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Chapter 66
His words kept playing in her mind on repeat as she sat there motionless looking at him...her mouth open and tears trickling down her cheeks. She had convinced herself that she didn't care for him anymore...that he meant nothing to her...and now hearing this, her love for him came back to bite her. She had challenged her heart that nothing would affect her decision of keeping away and now her heart had slapped her hard across her face...mocking her at its victory. She felt a sudden load on her chest and got up from her seat to walk out the room. Naina got up right after her but Sharan held her back and shook his head.He waited a while till she was far from them..."Stay with her so she doesn't do anything stupid, but give her the space she needs" he told Naina as they watched her sluggish form disappear from around the corner. Naina saw her sit at one of the benches still in her stupor, oblivious of her surroundings. Seeing her like this, a mix of emotions cluttered her heart. She felt happy that Rohan's love wasn't one sided, a little heartbroken at the official loss of an opportunity to be with him, jealous at realizing that she will now have less time with him and...as she saw her pull out her phone to call him frantically, she felt extremely disappointed that he now has someone else to take care of him.
The call went directly to his voicemail all three times she tried and she panicked...she got up from there and started to run towards the exit but Naina caught her in time. Feeling the tug on her arm, she turned around giving her a helpless look as she said "Let me go Naina..please let me go. I cannot even get through his phone...I want to know how he is doing." She was in so much distress that even Naina couldn't hold back her tears when she pleaded again "Please let me go Naina...I want to go to him..."
She tugged on her hand to get it released from Naina's hold and she let go..but only to hold her by her shoulders. "If you go now, you won't be able to come back for your performance. These events are Rohan's life...I don't think he would like for anyone to mess up the event because of him...least of all you." She had been trying to get out of her hold and her eyes had drifted closed with the pain her heart had been experiencing but after hearing what Naina said, she opened her eyes and looked at her surprised. She had stopped her attempts to get away and had stopped crying as realization hit her...and then her eyes lit up with a new determination. She would not leave...she would focus on her performance and give her best to it...for him..only for him.
She took her to the green room then...thinking about how whatever happens, happens for the best. If she had been participating with Sanjay, she wouldn't have been able to take care of her. Perhaps, some things do have a good outcome...but what about the other things...that only gave a heart ache? How could they come under the 'best' category when all one feels is worthless?
The onset of the event brought her out of her thoughts when she heard April give the opening speech over the mic. The time that followed went by so quick, it was as though they had time traveled an hour. She wasn't even ready yet when they heard Kabir over the mic, doing his mimicry act. Her tears had been flowing incessantly even though she sat still for Naina to put on her make up for her...which only delayed her being ready...but she just couldn't help it. Her mind had been flashing all the times they had spent together...of all the times he had taken care of her...and then the times she had been harsh to him. She was sitting there only physically...mentally she was close to him.
Sharan entered the room and saw that she still wasn't ready. She didn't look at him or acknowledge his presence when he took Naina to the other end of the room to talk. They talked for a bit and then he left the room after stroking her on her head. Naina went back to her and wiped her tears for the nth time. "We need to get you ready quickly...your performance will be upon you in no time. I don't think Rohan would like to see you cry like this...so please stop crying. " and she did. She knew how to come up with emotionally blackmailing words in the name of Rohan...she was ready to give up anything that would upset him...even her tears.
Just when she had finished putting on her make-up and gotten her near ready to start with her final touches...she heard music start in the background which made her hold her breath..for some unknown reason. She felt a whirlpool start inside her belly as she waited for the song to start...and then she straightened up as she heard the voice over the mic and looked at Naina with a surprised gasp who had a smile on her face as she nodded to say "He's here..."
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