Posted: 20 May 2011 at 12:04pm | IP Logged
I feel for him...he thinks everything and everyone has been unfair to him. He had built this web of negative thoughts inside his mind even when he a living human being...and that brought about his destruction. He was always behind something that he wanted but could not have, that didn't belong to him. Had he stopped somewhere in his journey to get what he couldn't get, and looked around the world in a positive manner, he would got what he desrved, someone special who loved him and would have appreciated him, but alas! He was overridden by his passion to seek revenge from everyone who he thinks did wrong to him,betrayed him but most importantly it was destiny that he was trying to fight ,but of course, this is not possible. In fact, "It's choice - not chance - that determines your destiny" and had my siddy boy taken the right choice and not ran after something that he couldn't have, he would have been a much happier man. Life gave him another chance to have someone who loved him, Panchi, but this time too, he ignored it. Didn't even give it a chance, he wanted one only thing- REVENGE. And in my opinion, he brought Maithli back to life not so much because he loved her, but because he wanted to prove that he can get what he want by hook or by crook, he just coudn't see his brother yet again "winning" and getting what they both were after. He did it to himself, had he made the right choice before, he'd have been "alive" now. But I don't blame him completely, he was a human when he created that web of negative thoughts and it's human tendency to do so. That poison that filled his mind while he was alive still existed until the time of his death, and perhaps exists after that too.
Nonetheless, I'm so sorry and sad to lose you Sid. He's not EVIL, as some people call him so, he just thought the world and everyone had been unfair to him because of the circumstances and the things he faced. He actually comes across to me as an emotional man who had to face many rejections,be it in childhood or adulthood. Had Abhay been in his place,who knows,he might have done the same thing. Abhay always got what he desired,probably cos it was written for him and so never had to face any such situation but my Siddy boy,he never got what he wanted cos it just wasn't meant to be his.And what was meant to be his,he never gave it a chance, or even look at it with a clear,un-poisoned mind once. Finally, the thing which was long overdue happened, he died.
I'll miss you loads Sid, you touched my heart in a way no one else could in this fictional world of PKYEK. May your soul rest in peace and this poison leaves your mind. Love you Siddy boy, you'll always stay in our hearts, you shall be deeply missed. Now, it's time to let you go. Goodbye.
Is it just me or did he actually leave with an intention of coming back? If he did, well then,I'll be looking forward to it but I hope he comes back a better person with a positive attitude to life, with a feeling that someone somewhere is defo made for him. Let's see. Until then, Goodnight Siddy boy, sleep in peace. :) xxx
^^^ If all that didn't make sense, don't kill me. I have been studying since morning and I think I've lost it...that's why I wrote SO much!
Edited by kasharti1 - 20 May 2011 at 12:14pm