And Long back I had read this quoted by my fellow IFian on a thread...and today it just struck me so much...seeing Kesar looking soo expectantly at the door waiting for Gulaal to just come...There is a riot going on inside his heart which only calms when he sees her...ironically she is the riot ...as he told her today...finally...'tu hai meri pareshaani' ..in the end of the epi...
So here it goes...something that I saw in Kesuda's eyes today...when he could not see her on the door...
Masoom si mohabbat ka bas itna fasana hai
Kagaz ki haveli hai baarish ka zamaana hai.
Kya shart-e- mohabbat hai kya shart-e- zamaana hai
Awaaz bhi zakhmi hai aur geet bhi gana hai.
Uss paar uterne ki ummeed bahot kam hai
Kashti bhi puraani hai aur tufaan ko bhi aana hai.
Samjhe ya na samjhe wo andaaz mohabbat ke
Ek shaqs ko aankho se ek sher sunaana hai.
Bholi si adaa koi phir ishq ki zid par hai
Phir aag ka dariya hai, aur phir doob ke jaana hai.
She is like a drug to his senses...He cannot survive without it and sometimes he even hates himself for that dependency, for that inability to detach himself...inability to stay away...inability to just not love her...
Aww his searching eyes just made me sooo sad...and then when Gulaal came and she did not look at him and went to Talli directly...the baccha gave his bike a raise drawing her attention...he so craves that exclusiveness...me first..me your world...nobody else..it is not only Dushyant which bugs him..it is everybody who is in Gulaal's world and her priority that bugs him...owww he is such brat...π³
And he keeps on looking at her,,,in anger albeit ...but when she doesnot look back..or avoids his eyes...as he very well got it ...he just puts his head down...you can see his anger trying to fight his disappointment...
by the way did someone feel that when he was waiting for Gulaal he had become so entranced with the entrance door that when Sudha asked that bring talli back safely...he almost jumped out of his skinπ...and that acted in that cool and unattached telling her that he would be able to bring her back only if she leavesπ...and he even joked about talli and her revision...(which was totally right..how can you revise like thatπ) .. but the moment Gulaal stepped in...he is like as taut as a guitar string on a E noteπ...
Talli ki battisi to bas..bandh hone se rahi...bandar chhap kala dant manjan ka advertisement chalu hai...heeheeeheheee...ghodi ki tarah hinhinati rehti hai...I mean look girl!! the tension between Kesar and Gulaal was so thick that you could actually touch it and feel the current..and the girl is jabbering awayπ‘π
Kesar takes away my sense of humour most of the time...(well you know when you are busy gawking, sense of humour tends to stay away from youπ) but today when he came and sat before Talli gobbling the bhajiyas like there is no tomorrow and the whole of Talsagra is going to make her go on a hunger strike, I just for a moment wanted to pull his nose for being such a snob...the girl was asking... errr...in talli language..the girl was wailing...did he want to eat bhajiya..and he is like giving such tired expression..and Talliphulli...the girl has absolutely no self respect...she gets thumped upon so much but still she insists...arre bhai when he doesnot want to eat or ask you about how were your exams to tu uske muh mein apne gande haath daal kar bulvayegi kyaπ‘π and the way you were gobbling bhajiyas...no person in his right mind would dare disturb you with the exam thoughts...π...and the way Kesar got an went away was just fab...and still that girl follows him ...AND ofcourse ..she does take the bhajiyas with her toooπ...Bhukkhad kahi ki.π‘..Sahara ke desert se aayi hai...janam janam ki bhukhiπ
The way Kesar asks her what is she thanking him for was also just to Kesar ...he is like so completely oblivious to her that he doesnot even acknowledge her thankyou except for the mere fun of ridiculing her stupid thoughts...he really is behaving burishly with her (not that I am complainingπ)
But when she brings out the Chunar thing..and he again relives the rejection of his gift..the more he tries to be free from those thougths..the more those ghosts hound him...and Talli's incessant chatter is sure not helping him as he drowns himself further into misery... the way Talli presses and the way he denies that it was not for her...I dont know...it might have looked rude in the first instance...but I think he was kind to Talli..telling her in not so many words not to have any expectations...the BG of slap when he said so was so appropriateπ
finally Talli! Shut up!!π
And somehow Talli gets into her mind that she should bring Gulaal in between,,,now why did I have that idea that she is suspecting that the Chunar has reached Gulaal...??? I know Talli and brains dont go together..but this time I think she has hit the bulls eye...and ofcourse she being Talli, she pressed on...and he being Kesar,,,he could not bear any more of this..and when in the end Talli started on 'Gulaal is right ,..you...' he just drives off ...Talli! now eat the dustπ
And boy!! the way he ran you know he was going to drink..the poor supplier was so afraid, Kesar was drinking in a dry state openly...But I purely think that he started drinking with the sole purpose of giving himself the courage to go and face Gulaal... he knew he was not going to
have that if he goes sober...
And the last scene *sigh* *gasp**thud*...me faintedπ³
The winds blowing and it is dark and Gulaal in her own turmoil on Kesar's words the earlier day ...and she tries to shut the door and bangs enters Kesuds...he is quite getting into giving frights na??? The only way he could actually get control over the whole thing...because otherwise Gulaal is so dominating (and rightly soπ)
Was it me or did anyone felt that Gulaal too got conscious and AWARE of him...it was natural though...but for the first time I saw awareness in her eyes ...perhaps also due to the fact that she had just been thinking about him and he barged in...
and oh!! the first thing he asked is what ate him up the whole day!!!
WHY did she ignore him in the morning...???*sigh* he had been roaming around, waiting for talli phulli to finish the exams, driving off and getting drunk with this only thought in his mind...WHY did she not acknowledge him..?? why would she not even give him a glance when all his eyes seek is herπ..owww the bacha breaks my heart sooo many timesπ
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