Guilt Vs Love
Dev(sub-conscious/conscious Dev's image) to dev...' you still love her with same intensity and you are fighting yourself inside to cover your own feelings.
Dev tried to object but finally he agreed.. but did that reach anyone's ears, did that reach his own heart!.
Now he hurt her not only with his words, his look, but also by pushing away on her upper arm.. do they really need to show it to bring his inner conscious to come out, to question him.. interesting.
Dev, who brought up by RP rules, who has been guided by daima in right direction, who had that pure mind to do the work of him and others with dedication and with a smile on his lips , is failing himself' why?
Because of his love for Radhika..!!!!😕
Dev shouted at his inner conscious: ha, I still love her, I still love her
The conscious mind is laughing at him , seeing his pathetic face..
Dev: laugh at your loudest voice, but I am not going to change, everything happened because of her, because of her
Conscious image smiled again
Dev: what else I do? I tried to tell her, I tried to show her, my hate, my irritation, but still she is loving me so much, the way I wished, the way I dreamed, and I know I don't deserve it
Conscious image: why you think you don't deserve it?, she is your wife
Dev: no she is not my wife, she is not my wife
Conscious image: but she believes it that way
Dev: ha, she believes it, but but
Conscious image: bolona dev
Dev: but she is cheating everyone, she is pretending to be somebody else's wife and my whole family is trusting her words , she is a liar
Conscious Dev: so you can't even tolerate that
Dev: no I can't
Conscious image smiled
Dev , looking at his conscious image with tearful eyes : kyum has rehe ho abhi?
Conscious Image: for telling me the truth
Dev: what truth, I told that many times , I told her with my words, my eyes, my actions, that I hate her. But my words never reached her ears, and my look never reached her eyes, now I tried to make her feel it by hurting her physically too, to wake her up and to tell her that she doesn't belong to me.
Conscious Dev: so you hate her for what?, for not belonging to you in others eyes!!, in their words!!
Dev raising his both hands up and bringing it up covering his ears :HA, ha, I can't take it when others connect her with Rohan, she belongs to me, only me, I can't let her go, I can't tolerate even when she called as somebody else's wife, let it be Rohan's , I can't tolerate it. She belongs to me, and only me, she is mine, and her love is mine,
Dev went weak on his legs and slowly sat on that floor, with his swollen eyes and trailing tears, to sooth his mind, to cool the fire inside' with one request : please don't laugh at me, I am burning inside, if you can't put off that fire inside me, at least don't add more oil into it, ...let it burn off itself inside me, I can tolerate the heat from it, or whatever it brings to me, but can't tolerate seeing my Radhika taken away from me even in others words, she is mine, just mine, and only mine..
His words trailed off with the camera freezing at that remorseful face of Dev..😭
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