist. She was scared of what was happening. Sohum was drunk and he could regret everything. He bent and whispered in her ears.
Sohum: Kyun bhaag rahi ho mujhse?
Rajji: Kyun ki aap aisa chahte hain ki main aapse door rahoon.
Sohum: Tumse ye kisne keh diya ki main tumhe khud se alag karna chahta hoon. Kya kabhi meri aakhon mein, meri baaton mein tumhe mere jazbaaton ka ishaara nahi diya?
Rajji did not understand what he was saying but she got flashes of how he had taken care of her during her ill days and also how he stood by her when Buaji took her tests. She backed a bit and rested on his broad chest. She thought that finally he has fallen in love with her. Finally her hardships have paid and that too in sweet way. She closed her eyes and let the tears of joy flow. Sohum buried his head in the crook of her neck. He nuzzled her nape. He moistened his lips and kissed her nape softly. His breath was caressing her skin. His strong masculine odor was driving her crazy. Her body responded to his touch. He slowly raised his head and moved to the crook of her neck. He caressed her neck with his hot breath and nuzzled his face in her crook making her go jittery in her lower limbs. He is holding her shoulder with one hand while the other hand took its position on her waist. His intimate touch was awakening every part of her body. She was breathing unevenly and her body was shivering under his touch. Rajji stood there enjoying the sweet torture.
Sohum was making heart shaped patterns on her stomach and if that was not enough he whispered in her ears Rab ne tumhe duniya mein sabse sundar banaya hai ' in his husky voice. She turned around and buried herself in his chest. After a few minutes she looked into his eyes when he lifted her face holding her chin. His eyes were filled with desire and passion the intensity enough to burn her alive. She was blushing heavily and he is enjoying the effect he had on her. He slightly nibbled her ear lobe making her insane. Unable to contain the feelings she flinched and snaked her arms around his neck. He bent over to plant a kiss. She closed her eyes in anticipation. He claimed her petals with his lips for a gentle kiss. She was the sweetest thing he had ever tasted. He could feel her hands tracing his back, yeah she is responding. His heart made a little somersault with joy. She moans in pleasure. He pulled her closer and deepens the kiss. He was thirty and hungry for her. He was ravishing her lips and her facial skin. She gave into him completely.
He made her sit on the hay and sat close to her facing her. She was not meeting with his eyes. He loved her and there was nothing wrong in what he was doing. He freed her long tresses from their tight braid form. He took her hands in his and kissed them on the palm and on the back. He slowly proceeded kissing up her left arm reached her mouth and once again passionately kissed her. He then came down her right arm kissing every inch of it. Rajji's heart was running a marathon.
Rajji: Sohum main aapse bahut pyar karti hoon.
Sohum: Main bhi tujhse sirf tujhse bahut bahut pyar karta hoon (Bani).
Sohum loved her and was making love to her. He hearts joy knew no bounds. She leaped forward and hugged him. He kissed her hair as gently as possible. She was feeling content now as she believed her loved her too. She started to feel the heat from his body and her breathing became ragged. She looked at him and feeling a little bold kissed him on his cheek. He too kissed her back. They have an eye lock and she saw a smoldering look in his eyes. She was ready to be his just as much as he wanted her. Rajji lied on her back giving him an invitation. He removed her dupatta revealing her plunging neckline. He slowly moved his hands on her body feeling and arousing it. She shivered with the familiar sensation she felt minutes ago but this time she was not scared of it. He nibbled her neck and ears and her hands automatically ran through his thick hair pulling him closer to her and asking for more. He traced her face with his fingers and proceeded to remove each of her jewelry. He placed kisses on her body wherever he removed her adornments. She gasped when he kissed her feet while removing her to rings.
He laughed and placed kisses on her body moving upwards. He captured her lips softly. His slowly slid his tongue across her lips. A sensation shot through her and her own mouth opened slightly. His tongue delved in deeper exploring the insides of her mouth. Rajji felt herself melting. She closed her eyes and let her head fall back. After sometime she felt her lips free. Sohum was placing wet kisses her throat and moved down to the bear skin near her neckline. His hands roaming on the bear skin on the back tugged at the dori of her kurta and it was undone easily. The barriers of their clothes removed deftly. Her body moved to its own accord. Arching, relaxing and arching again growing tenser and tenser. All she could do was to lie there in his arms and let him have his way with her. His body slid over hers while he teased her with his hands and mouth feasting her and exploring her...ravishing every part of her. Rajji was enjoying his hardness rubbing against her soft body. She shuddered as he reached the most sensitive part of her body. She writhed under him running her arms on his strong body and her nails digging in his back.
Sohum: Tum tayyar ho?
She simply nodded. He smiled and captured her lips once more as he joined their bodies. They joined in rhythm first slowly then he increased his pace and intensity. Her married friends had told her about their experiences but that was nothing compared to this. Her body went along with his. Suddenly the world around them disintegrated. She heard her own screams as sensation through her flooded her. She was seeing colorful crackers bursting as she came. She clutched his shoulders. He let out a loud groan and emptied himself inside of her. She fell back on the hay in a limp and he was still on top of her. He rested his forehead on her as he slowly came out of her. He lied on his back next to her and she shyly shifted on his body.
Rajji: I love you Sohum.
Sohum: I love you Bani.
Rajji was shattered on hearing Bani's name. She got away from him. She was looking at him with tears in her eyes. The most special moment she lived with her husband he lived it with her sister. She quickly collected all her clothes and got dressed. She went outside the hut and sat in the heavy rains. Sohum feeling content of getting his love and making love to her slept peacefully through the night. The sunlight crept into the hut through the gaps in the thatched roof. Sohum woke up having a very bad hangover. He saw his naked state and could not recollect how it happened. He got dressed. He was leaving from the hut when his eyes fell on a shining gold earring. He picked it up and with it saw the other jewelry. He recognized that it was Rajji's. He remembered everything that happened between them at night. He came outside the hut and saw her there. It was too early for people to be at the fields. Sohum did not recollect calling her Bani.
Sohum: Saari galti na teri hai. Kya zaroorat thi tujhe mere peeche aane ki? Tu hoti kaun hai mujhe dhoondhne aane wali? Tera mera rishta kya hai? Zabardasti thopa gaya hai tujhe mujhpar. Mere liye tu kisi bojh se kam nahi hai. Ye kabhi mat bhoolna ki main Bani se pyar karta hoon. Kal raat jo bhi hua iska matlab ye nahi hai ki maine tujhe apna liya. Sharab ke nashe mein mujhe galti ho gayi. Saari zindagi iss galti ka harjana nahi bharne wala main.
Rajji stood there listening to him. His harsh words no longer hurt her. Sohum's touch had brought her alive and his love confession to Bani had killed her from the inside. Sohum said all the harsh things to her and left her there all alone. Rajji began to walk where ever her feet took her. Her brains controlled her body and heart and got her to the right place. She then came home. Sohum was there waiting for her worried sick for her. He once again got angry on her. Rajji did not say anything and this angered him more. He came forward and in his anger clutched her face to make her speak. She was burning with fever. He made her lie on the bed against her wish. He gave her medicines which she did not take.
Sohum: Ab apna ye natak band kar. Chup chap dawayi kha le warna sab kahenge maine tera khayal nahi rakha. Tujhe toh bas mauka chahiye sabki pyaari bahu banne ka.
He once again tried to force her to take the medications but she jerked his hand. He got furious with her and raised his hand to hit her.
Rajji: Mariye ruk kyun gaye. Aaj agar aap mujhe maar bhi daalenge na toh bhi main ye dawayi nahi khaoongi. Mujhe koi shaukh nahi hai beemaar hone ka aur aapse apni seva karwane ka. Mujhe aapse kuch nahi chahiye. Main ye jo bhi kar rahi hoon na aapki bhalayi ke liye kar rahi hoon.
Sohum: Meri bhalayi ke liye kar rahi hai ya apne matlab ke liye. Mujhe khud se baandh ke rakhna chahti hai isslie dawayi nahi le rahi. Tujhe pata hai ki tu dawayi legi toh theek ho jaayegi. Phir main kahaan tere paas rehne wala hoon. Rehne de ye meri bhalayi ke jhoote bahane dena aur chup chap dawayi kha.
Rajji: Main bahane de rahi hoon? Nahi Sohum main ye dawayi sach mein aapki bhalayi ke liye nahi kha rahi. Main nahi chahti ki aappar koi bojh badhe. Main ek bhoj hoon aapke liye wo kaafi hai. Main nahi chahti ki aap anjaane mein ki gayi galti ka bhoj sari umar uthaye. Aap mere nahi Bani ke karreb aaye the. Main toh thi hi nahi wahaan aapke liye. Shayad aapki zindagi mein main issiliye aayi taaki aapki zaroorat ko poora kar sakoon. Aapko apne pyar ke kareeb la sakoon har maayne mein. Sohum maine emergency garbh nirodhak goli li hai. Agar main apne bukhar le liye goli loongi toh uss dawayi ka koi asar nahi hoga. Main nahi chahti ki mere andar baccha ho. Aapne mujhe bhoj keh diya ye main bardaasht kar gayi par agar aap mere bacche ko aisa kuch kahenge toh main nahi seh paaoongi. Main jaanti hoon ki aap mujhse khush nahi hain toh mere bacche se kaise honge. Uske aane ke khabar sunkar aap mujhe use girane ko keh denge. Use maarne se toh accha hai ki main use apni kokh mein aane hi na doon. Aapko pata hai Sohum humaare beech itni dooriyaan thi kal tak par maine humesha ek doosre ko nazdeek paya. Par kal raat ki nazdeekiyon ne humein ek doosre se itna door kar diya hai ki ab main unn dooriyon ko kam nahi mitana chahti. Aap jeet gaye Sohum. Sabke wapas aate hi main iss ghar se hi nahi aapki zindagi se bhi chali jaaoongi humesha humesha ke liye.
Rajji left from there and Sohum stood there like a stone statue. He had caused so much hurt to Rajji and for what for loving him? She had never asked for anything. She had not chosen to be his wife. Tears rolled down his cheeks as he remembered everything she had done selflessly for him. Bani had never understood his feelings but Rajji had. He had removed all his frustration on her because he was confused about his feelings. Her words kept on ringing in his ears. He had called her a burden and she was leaving him. He had lost all respect in her eyes. She even thought that he would ask her to abort if she conceived. This was not him. He was never such a monster to have treated Rajji like that. He was always taught that love brings out the best in people but his love for Bani brought out the worst in him. What he felt for Bani how could it be love as it brought out the devil in him. He sat there analyzing his feelings for the first time. Bani never loved him but Rajji has fallen in love with him. He had feelings for Rajji but were they just physical? He used to admire her from afar but his eyes always fell on her face. He never scanned her body. Her eyes and her innocent smile caught his attention. It was not just physical. It was deeper than that. He loved her. He just needed to get Bani out of his system so that was what happened last night. Bani was out of his system. He smiled at this but then Rajji's hurtful face flashed in front of him. His heart broke on thinking of the way he had broken the spirited girl Rajji once was. She had tried everything in her power to make their marriage work. He decided to do the same.
Sohum: Rajji humaare beech ki dooriyon ko tumne nazdeekiyon mein badalne ki koshish ki jo maine kabhi nahi hone diya. Kal raat ki nazdeekiyaan humaare beech dooriyaan laayi hai. Inn dooriyon ko main mitaaoonga. Main tumhe khudke nazdeek lekar aaoonga. Inn dooriyon ko mitakar rahoonga. Buaji ne tumhe ek mahina diya tha na mera dil jeetne ka mere paas tumhaara dil jeetne ke liye sirf ek hafta hai. Main ye karke rahoonga. Dooriyaan jo nazdeekiyaan bankar phir dooriyaan ban gayi unhe main nazdeekiyaan banakar rahoonga.
The beginning...
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