Apologies for not being too active!
but i hope hope hope that Emotions post is back to stay!
At least till Friday..
A few lines.. just like that..
Intezaar tha un nigaahon ka,
jo aapse milte hi bichhad gayi
Itmenaan se dekha un haseen aankhon mein
aur jeene ki ik wajaah si mil gayi
Ab jeena aur marna unn nigahon ke suroor mein hain
humko jeena aur marna unn nigaahon ke guroor mein hai
ek pal jhukti aur ik pal uth-ti yeh do nigaahein aapki
bas dil ki dhadkanon se dhadakti jaisi- yeh nigaahein aapki
Un aankhon mein hai pyaar aur gussa bhi
unn aankhon mein sharaarat hai aur wafaa bhi
ek pyaara sa geet sunati har pal yeh aankhein teri
tere palko ke tale ab kat jaaye yeh zindagi
Arnav's thoughts- as i think they were
Her eyes darted liquid fire from those liquid brown eyes
angry words swept all over me..words that were a result of her miscalculated ire
I didn't deserve it, did I? Was i always to be at fault in front of her?
I saw her flinch with pain thinking of Lavanya's hurt
She told me about her broken relationship
her eyes burning with unshed tears, while one made it's way down her fair cheeks
I wish I could wipe it away, I thought as i took a step towards her
But she ran away, before I could say a word
My gut clenched in pain for those tears she shed
That man who let her go was a definite idiot
He had managed to hurt her so much
That she cried and yet carried it deep inside?
If that were not enough, my family blamed me too
I heard everything out and didn't look at di as she asked me
The reason why we separated..for what could I say?
All I could see was that what I felt couldn't be said
So i kept it inside, clenched my jaw tight
I wouldn't say those words.. It would be unfair
While she cried and packed upstairs with lavanya
My heart was up there.. hurting with two women I respected
I saw so much pain in Lavanya's eyes that I couldn't look at her directly
the way she held herself up..I had to admire that and the maturity she came to overnight
How did I never notice that she loved my family?
I took her for granted..and yet.. i was deeply deeply sorry
There she was, khushi.. sharing the pain of others
hiding her own and yet understanding perfectly..
What could I do except look away..and look back again into those big brown eyes
Teary and sad.. regretful and pained..how many did I manage to hurt in one night?
Incapable of coherent thoughts I lay in bed that night
unsleeping, sighing, as I turned side to side
I closed my eyes and felt her near me
pervading memories finally lulled me to uneasy sleep
It hurt so much. That realisation that ASR cared for khushi more than he cared for perhaps anyone. That instinct..that primitive instinct and the madness to make sure she was safe. The humble apology when he realised he hurt her.
So much love and yet he didn't realize. Neither did she. Silly Khushi. And so typical. She had no idea that the prince she was talking about was the one she fought with day in and day out..and yet..it was always them. Never Me and Him. How could I marry someone else's prince?
I deserved my fairy tale..and like I told nani, just because I wasn't marrying in the family doesn't mean I don't belong to it.. They had become so close..everyone..even Laxmi.. that I was depressed and heart-broken- for I loved them all so so much. But what was right was right. Khushi had taught me that. she had made me discover how a life of dignity would be. Petty things didn't matter. Love did.
Hearts heal.. the pain will disappear and it will make me stronger. I think. I hope.
SO head held high with tears in my eyes, I will go out of this house..leaving behind memories and leaving ASR in the capable hands of one who loved him and whom he loved
I blasted him. Again. And the fool that I am, I told him about my broken engagement. His reaction- Why didn't you tell me?
Did he tell me? anyway, the point is that i was so carried away in pain that I told him and ran away from there.. leaving him staring and calling out my name.. I won't stop..or I'll break and he'd seen that a lot of times already.
I was losing the only friend I had. All thanks to him. I could see so much pain in lavanya ji's eeys it hurt me..and it mademe angry..but it made sense- what she did. She's right and it's her choice to leave. I told her as well and then tried to cheer her up saying we'll boht find our princes. She looked strangely at me. As if..As if.. I had already found mine. Who? I felt uncomfortable.. I didn't want to think..
I won't think.
Okay guys..that's it!
I liked the epi!
The conforntation was short n to the point..sahi tha..
the precap is amazing!!
I'll say more about it tomorrow!
loved the epi!
will probably adore that scene more than the epi but oh well!
love to all!
Edited by geet.a - 20 December 2011 at 8:44am