Hello all!
Most of you must have forgotten me by now, eesh! Nevertheless, I am now to post one of my OSes that I wrote with Abhay's point of view just after his identity was disclosed to Pia.
It's particularly short, writing with an inhumane boy's point of view is difficult you know. 😆 Anyway, honest feedback is heartily welcomed. Do leave in your comments and use Like, if you find it worth. 😳
Pardon the errors, whatsoever. =)
One Shot: Feelings
I did not feel numb. That does mean I could feel, in the sense anything so I won't be erring. I am forbidden to feel, it is against nature but it just always fascinates me. I wish I had the might to go against the nature, though. But it is just a wish, a wish that is about two centuries old.
What am I supposed to do if I have calculated with my inhumane mind that she, who is my great grand daughter's great grand daughter's age with an intrigue beyond my tolerance, cannot afford to be with me? I have known her, two times more than she knows herself and I declare, she does not know what she is demanding.
My brain registered the fury and disgust, and most of all fear that poured out of her eyes that night. She was afraid of me. I understand what must have been on her mind, how she must have felt and what she is going to have to bear with in my presence ' but that one moment gave me a push into the reality. She's just human. How long is her love going to endure?
She eradicated me of her life. I wondered why she feared me, would I ever hurt her? Ever in my life, even if life isn't completely a justifying term? The answer to the former is yes, I think. Having said that, it did not take any long for me to make out what that meant. I could save her from every sinister around, but there is no one I know who can save her from me. Good, she threw me out!
This is funny. I don't remember the last time I laughed but this makes me want to give it a try after all. Post getting in terms with my identity, after knowing all of my past reminiscent of a nightmare playing on her face ' she asks me why I let her fall in love with me. Is she ever going to stop pacifying, even when I am not angry and then, pester me?
True, I am an immortal and she a human being. Truer, I fell in love with her against all norms of nature, not against my will though. Truest, it is neither her nor me to be blamed. I had warned her to stay as far away from me as possible. I was at my adamant and arrogant best. I made one slight mistake, of having to protect her once which was followed be a volley of many more falls and catches, chases and rescues.
This isn't one but many mistakes. I realize that, she reads it on my face. Had I not been always there, she would have only hated me and not hated loving me. But how could I ever let her be in trouble when I could rescue? Isn't it reasonable enough that it is just not in my might to stay away from her, to not help her when she's in trouble? I assume, not.
Having to be capable to live till eternity is thrilling but what would it be when you're alone, right from the beginning to the end which is possibly never to me? I wonder, why I am asking so many questions today. Questions, I have answers of. It is best if she is away from me ' this is the one nine-word answer to all of my questions. I'm afraid, not the solution. Ironically, a vampire has something to be afraid of. This is just getting better and better. Better laugh at the irony than mourning when the least you can do is, try to really feel it!
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