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Originally posted by: Sanaa629

Aanya!!! I was going to reply to ur Dear Guy like AGESSS back but then a stupid power cut = no internet for the whole day!! ARGHH!!!

 

Well anyways..here goes..!!

 

 

Catharsis always helps doesn't it??

 

WOW!!! i know you were just planning to let go of ur pent up emotions..and so don't need a comment...which is great but i couldn't help but empathize slightly with you...Though My story is wayyy different than urs..I know how it feels when best friends aren't best friends anymore..it hurts..and yes sometime's it's easier to let go..but I didn't.

 

Actually..with me..I had this amazing best guy firend..and we gelled so well..but he was never someone I looked as anything more..hahahaha..probably coz I was crushing on someone else at that point..and then after that my Armaan obsession got the better of me..!!! LOL!!!

 

But..yeah..so i always took him as a best friend..and people were trying to set us up together..with all the.. "awwhh..you look cute..he'd be a great boyfriend..bladih bladih blaa.." and I was the stubborn me.. and refused to see him as anything more..and that's when the tension between us started..And it got to a bad stage..!! I couldn't bear talking to him even in a group..whereas..before I'd have no problem sitting with him alone and we'd chat about anything...

 

I'm not saying I'm perfect..hell no.. I make my mistakes.. but I nearly lost that friendship because of everyone trying to get us together and I felt so uncomfortable..coz i only saw him as a friend and he at one point saw me as something more..then summer holidays arrived where we didn't even contact each other.and when we met each other..things got NASTY!!! I look back and all i can do is honestly smile and laugh..he became cruel to me and if we'd start a teasing match it became worse with him getting all personal..and those times were not good for me..though by ignoring him at first I was probably at fault!!!

 

Well..I ended up ignoring him more..and we were not talking..I mean i was barely seen in his company and vice versa..that's when i really lost a best friend...but then after a while i decided there was no point in continuing this further..so..we didn't talk about it..and haven't talked about it to date..but slowly..we just started talking casually ot each other..and i tried bridgina the distance...and now i can say i have my best friend back..!! And we've gone back to being as tight as we used to be despite him having a girlfriend now as well..which is bonus coz i don't have to wonder whether he's gonna fall for me or not with every step i take..!!

 

I know I might not see him again now that we're all going to different parts of the world for universities..but I know that somewhere I still have a best friend and he'll always remain my first best friend..

 

So i thought of letting go too once..but then I was honestly not ready to lose someone I had once been so close to

 

Instead of telling you that it was a very nice piece of catharsis..I told you my own story..!!! lolxx..

Originally posted by: Aanya_taanu4evr

Yeah...yours is wayyy more different than mine! :D

But it's awesome, that you're talking to him!

Btw, my best guy friend [Dear Guy wala] called me today. We talked for half an hour. Am I being stupid? :P

xoxo

Aanya

Hahaha...depends if you think it's worth then give it everything..that's my opinion..but obviously since i don't know every single thing and detail..i'm not a good person to take advice from..there were times when i thought it was pointless trying to bring back the same friendship again..but now that I have..I'm sooo grateful for that..!!!   Edited by Sanaa629 - 12 years ago

Originally posted by: Sanaa629

Hahaha...depends if you think it's worth then give it everything..that's my opinion..but obviously since i don't know every single thing and detail..i'm not a good person to take advice from..there were times when i thought it was pointless trying to bring back the same friendship again..but now that I have..I'm sooo grateful for that..!!!

 

I'd say let him know how much you tried and then it's up to him to take the steps...if you don't want to...then keep trying..someday he'll realize..!! Hopefully it won't be too late..!! btw..*very curious nosy wants to know everything* are you crushing on him?? or do you just want him as a friend??

Hahahaha..yeah i was just gonna head there..!! LOL!!

I hung on to that thread of friendship which was now full of knots. Because it kept breaking and then getting fixed too many times. Edited by belle_moi - 12 years ago

Aanya, that was simply amazing. 

Originally posted by: belle_moi

I hung on to that thread of friendship which was now full of knots. Because it kept breaking and then getting fixed too many times.

That was one beautiful line Anya. you know, thats how it is. There is always this i-love-you-so-much or we-are-just-bestfriends guy who you like, and you are sure he likes you too. Sometimes there is this silent conversation of eyes, of catching each other looking at each other, or purposely avoiding each other thing. And you dream about your life together, your marriage, your babies, you family and how you would be forever-lovers. But then in six months, before you know it, its suddenly over and all your dreams fly out of the window, or better, are dumped in the stinky garbage heap outside the society. But you have memories to rejoice, and even if you hate the guy, completely abhor him, one day a flash of a memory in which you guys are having fun will blind your eyes, and just when you think I-am-so-over-him, you'll remember his smile, and then smile too. And then start crying. But there is another guy for every another girl. So chill. Maybe its not  a true thing you've written, but it holds true for us all. its about four and i am reading this. Thankyou for writing! It made me feel good. 

Love.

Antara:)

Originally posted by: kajenkashkriya

Aanya, that was simply amazing. 

I'm sure something like this happened in your life, yes? Is that why you posted it here? So that you could vent out your anger? Your hurt? Your emotions?

I think that you did the right thing. :) Not only does this give people a medium to post stories and "midnight musings"(as you call it), but it also lets people express their real feelings without really..."expressing" them.

Let me tell you one thing, reflecting on the letter. That guy...he wasn't worth it. I know you're like..."Yes, Kriya, I know now" or "I think he was". But the truth is that I had something just like that. And over the years, I felt like we were being separated. Nobody's fault, really. But then, it was both of ours. It's just life. And to me, it was both the boys (your's and mines) loss. They lost us. :) But we will find better people than them, unless you already have. :) 

Ok, I'm going to end my bhaashan here, because I am sure you don't want my advice on anything. Sorry, I just felt like sharing that with you. :) Sorry if I hurt any feelings!

~Kri

Aanya!!! 🤗

I know exactly how you feel...something very much similar happened. We're still friends, but I guess it can never be like it used to be. With time and loads of patience, I've just learned that it's better to move on with that thought and cherish the memories that brought a smile on my face.

I know how it is to vent it out to strangers, been there done that 😳 also, try writing journals...it certainly helps alot 😳

I hope you are feeling better now. You wrote this so beautifully and now you've got me thinking about my friend. Though all it's doing is bringing a smile on my face and all those times when we fought and broke off our friendship...it's just like a passing memory now. It doesn't hurt, it just makes me think, What IF. There are so many WHAT IF's in life and we wish knew the answers to those. We all some time or the other have that one special person in our life, knowing them for few months (like in my case) or for yours...it doesn't matter. Life teaches us a lesson everytime, but what you do with that is what counts 😳


Alright now I am waiting for your next OS update 😳

Keep smiling and keep making us smile through your writing <3

hey i think i can comprehend wid ur feelings ... i mean i did go thru sumthing lyk dis or rather can i say dat i am going thru sumthing lyk dis bt its a lil different ... i was a new entry in d scul in lyk 9th grade ... v didn talk at all at dat tym coz v had diff groups ... moreover i thot dat he was a complete casinova n he thot dat i was d miss.attitude ... bt in 10th standard wen i started talkin 2 hid frenz v wr introduced 2 each oder n v found out dat v cud b really gud frenz ... den d usual talkin all day wid him n all started ... though 4m d beginnin i had been a vry reserved person bt i dunnoe y bt i always found it vry easy 2 talk 2 him ... i cud c sumtyms dat he was vry possessive abt me bt i thot dat it was nly coz of our frendship though i wud admit dat i did hv a crush on him ... he used 2 hate it wen i talked 2 his guy-frenz n if i ever wore sumthing dat he didn lyk he used 2 shout at me n tell me dat i shud nvr wear sch kind of dresses ... n den 1 day wen v fought wid each oder 4 d 1st tym he told me wat i meant 2 him n dat he loved me ... i lyked him 4 d person he was n so v got into a relationship ... he was my bestest frend n i knew i cud always tell him evrything ... d 1st few months wr pure bliss bt den he started gettin insecure ... i wudn deny d fact dat i cudn give him mch tym ... he thot dat our relationship was stuck at a point n wasn't movin 4wrd n hence he broke up wid me ... he still wanted 2 remain frenz bt frankly speakin i luvd him a lot n didn hv d courage 2 even c him in his eyes lest i wud break down ... its been 2 yrs nw ... v broke up in d 11th standard ... v still study at d same place bt in diff classes n i leave my class wenever i c him comin ... it hurts ... it hurts a lot ... more so bcoz after d break up i came 2 noe many things abt him dat i nvr knew ... i dnt noe hw will i deal wid all dis bt as on 4 now i hv closed my heart 2 any of sch feelings... my frenz say dat i hv changed n become sumbdy who has a cold heart ... bt i noe how i hv been pretending 2 b sum1 else ... i cry evryni8 rememberin my tym wid him ... n den i ask myself only 1 question: wasn't my love 4 him so strong dat it cud make him wait 4 me ???? i dnt get any answers on dat n i noe i nvr will ... Edited by ksg_ritika - 12 years ago