FF:DESTINED TO LOVE(chapter 15 part 1 n 2 page 89) - Page 7

Dear diary,
Today i lost ma control.those tears i hav been holding 4 months overflowed today.i had never missed ma parents the way i missed them 2day.while i was praying 4 their peace,i broke all my sheilds to let ma emotions engulf me.i had let out all ma emotions today so that i'd be able to survive another year without any emotional torture.
Today at clg the whole day was exactly like what i wanted it to be,no one 2 disturb,no one to sympathise me n everybody ignored me the way i ignored them.
I didnt see him 2day.i was glad that ma wish 2 stay away frm him as far as possible was fulfilled.but deep down somwhere in ma heart i wanted 2 c him bt i brushed out the thought at once frm ma mind
I know som1 has been following me.there's som1 keeping watch on me.i jst hope that whoever it was didnt c the weak side of me,ma tears n ma pain.i hate when som1 pity me or show sympathy.it makes me feel as if m very weak.i dnt want to b considered as a weak n fragile poor girl.
People say that fate has everything planned out.i dnt know what has fate planned for me bt whatever ht is,m going to accept it without any complaint.

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(ABHAY'S DIARY PG 4)

Hey swthrt,
u know i was angry in the morning bt m sad rt now.my mind was ful of vengeance bt nw i know i'll nvr be able to think about hurting her.
With the motive of finding out her weak point i followed her.i sld hav noticed the sadness behind her arrogance.when i saw her crying i cldnt figure out what kind of persn she was.in jst 2 days i've seen diff sides of her.she is one brave n strong girl bt at the same time she is weak n fragile.nt being able to figure out her true nature,i looked into the info kabir gave me.bt when i read it many emotions banged into ma heart n mind at once.
I felt happy,sad,eager,excited,anxious,confused n heartbroken at the same time.the 1 i've been searching 4 all these years was infront of me n i didnt recognise her.i hated the person whom i sld hav respected.
I m sure c is the same girl..i mean all the info matches.The same eyes,the same curly hair...nw i know y c looked so familiar...all the facts abt her matches-c is an orphan,parents died at age of 5,born in this locality..,.ya c is the same girl...
Bt how come that innocent girl grew up to be so arrogant n ignorant.i know c had suffered a lot,...i've seen her cry 13 years back n i saw her cry today...i know c is heartbroken n lonely bt if c continues dis arrogance c'll remain lonely n alone 4ever.
When i found out abt her,all the thought of revenge vanished frm ma heart instantly.c is one brave girl to survive 13 yrs struggling alone 4 her life.if i was there in her position i wld nt hav been able to do so.
Ok i get it,her difficulties must hav made her like that bt if c stayed that way keeping her pain,difficulties n frustration to herself then she'd get tortured more n more.i cant let her b like this.c made me realise the value of ma parents,i'll make her realise the value of life...
I m sad 4 piya bt m happy that i found her.god has given me the best b'day gift i ever rcvd.i'll try 2 become her bst fren.
Dont worry swthrt u'll always remain ma bestest fren 4ever.4 nw GUD NIGHT swthrt.
C u 2maro.

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part 2 in next page.

Abhay reached clg earlier than usual.he wanted to talk to piya anyhow at any cost.kabir saw abhay lost in thought.

Abhay smiled at him.

Abhay looked back to find piya jst behind him.he looked at her face to find the trace of worry or pain but her face was expressionless.c walked passed him without even glancing at him.

''hey piya''
she stopped n looked back at him.

then she walked off towards her classroom.abhay followed her calling out her name but c ignored him.at last c turned him n spoke in a cold voice.

she entered her classroom leaving bewildered abhay behind her.

''Thank u abhay n m sorry...i cant let u close to me''

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