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OMG you stopped at such a crucial point...update soon please...awesome as always
-Ehtesaab-
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her breath caught in her throat when she saw maan silently getting back in his car & leaving without saying a word. Without even giving her a second look. His silence said it all.. she closed her eyes in grief..in anguish... in fear. Still she stood numb.. without tears in her eyes..her heart was sinking seeing him leave her!!! why didn't he say anything. She was scared.. scared of losing him!! she didn't want to hurt him but she did it again.. all she could think at the moment was Maan!!! why didn't he say anything, why did he just leave her.
jaan..ghar challo jaan!! dev shook her arms
Maan..all she could utter... snapping her hand trying to wave at him
dev turned to follow her gaze that was on the moving long posh car.
Dev smirked
Maan.. she said painfully still looking at the car that got lost in the traffic. she felt pain emerging in her stomach
Dev turned her forcefully to face her - he left u!!! he was just using u all the while. this is not ur life.
She looked vulnerable
dev - I am still ready to accept u back in my life.. just forget every thing we shall go home.
She was not saying anything
dev - its only me Geet!! its always been only me n ur life.
Not any more Dev..not any more.
She restlessly looked for a taxi..dev turned her briskly hurting her stomach.. not realizing she was in pain he continued to shout at her...tum kis baat pe itne itrarhi ho!! khurana khandan!! they will all disown u the moment they know the truth ..how u cheated on ur husband..
iss bache pe!!! jo najaze hain..yah phir us Maan pe jo tumhe chod ke chala gaya.. she snapped his hand yet again & hopped in next available taxi. She felt something coming down, she was feeling scared..nervous..as she could figure it out as some clot or blood. She sat crying in the car..fearing something she couldn't even think!! the taxi driver asked her couple of time if she was ok. She requested driver to take her to the hospital at the earliest. She couldn't even remember lying in stretcher, trying to pray, but being completely unable to focus her thoughts... she was losing all her hope.
Dev was annoyed at her leaving him like this.. he clinched his fist forming a knukle. He hit the bonnet of the car in anger.
Maan was restless as he reached his office. He didn't know if it was good idea to leave her alone there. But at that time he felt that was impt especially, she has still not cried ..still something in her was probably holding on to the rotten memories. He couldn't stand there & see them.. it was painful!! He was feeling scared & just hoped that she had not seen him there, otherwise his silently leaving would hurt her. He was not taking any calls.. then the receptionist informed it was an emergency call from the hospital.
Maan panicked & answered at once
dr - Mr. Khurana ur wife & child is serious
he couldn't wait until she finished, he rushed to the hospital scared & petrified.
The moment he reached the hospital he enquired with the reception & ran to the room where Geet was.
He sighed bit in relief to see her fine externally as she lay on the table she did look in pain.. her brows were flinched.. she constantly clinched her fist. He slowly walked in not disturbing the process conducted by the dr. he softly held her cold & shivering hand. She looked in too much of pain.
The dr ran the doppler across her belly, both of them listened intently . After a little while and no results, they tried to read the look on the face of the dr. Something must be wrong. They looked at each other in fear & pain. Dr tried a little more, then stopped. Dr couldn't find the heartbeat.
Their world had stopped spinning for a moment then they grabbed onto hope again as the dr suggested an ultrasound. As she lay on the cold table & he stood beside her equally nervous now. They watched the screen, there was no sign of the tiny flutter. They were in a state of shock and denial. They couldn't accept the fact that something could happen to their baby so they kept clinging to any ounce of hope. But there was no hope left!! the dr took her into the OT for immediate surgery. He painfully let her go.
Maan waited impatiently only to discover a sorry from the dr!! His legs froze like hell broke down at him as he heard the dr inform him that their baby was no more, he felt surrounded by darkness. Cold wrath seem to wrap around his soul and filled his with pain and anger . He was angry.. he was angry with every thing around him. He pushed off the dr & walked away to isolation.
She sat in the bed cuddled up alone..no one to sooth her pain.. understand her lose. Her heart ached to hold their baby as her hand caressed now empty belly. Her heart ached to see him.. her eyes looked for him.. tell him she was sorry!! , her heart ached to feel the baby move inside her womb. She sat feeling hollow, fragile, and desperately sad. He struggled with powerful and more confusing feelings with in him.
The most painful feeling was that of grief. Both didn't know a person could feel so much pain. Not even her divorce caused as much pain as losing that baby she thought. She felt like she was slowly being crushed by a huge weight of grief. She even wondered if she could even breathe any more. It felt like his heart had imploded, turning into a black hole which was sucking all of his consciousness into it and from which it could never escape.
Maan came in after couple of cold & numb into the room to take her home. He didn't even look at her his gaze was plastered to the floor. His anger & pain vibrated in the silent room that was already moaning in her pain.
Maan she called to tell him sorry.. hug him .. cry to him.. share their pain.
He raised his hand .. between them gesturing her to be quiet. Not wanting to hear anything from her. He was really angry. His heart suffered from feelings of failure and anger. He was angry with himself--why he failed..how could Maan Singh Khurana fail on something so important? He felt cheated, like he had been robbed off his child. He was also resentful because a part of his life that was supposed to be happy had become a period of anguish, confusion and grief.
She turned her face in the pillow & cried out silently!! his silence .. his anger.. she didn't know wat was he thinking .. did he misunderstand her.. wat was he thinking !! why was he not saying anything. The pain of emptiness.. she wondered wat she has done to face so much anguish!! why her ..why babaji punishing her !! her only hope.. was standing far away.. himself shattered too.. if she carried the baby in her womb..he sheltered the little life in his heart. Her womb, aching and hollow, like his heart bleeding
where it tore from its embrace.
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