A sleep for life time
Dear Dairy,
I really wanted to hide from him but deep down myself I knew I really want to hug him or be in his arms for rest of my life.
When Stefan left the town I went crazy so as Damon and then Damon despair. Then I realized that I am not the most important part of their life. I knew that Damon will find a way to find Stefan. But he could take me at least. But as always ,Damon thought about my safety and without telling me he went.That night I cried very hard. These two brothers who claimed that they love me but leave me for each other.
But today morning when Caroline screamed by see him I thought its her another prank. But when Bonny who was sitting in front of me and can see the backside of mine, she also welcome him with a big smile.. then my heart start pounding like hell. I didn't know it was Stefan or Damon as I still didn't turn back to see. Then caroline said 'Damon is looking very hot on white shirt.
White. My favorite color. He usually wear black. He was in white today, which was quite unexpected. Caroline was drooling over him or maybe she wanted to make me jealous. I was wishing to be strong as much I can. After 6 months, I thought I don't have my feelings left for these two brothers. But why my heart was beating so loud and fast as if everybody on the grill can hear my heartbeats .Then I took a deep breath and turn to see him .
Yes he was looking burning hot. At that point I wanted to run toward him and hug him tight. But as you know. I have a big ego .So I could not look at him again. I act like normal as if I haven't seen him .. then he came near to me but hugged Caroline. Its was very gentleman hug. It was not like I am j of Carrline. But somewhere deep down me I also wanted that hug. I really needed him. Then I got up and start leaving that grill. I knew that he is looking at my moves. When I passing by his side I push his shoulder by mine in anger but I wanted my hand to touch his. After doing that I realized that was a bad idea. If he caught my wrist then and start conversation. That will be very embarrassing . Because he is very good in making scene. But the way he is behaving today I wasn't quite sure.
I rush to my car when I realized that he didn't catch my wrist. I was very frustrated. But why did I ? it was me who always pushed him away from me. When I was driving to home I was telling myself "Wake up Elena he hasn't come back for you. Maybe he has some work here to find Stefan". But I knew he wanted to find Stefan not only for him but also for me. He knew I love Stefan. But yes he wasn't coming to me .
I went inside furiously . rush to my room. Wanted to bang the door. But when I push the door hard he caught it. My heart was beating 100 times on that second.
But then I said with a deep breath "don't try this Damon I am tired".
He said "In this early morning?"
I said "I am tired of you"
He said "I wasn't here. how could you … Wait a sec.that means you make me presence on your thoughts. you are not suppose to think about me Elena". By saying this he swiftly came inside and closed the door. Made his stylish trademark face.
Awww..I was missing his expression. No no no Elena. Stop it. I scolded myself that time. A part of me was very egoistic but the other parts wanted to hug him right then . I didn't know which one to listen. I was very confused. It was pointless to talk to him now so I turned back showed him my back. I was praying to god why he has put me on this situation. I could not fight with me. But I had to be strong.
Then I felt his hard rock chest on my back he was hugging me from back . It was a swift and soft hug which was getting tight by each second as if he wanted to tell me how our relationship got stronger day by day.
I wanted to free from his hold. But he didn't let me go. He was resting his chin on my shoulder. Then slowly he start pressed his lip on my shoulder. I could not control my self. A hot tear was coming on my eyes. My tears were falling… He was pressing his lips on my shoulder. i didn't know what to do but cry. I wanted to move from his grab but he made me faced him .I didn't want to face him . I wanted hide from this feelings for him .He hug me again and it was very very tight…It was hurting me .
"leave me Damon. You are hurting me" .
he soften his hold.. I caught my breath.
He swiftly pressing his lip with mine. At 1st I was a shocked for me. I was trying push him hard but he didn't move 1 cm nor stop kissing me he kissed me hard. hot tears had made on my eyes.. didn't know what to do. He soften the hug and kissing me passionately. I cried harder. I cried hard not for he kissed me forcefully but I cried hard because he loves me Why he loves me .Why. I cant give him anything. I am just hurting him. I was thing about us throughout the kiss. Didn't know when I started responding to the kiss, hugged him tight
he soften his hold on my hair but I hold him to kiss him hard . Grabbed him close and kissing him. I was crying. My kiss was getting harder and harder . We broke out of breath. My head was resting on his chest . One of my hand was holding his shirt tight as if I didn't want him to go.What was happen to me? I did not know. All I knew that I need him always with me. I was holding him tight. Suddenly I broke my boundary and kiss him all over his face. He was in full shocked. I was kissing his cheek, chin, forehead, lips. All over the face. I couldn't control. Didn't know how to control. But he knew how to control and made me control. He took me in another passionate long kiss. Made me relax and rubbed my back to get my sense back. Slowly when he was sure that I was again the old normal Elena he soften the kiss and hug me tight.
I didn't realize when I fall sleep on Damon's arm. When I saw his face was so near to me , fear hit my sense "have I done some thing that I really have to regret" but I was very mesmerized to see that he didn't go any further which he could easily went. I was just sleeping on his arm. But I felt I have sleep for life time. No more tiredness was there.
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