chapter-10
heer was vry efficient.. evn the "khadus" old caretaker gradually became quite fond of her.. he began to treat her as his own daughter,scolding her wen necessary bt she gave that opportunity quite less... gaurav and heer pretended not to know each other in front of others... gaurav wud keep himself busy all day long in his work... while heer in the kitchen.. bt in the evening..they wud meet somewhere,often in the old,ruined temple and spend some time together... their friendship grew with time.. and gaurav's feelings for heer increased too... bt..he knew in his heart that there cud be nothing in between them... he knew vry well that he cud nvr get her..... and therefore...his feelings of love were accompanied with deep,painfull feelings of separation.... he knew that they had to separate...sometime... someday......
three months passed away.....
gaurav had started to teach heer some mordern techniques of living in the new time... like the uses of advanced technology,dressing up like the other girls, and learning to talk in english... and heer was so efficient and brilliant that her improvement progressed in a lightening speed.....
gaurav's project was almost ready and he had applied for a seat in the royal exhibition in Delhi...held once in three years.. this was the exhibition for wich he had come to India... representor of his company in Sydney... he was 99% sure that his project wud be selected... he had waiting eagerly and anxiously for a reply......and on one fine morning...it came at last.....
he was selected.......
the delight was unimaginable.... throughout his life Gaurav had waited for this chance.... and now it was in the palm of his hand.... he was overjoyed.... he was soo happy that instead of calling heer to his room,he straightaway ran downstairs to her room..... before he cud knock on her door...all of a sudden, a strange feeling came upon him.... he withdrew his hand....and stepped back... sweat appeared on his forehead.....
o god..!!!---gaurav said to himself---iska matlab.....iska matlab mujhe...Ajmer chodke jana padega...? mujhe do din ke andar Delhi jana padega? main kaise....? how cn i leave her? how? i live without her.......? he started to walk back slowly...... tears rolled down his cheeks....all his happiness,enthusiasm,his excitement to fulfil his dream,seemed to wash away with those tiny droplets of water.... the only thot that tortured him was that he wud have to leave heer alone here and go away..... he wud nvr be able to see her agen........ he turned back and closed his eyes... her beautiful face flashed up in his mind..... he knew that he wud nvr be at peace agen......
suddenly,the door behind him opened with a small creak.... gaurav turned back immediately to see Heer standing behind him,calm and quiet...as she had always been.... she was quite surprised to see him there... he had nvr come downstairs to meet her.. generally she wud go to his room......
heer---kya hua..? tum..yahan?
gaurav looked down....and thot for an excuse.....
she asked agen---kya hua..batao...? kuch kam tha?
gaurav----nhi....woh........main.....mujhe.....
heer looked at him carefully and then said---tum pareshan ho? kyun?
gaurav---haan? he forced a smile---areh...nhi....main kyun pareshan rahunga bhala.... woh...mujhe tumhe kuch batana hain.....
heer---kya?
gaurav---woh kya tum kuch der ke liye upar mere kamre mein aa sakti ho?
heer smiled---chalo....and walked passed him slowly..... gaurav kept on standing there..... struggling with his emotions...
heer walked a few steps ahead of him,turned back and saw him standing there still.. she became more surprised and softly called out to him---gaurav...? chale?
gaurav---huh...? haan chalo chalo... he followed her.......
as they reached his room,heer turned to face him--aab batao kya baat hain? aisi kya baat hain jo tumhe itna pareshan kar raha hain?
gaurav---pareshan? nhi to... pareshan kyun karega? ye to ek khush khabari hain....
heer--accha? zara hume bhi to batao.....
gaurav---woh...mera project... Delhi ke exhibition ke liye select ho gaya hain.....
heer's eyes became wide in excitement..... she had seen gaurav work day and night on this project and she had prayed for his success all that while..... she giggled in joy......
heer---hume yakeen nhi ho raha hain ki ye sach mein hua hain......!!!
gaurav murmered---mujhe bhi yakeen nhi ho raha hain...
heer cntinued to babble away---hey bhagwan.... tumhara sapna..... gaurav tumhara sapna pura honewala hain......
gaurav---janta hu.....
Unexpectedly,she cupped his face in her hands and looked into his eyes---gaurav...yeh tumhara sapna tha na? tum hamesha se yehi chahte the..hain na? then slowly her smile faded...---toh...tum...tum khush nhi ho..... tum khush nhi ho??? kyun gaurav?
gaurav moved her hands away frm his face...---tumne thk kaha...main khush nhi hu.....
heer was shocked... she had always felt that if anythng cud make him go out of his mind in happiness then it was this news..... and now... wen his dreams had come true...at last... he was not evn happy abt it? why?
heer---kyun gaurav? tum khush kyun nhi ho...?
he turned away frm her---woh main tumhe nhi bata sakta......
heer---hume nhi bata sakte? gaurav...... she made him turn towards her----kyun? hum kyun nhi jan sakte?
gaurav---kyunki heer.....pata nhi ye janne ke baad tum mere bare mein kya sochogi...isiliye main tumhe nhi bata sakta...... par ye sach hain... main is news se khush nhi hu..... aur main tumhe wajah bhi nhi bata sakta....par main tumse chupana bhi nhi chahta..main tumhe batana chahta hu...ki main....main....main nhi jana chahta... kahin nhi jana chahta... main janta hu ye mumkin nhi hain... par main tumhe chodke kahin nhi jana chahta hoon.....
there,he spurted it out.....all at once......
it was a big blow on her part... she cudnt say anythng......
gaurav caught her by her shoulders and pulled her towards him.... she did nt try to release herself and was trapped in his embrace.....
his voice choked with tears as he said----heer....main tumse pyaar karta hoon.....bht pyaar karta hoon...i love you heer.... i cnt live without you.......i love you........
a single drop of tear escaped her eyelid and rolled down her cheek.....
she sighed......
somehow she managed to release herself after sometime.... gaurav let her go... she looked up at him,her eyes brimming with tears--gaurav hum.......
he put his finger on her lips---sshh...!! tumhe kuch kehne ki zaroorat nhi hain... main janta hu... ki sirf main hi tumse pyaar karta hu...tumne kabhi mujhe us nazar se dekha nhi hain aur mujhe ius baat ka koi gam nhi hain.... kyunki jab bhi tum mere saath hoti thi..main bht khush hota tha.... bht khushi hoti thi mujhe jab main tumhe hasta hua dekhta tha... i love ur smile.... mujhe dukh is baat ka hain ki mujhe tumhe chodke jana padega.. ajnabeeyon ke bich... maine tumse jo vaada kiya tha..woh main nhi nibha paya.... mujhe is baat ka dukh hain heer.... ki main tumhara saath nhi de saka....
heer---tumne hamare liye bht kuch kiya hain.... hume koi shikayat nhi hain tumse...!!!
he smiled and pushed some strands of her hair frm her face...---heer,apna khayal rakhna....aur haan... agr tum chaho to apne bal khule rakh sakti ho...tum khule balo mein bht zyaada khubsurat lagti ho.....
with that he turned and walked away......
heer stood there for sometime...a number of thots circled her mind... she remembered how gaurav had helped her wen she was all alone by herslef in this new world...alone and miserable.. how he had always been with her.... comforting her,supporting her,helping her in almost evrythng......
she wiped away her tears and said to herself---tumne hamare liye bht kuch kiya hain gaurav... aur aab waqt aa gaya hain ki hum bhi tumhare liye kuch kare..... pata nhi hum tumhe khushi de payenge ya nhi...lekin hum koshish zaroor karenge....
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Edited by kasturika_kashu - 13 years ago
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