Posted: 25 January 2012 at 2:34am | IP Logged
Now on to the part that I must have rewatched a hundred times and I will probably be watching a hundred times more! Right after she collapses in his arms all the way to the very end, every second, every facial expression, every emotion was so flawlessly done that it can be analyzed to death and then some! But, I'll try to keep it short, a challenge for me, because I have class early morning and it's past midnight! It's been two days since college started for the spring semester, and it's already taking so much time off my Phulwa and PhAb regime *sigh*...priorities, I've got them!
Anyways back to the scene, I think I have forgotten the count of time they took each others name today. At every turn, it was the other persons name on their lips, whether it was when he was finding her, or when she needed his help, it was just that one name! And when they were finally face to face, the name was taken, to make sure that the other person was actually there! After wishing and hoping for hours that they would appear in front of each other, when the moment finally happened both of them had to make sure that this was indeed the reality! The situation was somewhat similar when the police officers had taken the goons away and there was just Jiten, Abhay and Phulwa left (Why Jiten was there, I don't understand, but I don't mind it because it really was as if he wasn't there today, and I am sure he'll come of some use tomorrow when Abhay finds out about Phulwa's snake bite), but Abhay immediately knew that something was wrong when he saw her sway, and the third time he called her name there was a great amount of concern in his voice, and when she started falling sidewards, he was shocked but managed to catch her in time, and the way he cradled her face to his chest, it was like just the thought of her being in pain was causing him physical pain. He needed to know that she was okay, she had to be okay, he finally had her in his harms, he couldn't even bear the thought that something bad was still in store for them. Hadn't they suffered enough for a lifetime in just the past 2-3 days? His soft caresses on her cheek, and the way he teared up when her tears fell on his hand, my god, they are so in sync with each other that they make my heart ache! And the way Abhay emoted that bitter sweet smile, really put into perspective the situation they were in!
And then came Phulwa's first lines to him. As for what she meant when she said that today he had given her
everything that was missing in her life, there can be a couple different
interpretations to that. When I first heard it, her voice was so faint
that I didn't even understand what she was saying, but when I heard it
again, it confused me as well! But then I realized that the snake that
already bitten her by that time, so she probably thought that after
everything that has happened she won't be able to make it. And then just
a few minutes before she had heard Abhay refer to her as her biwi in
front of the goon, and he said that with so much authority and
possessiveness that it probably stunned her! This was the first time he
has referred to her as his wife in front of her, first time he has
accepted her and their relationship! And in that way, he basically
returned the love that she feels for him. He gave her the love that she
never thought she would get. For a person who has lost almost everyone
she loved, to have someone willing to give up anything, even their life
for her, and that person being the man she has given her heart too, must
be a very overwhelming emotion.
And if she thinks that this is the
last memory she gets to take with her, then he has basically given her
the happiness that only he is capable of giving her. At that moment what
he did to her in the past didn't matter, what mattered was that he was
there in front of her, he had put everything at stake and found her. She
finally had someone who would always, always come after her (I know she
has Babu and the kabilay people who would do anything for her, but the
feeling of having the person you love with your whole heart, care for
you and claim you like that, it's like he gave her the world!)
And after hearing that, I think he was hit by such a strong wave of emotions that the only way he felt that he could convey them all is by hugging her, pulling her as close to him as was humanly possible! He needed to hold her to make sure that she was still there, that she was with him, and in that one gesture he said everything his lips couldn't! They were so highly charged on emotions that at that point words failed them, just like they have failed us after watching this episode, and the best way to communicate was through actions! The way he let all his barriers down and clutched her as if his life depended on it, was really heartbreaking. He needs her more than even she can imagine, because somewhere along the way she has become his everything! With her life being at stake, he realized just how important she was, and after saving her from death's door, it hit him just how close to reality his worst nightmare had become! He poured out all his anguish and hurt and relief in that embrace, and it was as if he never wanted to let go!
And initially Phulwa let herself melt in his arms, she needed the warmth, comfort and love he provided her, she needed that more than anything else in the world, and she wanted to just lose herself in him and forget everything she had been through, or will go through with the snake bite! But her awareness was immediately heightened as she felt the blood on his arm, and then when she realized just where the blood had left its mark, she felt like she had to pull away, just to make sure that it wasn't just her imagination! When he felt her pull away he loosened his grip on her, but still kept his hold on her, the confusion on his face was evident, but the second the lightening in the background illuminated her forehead and he saw what had been placed on there, he immediately understood what caused her to pull back, and waited with bated breath for her reaction.
For them, the sindoor was the one ritual of their wedding that was not completed. That was the one thing she never applied, and that was not lost of Abhay. So the significance of that moment was not lost to either of them. The way she hesitantly brings her hand up and touches her maang to see her fingers come down bloody, I don't think either of them were expecting that twist of fate (I know I definitely wasn't)! At that time the only thing they could do was stare into each other's eyes and try to find their answers there! She desperately wanted to see what his reaction was, and he was waiting with a bated breath to see what she would do next! This was such a vital step in their marriage...their wedding happened without Abhay knowing about it, and he performed all those rituals thinking he was getting married to someone else! But this, this was entirely just the two of them, this in an essence was the real symbol of their marriage!
That 45 second montage when the came goes around them was absolutely beautiful, they seem to be saying so much and yet nothing at all. The emotions and tears in both of their eyes as the significance of that very moment dawned on them, so so beautiful! (Btw, as a side note, I feel really bad for Ajay's knees...he was constantly on them for like the last 6-7 moments, and with the many takes they would have to take for that scene, poor guy must have been so sore!). Anywaysss...in the end I think Phulwa's confusion won out as she lifted her hands to wipe the blood away. I don't think it was because she didn't want it to be there, but because she didn't want to make any assumptions about their marriage. Despite everything that happened, and everything Abhay said, she still doesn't know where she really stands in his life, and like we've mentioned, it's Abhay who is going to have to take all the steps to move their relationship forward because she won't be taking any chances! And boy did Abhay take that step forward...his three words not only stunned Phulwa but killed all the PhAb fangirls as well! Rehne do, Phulwa, my god the effect these three words had and the way they changed the whole foundation of their relationship, truly a defining moment for them and a huge turning point for their relationship!
And the fact that Abhay's acceptance of their relationship and his blood filling her maang happened within minutes of each other is truly a twist I still can't grasp! Seriously, I did not see that coming, and it was done so beautifully by Sargun and Ajay that it left me completely breathless!
So major props to the CVs and Ajay and Sargun for giving us such a brilliant episode, and I know there are more of these to come! Their relationship is now at a point where it can only move forward. The love is already there, and Abhay will build her trust back slowly but surely! We're still far from a confession because I think once the emotions will wear off, they will go back to their bantering side but with a lot more romance because Abhay's whole perspective of hers has changed completely! I wasn't expecting the snake bite, so I am sure we're in for some more emotionally charged episodes, but I really hope once this is over, PhAb get some time to truly just be with each other, take it easy for a bit, they've seriously been through way too much, and we all deserve some lighthearted scenes, doesn't mean you have to cut down the romance, just loosen up on the angst!
I thought about making some theories as to where the snake bite will lead us, but I have realized that the CVs are playing a game of their own, and will always be a step further than us, so I am just going to sit back and let them deal with this! Because the way they played the reunion scene was more than brilliant, above all our expectations, and I trust them to do right by PhAb! It's really their story that is holding them afloat, so it's going to remain on the forefront!
And one last observation before I sign off for the night. I think in all the things Phulwa has been involved in, I don't think she has ever
come this close to death! She was absolutely TERRIFIED, and Abhay's
timely arrival was absolute perfection. By having her fight till the
very end, they showed us that this was the same Phulwa, the strong
fighter! But everyone needs to be saved once in a while, and just when
Phulwa's strength failed her, Abhay showed up and became her strength.
Hope you guys enjoyed by endlessly long blabbering, and took something out of it! I honestly thought I wouldn't be able to put all my thoughts in words, but once I started, I was on a roll! So yeah, it's super late, leave your thoughts, and I'll get to them tomorrow :)