Chapter 54
To
my immortal beloved - 11
It's already my 11th letter to you and I
still don't know how to start. I say so many things to you in my mind, but it blanks out on me when I start to write to you. Every moment spent with you gives me
pleasure and pain all the same. Every moment spent away from you gives me
pain and pleasure all the same. I'm afraid my heart will soon stop
recognizing pleasure from pain...and thus I will eventually become as unfeeling
as those that reside in the mortuary. Even yet, I cannot stop loving
you. I yearn for you day and night. I love you so much, it hurts...
She was reading it for the third time when Naina cleared her throat to indicate she was approaching...and yet she didn't keep it down.
"That's..." she started, setting the tray with their two cups of tea down on the table.
"... beautiful." Keerti completed for her. She saw the look on Naina's face and realized it must be personal. "I'm sorry...is this personal? It was lying here and I thought...I'm sorry."
Naina couldn't help but smile at the simple girl standing in front of her. They had met only a few times before which had only been limited to a
'hi-hello' type of conversation. And so she was initially apprehensive about her staying over. But she couldn't say no to Rohan...she just couldn't. As she noticed her, something made her feel warm in her stomach...something that made her ease up her apprehension...and so she said "It's okay..."
"Did you write this? To someone special?" she wasn't sure how to ask that and not sound intruding at the same time.
Naina gave a short laugh before saying "I wrote this...but not for anyone in particular. It's like...I imagine myself in certain situations...ones I see on TV or in movies... and wonder what I would do or how I would react...and then whatever comes to mind, I just throw it on the paper."
"You're lonely, aren't you?" Keerti asked much to Naina's surprise. For a moment she wanted to throw her out of her house. First she read her personal notes and now she read her with exact precision. She realized the girl was intruding in her private life too quickly and too accurately and she didn't like it at all.
"I do too..." she said in such a tone it made Naina recall what Keerti had just gone through. Rohan had filled her in over the phone while Keerti was getting her stuff together.
"But why? You have so many people around you..." Naina asked a bit curious.
Looking outside the window she said "Sometimes, you alone are sufficient to keep yourself company and sometimes, even in the midst of ten thousand people, you are alone"
She pondered over what Keerti had just said for quite some time but still couldn't understand why she said that. But there was one thing she acknowledged to herself...that she was sure she was going to have a love-hate relation with her. It had only been a half hour since she had come home and she already went through a myriad of emotions...from apprehension to rage to compassion to curiosity. And she realized why Rohan felt this way for her.
Just then, Keerti turned from the window to face her and said "Thank you for letting me in tonight. I don't know how I'm going to repay you for your help.." She saw slight vulnerability in her eyes then and knew those words had come out right from her heart. Naina felt the strongest urge to hug her then...the girl that she had hated so much only a few days ago...the girl she had envied the most...the immortal beloved of
her immortal beloved.
Edited by dolphinUSA - 12 years ago
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