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Catharsis always helps doesn't it??

WOW!!! i know you were just planning to let go of ur pent up emotions..and so don't need a comment...which is great but i couldn't help but empathize slightly with you...Though My story is wayyy different than urs..I know how it feels when best friends aren't best friends anymore..it hurts..and yes sometime's it's easier to let go..but I didn't.

Actually..with me..I had this amazing best guy firend..and we gelled so well..but he was never someone I looked as anything more..hahahaha..probably coz I was crushing on someone else at that point..and then after that my Armaan obsession got the better of me..!!! LOL!!!

But..yeah..so i always took him as a best friend..and people were trying to set us up together..with all the.. "awwhh..you look cute..he'd be a great boyfriend..bladih bladih blaa.." and I was the stubborn me.. and refused to see him as anything more..and that's when the tension between us started..And it got to a bad stage..!! I couldn't bear talking to him even in a group..whereas..before I'd have no problem sitting with him alone and we'd chat about anything...

I'm not saying I'm perfect..hell no.. I make my mistakes.. but I nearly lost that friendship because of everyone trying to get us together and I felt so uncomfortable..coz i only saw him as a friend and he at one point saw me as something more..then summer holidays arrived where we didn't even contact each other.and when we met each other..things got NASTY!!! I look back and all i can do is honestly smile and laugh..he became cruel to me and if we'd start a teasing match it became worse with him getting all personal..and those times were not good for me..though by ignoring him at first I was probably at fault!!!

Well..I ended up ignoring him more..and we were not talking..I mean i was barely seen in his company and vice versa..that's when i really lost a best friend...but then after a while i decided there was no point in continuing this further..so..we didn't talk about it..and haven't talked about it to date..but slowly..we just started talking casually ot each other..and i tried bridgina the distance...and now i can say i have my best friend back..!! And we've gone back to being as tight as we used to be despite him having a girlfriend now as well..which is bonus coz i don't have to wonder whether he's gonna fall for me or not with every step i take..!!

I know I might not see him again now that we're all going to different parts of the world for universities..but I know that somewhere I still have a best friend and he'll always remain my first best friend..

So i thought of letting go too once..but then I was honestly not ready to lose someone I had once been so close to

Instead of telling you that it was a very nice piece of catharsis..I told you my own story..!!! lolxx..