PROLOGUE
As I sit by the window and gaze to the sky , I miss Him. Why this has to happen with us . today when I have everything , why I am sad , why my tears don't know how to stop ' why I feel the nature is also crying with me , saying , you are not alone , we can feel your pain.
The first monsoon of our life , and we are not together , why Ram why you did that to me , we were so happy , a perfect life , kis ki nazar lag gayi humein RAM . today I m here and I really don't want to know where the hell you are ? why you double crossed me Ram , why ? have I done any wrong that time , bringing back her to your life. I have given every bit of my life to you , and what you did you killed me.
No I cant think more , I was pale , I am very much upset , my health has given up , I don't remember when I stepped out my bloody damn room last. I only sit by this window and just wait for an angel from heaven or a Satan from hell to come and take me along. I , Priya Ram kapoor, donot want to live any more .
I closed my eyes and leaned back , day 20 on its way '. We are separated '. 20 days '. I have not even tried to talk with him , and hows he '. I know '. I put my gaze down .. to the road , as I looked down , he stood straight and with eyes he started pleading to me . But how can I forgive him for such a big sin . if I could , I would have punished him by giving my life . I tried once , but di , and jiju saved me , why ?? they took promise in the name of Adi , that I will never try such things again . yes I will not , coz I love adi more than myself .
I looked down again , he was still pleading '. I closed my eyes with a deep sigh'.. when I opened my eyes I saw my elder sister standing infront of me , I managed to sit straight , then slipping my feet into the slippers I walked feebly to the bed , and settled down . Di handed me the medicine , I took it like an obedient girl , she directed me to lie down . I did . tucking me properly under the duvet she placed a kiss on my head , and said " sleep we have to see the doctor this evening ' and I will see him too.."
" let it be Di , let him there .. how long he will .. one day he will give up and will go '" I said , as I coughed .
" he will not this is 15th day he is still there , now he will not give up Priya .. and I will not forgive him for what he had did with you .. if he had a real reason why didn't he informed you '" my di frowned '
I turned my back to di , hiding my tears I said , " di .. I really don't want to talk about it di ' please '."
" I warned him ' once priya , that there should be no tears in your eyes due to him , and what he said he will not ' and what he did , he shattered you into pieces ."
" please di 'let me sleep '." I wanted to say " leave me alone" but I couldn't say that , di is the only support , with whom I can share anything , I have shared my honey moon at Goa , private beach cottage and then at Bora Bora islands .. my every bit of secret she knows so I asked her politely to get out of the room . she didn't mind , collecting the medicines , checking the lock of the closets and making sure that there is no sharp object near me , she left the room'
As she left I cannot hold back my tears I started crying badly ' very badly '. Cursing myself , cursing ram ' for what happened to me ' for what happened to our relations , we are now not one name one soul , we parted , two names but still somewhere at heart we are two souls ''
As I cried , the rain poured the green fields ' the mother earth , making me belief , yes he is also feeling the same .. he is also crying ''.
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