Posted: 20 September 2011 at 8:16am | IP Logged
"Give him a chance, piya...you should give him a chance...I know the last years were hard for you...he will never anybody else but you...you are his great love..."
"NO!" I screamed and woke up. I was sweating, my whole body was trembling and the tears fell from my eyes.
"piya? What happened?" misha rushed into my room.
"Im sorry misha, just a nightmare. I didnt mean to wake you up." I apologized.
"Whats up,piya. You have been so strange since you came home from work. What happened?" she asked getting next to me into my bed, cuddling under my blanket.
"Do you remember how we user to sleep in one bed because we didnt want to be separated for only a second?" I asked dreamy.
"Yes, we drove Mum and Dad really crazy with our behaviour." giggled misha.
"You have always been so good to me. I still remember the first day I saw you. I was new in the school and everybody teased me about my eyes... And then there was you so strong and beautiful and you were the only one who helped me." I told her. She listened intently.
"Yes, I remember that day like it was yesterday. But you never knew that I only helped you because I wanted to be your friend. You were so sweet and innocent, just like a little princess. And you fascinated me from the first moment on I saw you. I always wanted to be like you, so nice and sweet, so innocent and shy, but look at me...Ive always been more like a boy, always getting into fights and always my mouth open." We giggled.
"Without you I wouldnt have survived my parentsdeath." I said in thoughts. She looked at me, then she nodded.
"And without you I wouldnt have survived our parentsdeath." We lay a while in silence.
"I met Sonya today, she came to the shop and we went for a drink after the shop was closed..." I began to talk, misha just listened.
"She told me about her and abhay as she knows who I am...She knew it all the time and she told me why they brake off the engagement...And she told me that abhay isnt married and that he still loves me." I explained to her.
misha stared into the darkness and nodded slowly her head.
"I know, misha. He has told us." I shot her a look.
"He told us about everything. It was even before you met him again. Do you remember the evening when you and Sameer went out for the first time and you brought Rohan here?" I nodded, still confused.
"You told me you saw a reflection in the window of the train and it could have been abhay...It was him. He had just visited us and left short before you arrived." she explained.
"And he told you he still loves me?" I asked unsure.
"Yes, we talked long that day. It was the first time jeh saw him after 5 years and I felt that he was so happy to have his best friend back."
"I never wanted to stand between the two of them..." I whispered.
"You didnt. It was jehs descision, and only his! But abhay told us that Tom, the garcon from our caf had told him, that you have been there and that he still misses you." I lay my head on her shoulder.
"What shall I do, misha. I know nothing at the moment. Its so damn confusing and I just dont know what is right and what is wrong." I sighed.
"Just listen to you heart, piya It will know what is right." I nodded and fell asleep on her shoulder.
I was woken by Rohans giggling.
"Whats up?" I asked sleepy. He and jeh stood grinning next to my bed and winked at me.
"I miss my wife like hell tonight and you are sleeping here just like..." he grinned.
"Just like we used to years ago." ended misha the sentence for him.
I had to laugh.
"Is there something I should know?" asked jeh, giving me a look.
"No? Why?" asked misah and me in unison and burst into laughter.
"Ok Champ. Lets go. I will never understand women." We laughed even more.
After getting ready, we ate breakfast.
jeh? May I talk to you, please?" I asked a bit nervous.
"Sure, whats up?" he answered courious.
"Not here please." I pulled him into the livingroom.
"Ok, whats up? You act like your going to rob the bank of England." I had to giggle.
"Well, that would also be a good idea, but I wanted to ask you for a favour..." I took a deep breath.
"Could you give me abhays adress? I think I need to talk to him."
I stood in front of Mr raichand's house with the piece of paper in my hand, jeh had written the adress on.
I felt like I was 18 again and all the bad memories came to my mind.
I was really scared to just walk up to the door and ring the bell, so I just walked up and down a few times, trying to convince me to ring.
"Come on piya dont be stupid. You need to talk to him." I said to myself, took a deep breath and walked to the door.
"Yes?" asked a maid, opening the door.
"Um..hello. May...may I talk to Mr. raichand, please?" I asked shy. The maid nodded and asked me in.
"Please wait a moment..." she walked away.
"Who wants to talk to me?" I heard Mr. raichands voice calling from the living room.
"She shall come in, whoever she is!" the maid came back and showed me to go to him.
"Hello chand Uncle." I greeted nervous.
"piya?! Oh my god, its so good to see you." he called excited and hugged me tight.
"How are you?" I asked after he let me go.
"Im fine and you? How is..." he stopped in the midsentence and looked unsure around.
"Hes fine. He gets healthier from day to day." I answered smiling.
"Please, sit down. Can I offer you something? Tea, coffee?" he asked, taking a seat.
"A tea would be wonderful, thank you." He called the maid.
"You are here, finally. You dont know how long we waited for that day." he said, looking loving at me.
"Why didnt you tell me the truth about abhay?" I asked directly, he jumped.
"You know?" I nodded.
"Yes. You have to know, fate is sometimes really strange. I made the decoration for Sonyas engagement party." I explained.
"For Sonya? Wow, thats really fate. And she told you." he concluded.
He was silence for a moment, meanwhile served the maid the tea.
"So?" I asked, looking at him.
"I wanted you to find out that you still love him...I just..." he sighed and took a gulp from his tea.
"I wanted you to come back on you own, with you free will, I..."
"You just wanted to help." I ended the sentence and put my hand on his arm.
"Thank you chand Uncle and thank you for not telling him about Rohan." I added smiling. He took my hand and kissed it.
"You are such a good girl, piya. Im so sorry for what my wife and me did to you." but I only shook my head.
"She loved abhay, he is her son and she wanted the best for him." He smiled bitter.
"Yes, we did, but it was a big mistake...Will you talk to him?" he asked hopeful.
"Thats why Im here. I came here to visit abhay." I answered.
"He must be back any minute." right then the door opened and abhay entered the room.
"Ah, there you are, we already waited for you." called chand uncle.
"We?" he asked, but stopped walking when he saw me sitting on the couch.
"piya...wha...what are you doing here?" he asked suprised.
"Im sorry. jeh told me you are here. I...I need to talk to you." I got up and looked unsure at him.
"Well, I think this is the moment when I tell you that Im tired and that I will go upstairs and rest a bit even though Im not tired at all." said cand uncle getting up from his chair.
"Thank you for everything chand uncle." I said hugging him, he kissed my forehad.
"Theres nothing to thank for." he walked to the door, put his hand on abhays shoulder and winked at him.
"Be nice to her, shes a good girl." with that he left.
abhay and me still stared at each other.
"Can I offer you something?" he asked nervous, but I shook my head and showed at the cup of tea in front of me.
He giggled nervous and went with his hand through his hair.
"Im sorry, but I just didnt expect you to come here."
"I know...I hope you are not mad at jeh for telling me you are here." I apologized again.
"No...not at all." he answered, shooting me a look that made me weak.
"Lets sit down." he said and took a seat in chand uncles chair.
"How are you? You look tired." I asked as I saw the grey shadows under his eyes.
"Oh, Im fine thank you, just a bit tired...and you? I have to say, you look better than the last time, more relaxed." I nodded.
"Yes, I feel much better, thank you." We sat a while in silence.
"So, what about your boyfriend, Rohan?" he asked, I looked confused at him.
"Yes, you said he is your life when I asked you who he is, so..."
"He is not my boyfriend." I cut him off.
"abhay...I know everything." I simply said, he nearly spat his tea.
"You know what?" he asked nervous.
"You have to know, I met Sonya a few days ago as I made the decoration for her engagement party and she told me everything." I explained fast, not able to look at him.
"I see..." he answered and stared at his cup.
"Why didnt you tell me?" I asked now, a bit afraid of the answer, but he remained silent.
After a few minutes, I looked at him, and saw tears falling from his eyes.
"abhay?" I tried to grab his hand, but he pulled it away.
"How could I ever come back to you after what I did to you? You loved me, you trusted me and I abused your love and trust by breaking my promise and sending you away." he got up and walked over to the window.
"piya its true. We broke off the engangement because I couldnt stop loving you and I still love you, but..."
"But what abhay? What? You are right, I trusted you and I loved you, more than my life and its also right that you abused my trust, but it was more than hard to go on with my life without you!" I called, also getting up.
"Why did you never call me, visit me? Why did you never ask me if I wanted you back?" the tears welled up in my eyes.
He spun around and looked suprised at me.
"I loved you abhay with all my heart and I would have done everything to get you back. Its only for jeh and misha that Im still alive, without them I wouldnt have made it..." I glanced mad at him.
"Especially after I found out that I was pregnant." I added, the tears now falling from my eyes. He looked shocked at me.
"You...,.you...you..were...pregnant?! From...me?" he stuttered.
"Yes, I was pregnant. I found out a few weeks after you left me." I whispered exhausted, looking at the ground
"Did you...keep it?" he asked unsure of what to think. I sighed deep and looked at him, then I nodded.
"Yes, I kept the baby...Rohan has his 5th birthday next week."
"Rohan is your son?!" he took a seat on a chair next to the window and held his head in his hands.
"Yes, Rohan is my son...your son." I smiled soft.
"Oh god, piya. How hard must it have been for you? Im so sorry." he said with a trembling voice.
I sighed and walked over to him.
"Its ok abhay. I got it with mishas and jehs help." I said now standing in front of him.
"Im so sorry." he said again, then he hugged my stomach and cried like a baby.
"I love you piya, I love you so much."