-Ehtesaab- SSmaaneet EPILOGUE NOTE PG145 - Page 28

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oh Maan iss dard ka main babaji ko kya javab doon gi
he pulled her closer in his embrace.. tumhe kisi ko javab deni ki zarorat nahi
samjhi tum..kisi ko nahi.. he pulled her away holding her arms to look at her face. Yah meri khudgarsi hain!!she looks at him painfully. Lekin she pointed backward.. mama-papa
jisen jo sochna hain sochna ne do!! jo samjhna hain samjhne do.. he turned his back crossing his hand in a firm posture, yet he couldn't deny their pain. She slipped her hand around his torso, rested her cheek on his back. Slowly sliding it towards his shoulders tucking him closer.. caressing her cheek. He pressed her hand reassuring, inching backward closer.

Dev began to miss every happiness he ever had, those moments of with her that he treasured. Their house seemed so much out of place. He couldn't find anything in place. He would call for Geet to pass him stuffs!! & remorse vibrate in the air.. each passing day the life seemed empty & void. He would even wait at the door absently ringing the bell just to open it self & find the loneliness to linger. He could never leave home on time.. it all felt so different. Her smile.. her sweet complain.. now seemed sweet.. he wanted her ..wanted to be with her.. like always.. her warmth..her compassion. .. that filled his life.. his house.. all now haunted!!!

Maan did every thing he could to take care of his love. He took Geet to yoga classes. He made sure she had her medicines. She went for all her check ups on time. Her exam time was really bothering him a lot, she didn't seem to take care enough, he thought. Even dr suggested to take it easy but she was stressing her self.. it was more of fight within that was bringing her system down!! the fight within her!! every day was a struggle for her!!!

she had this wild aim of floating her software. She had to really prepare a lot to get the sponsors.
Maan - I can fund u
she kept quiet. 
Maan - u r stressing urself
he was getting angry & restless..more on her ignorance towards herself.
she walked away.
U can always join my company ..yek kasien zid hain Geet?
He turned her & questioned. She looked at his grip & then him.. he let her lose
She opened her laptop & continued to work. He finally gave up, he knew he won;t let anything happen to her. He slipped his hand on her waist & cuddled up next to her.

He suddenly jumped .. she kicked me.. he kissed her stomach. Geet smiled weakly ..he..she insisted.& enjoyed the moment with him. They caressed over, around the bump feeling the moments. He pulled her closer.. I don't like u stressing urself. ..he kissed her stomach.. her waist.. moving upwards.. leaving a trail of kisses.. his touch was filled with love, care, compassion.. filling the room with desire...his fingers unbuttoning her blouse. She smiled.. he stared at her for a long moment.. wat was in those eyes..deer colored..his life encomposed ..why he was not able to read her pain.. not able to wash it away.. he had been trying so hard..but it seemed to just intensify!!   wrecking in deep something. He feared the pain stayed in could ruin every thing he cared..he treasured..he built. he pulled her into a long deep kiss.

Maan glanced at her... u have lost wt.. u r not taking care of urself. He complained kissing her cheeks, nose..wondering..how ishi sanso se meri sansen judi hain... Slowly his hand continued his process of undressing her. Her skin prickled with goose bumps, craving the warmth of his hands. Something he loved .. she always reacted lovingly to his touch.. like his touch was soul deep.. soothing her wounded soul. The smile that teased on her lips off late seeing him strip make his heart skip beats & dry his mouth. She would bite her lip & close her eyes longing for him.  She dropped her head backward as she ached with desire.. the desire she once thought could never be evoked.. but yes she wanted to in his arms ..he slowly dipped into her. Moving in a way to love her, pamper their urges.

A smile curled corners of his lips, seeing the desire fire up in her. He can't remember knowing anything so beautiful. His eyes closed capturing the moment, his jaw set as if he was trying to delay the inevitable. Her soft whispers sent him over the edge & he collapsed against her chest in a string of delicious spasms. 

Next day was impt for them Geet had a presentation & her first sonography. Geet completed her presentation while Maan waited for her in the hospital. She had grabbed the deal..still she didn't seem to rejoice.

Maan continuously trying to reach her.. they were late for the appointment.

The sponsors congratulated her..she blankly shook hand & collected her papers & pen drive .
She closed her laptop & walked out. She waved at the taxi trying to switch on the phone. A long car familiar car pulled over in front of her. She inced away. He stepped out.. looking torn out..stressed out..worn out.. every flinch in his brows she knew..she could read them blindly..need not even see them to know he was stressed. 

her breath caught in her throat when she saw maan silently getting back in his car & leaving without saying a word. Without even giving her a second look. His silence said it all.. she closed her eyes in grief..in anguish... in fear. Still she stood numb.. without tears in her eyes..