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Hmmmmmmmmmmm...naps that definatly a thought provoking question....and off late i haven't been able to put my thoughts in apt words..i dunno why...maybe am getitng older by d minute..😆😆...but lets see if i can pen my thoughts aptly w r t this one😉
okie before knowing ashi yuvi i too experianced wat u did i mean i never looked into who d characters were i wld just like them coz i wld like dem together onscreen dey wld present a soothing picture and thats abt it....my first huge huge wala love was for prem-nisha aka salman madhrui frm hahk...and i was craaaaaaaazy for dem...mind u i was just ten yrs old den...😆...but my day didn't used to end if i didn't see hahk atleast onceeeee a day...i dunno why i loved dem so much...den i moved on simren-raj..whome i adore till dateeeeee....and since ddlj srk-kajol like became THE couple for me...den i got sucked into the "telly" world...and Anurag-Prerna became THE couple for me..i was regarded as d most craziest kasauti fan in my hostel..i mean my graduaiton hostel not mba one😉...i still remember i use to go reserve a seat for myself in d tv room since 7 pm only kzk used to cme at 8 30😆...and i used to hateeee bajaj so much i guess i primarily liked kzk coz of Anurag i found him very sweet and their love was so strong i mean despite of all d attorcities deir love never died...
den i tried for mba while i was still in 3rd yr of my graduation...mba had been my BIGGEST dream since std 9th..(apart from my all time cherished dream which u know😉)...and u know my parents my whole family used to tell me ki doll keep your feet firmly on d ground dnt dream stuff which u know r imppossible to achive being who u r...dreamin is good but being realistic is also imp..u know daat atleast in dis life u wld never be able to do mba or live alone in hostel and blah...but i never paid heed to them...my desire to do mba grew more and more and even then i knew ki i a dreaming abt doing an mba primarily to prove to d world that damm i too can do ANYTHING....i had already achieved my first stepping stone of success by going to Delhi for my graduation...gosh...now wen i look back at that time..it seriously feels like a dream..i mean i dunno how wat wen happend.....how my parents actually aggreed in d end to let me go to let me atleast try and discover d world myself...and how i actually managed it alll....i was so proude of myself then....an den my next step was getitng into THE best mba coll of d country...but i failed...i failed in my first attempt of mba...and my family was like u needed dis reality check..u can't do this doll u jus can't not co u lack d capability but coz God didn't equip u wid d requistie things needed for this field...i was broken brutally broken...my dream had shattered..i was back home at Jaipur...amnnd i was at d verge of giving it all up..and gng for teaching profession insted...but then Ashi happeneeeeeeeeed
and sicne d day she happend life hadn't been d sameeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....she became my dream saviooooooooooor...my hopeeeeeeeeeeeeee...she brought back all that i believed in...in particualr she reinforced my faith in god and his miraclesssssssss...she again made me belive ki god never lets those people suffer who r on d path of follwing their dreams becoz he takes all their suffering unto his own self...she made me rediscover self faith and confidence...wen i cldnt clear mba even i accepted that i wasn't normal that i was diff inferior frm others and there r smehtings in life which i never wl be able to do that there r certiand reams which i never shld have dared to dream......but ashi changed all thaaaaaaaaaaaat...she gave me back to my own self...i was again feleing the same excitement d same pride in being me which i felt wen i was gng for my grads....once again i was soooooo proude ot be who i ammmmmmmmmmmm....once again i was in commune wid god and was thanking him for making me EXACTTLY d way he made me..i felt so speciallllllllllllll...and since then there wasn't any looking back for me....since then ashi and all her relationships became my way of seeing life love friendship god...Ashi YYuvi became my definition of loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....and i guess i know why coz...for them love was neevr a weakness it was never bindinggggggggggggg for them love was that beautyful thing which wld make dem achieve their dreams...for them love was an inspirationnnnnnn
and after knowing and feeling AY...i started viewing everything else in THEIR perspective...for me to respect a couple dey HAd to have an AY tinge in them coz AY became my mirror of divinity....all other couples had to pass that basic blue print test for me to like them...annd d test pointers included
- Friendship aught to be the purest form of love for the couple in question...and just cz dey fell in love dey wldn't stop being friends
- Love would not overpower their other relations...love wld not demand dem to change teir character their personality the wa dey dressed waked talked d people dey choose to like...love wouuld not Consume dem..infact love would give them strength the freedome to be nothing but Themselves
- And love fo them has o be tumse hiish..."na hai yeh pana na khona hi hai tera na hona jane kyun hona hi hai"
after ay i liked many couples but alll of dem for me had d basic ayishness in dem..be it RM..or d bigining phase of Mayur...and den Sajan..my lvoe for mayur faded away coz i realized all dey had in common wid ay was d "fights" nothing else...but sajan omgggggg..d purity of their friendship alway reminded me of ay d way dey wld even sacrifice their love wala feleings for each other just so as to save their friendship...d way dey had just been there for eachother hamesha hamesha d way dey think abt each other sabse pahle specialy He wen hes in trouble...everything abt them was so dammed ayishhhhhhh...isliye i reallly started respecting them like helllll....infact in their soulmate wala scene i actly LOVED dem...and then there is Geet-Adi...thats the only only couple jinke liye i actually FEEL something from the bottom of my heart yeah dey arn;t AY dey can never be wat AY r...but gooooooooooosh i love dem wid a force j a force wid which i never loved any any other couple apart from ay but am not brining ay in here...dey r somehting that is omnipresent for me...but i looooooooooooooooooove geet adi loonyly and respect dem fiercely and i guess d reason for it is Ay and only AY every moment of theiirs reminds me of AY geet is such a true incarnation of ashiiiiiii...its like she has ashi ka soulllllllllllll in her..and so is their love story...every bit of their lvoe story is filled wid Ay ka fregranceeee....and i even love love RD but thats coz dey r just another form of AY too..i started liking MM too wen i realized how starkly diff dey r from their remix conuterparts ki their love was so not a fairytale saga ki dey were not just mere lovers more than lovers dey were friend dey could laugh ACTUALLY laugh together be silly together..i saw a streak of ay in themmmm...
and then recenly i started lovin two couples from lnmdj...and u know wwhy i ended up rewatching the sho after seeing it first time?....coz i was under this major ay syndrome and everything every single thing made me miss ay i was cravingggggggggggggg for them...so the music background score of lnmdj always reminded me of ay coz it was a guitaar tune and i lvoe love daat tune and i used to watch d show initialy only for that one tune... cooz i cld actually visualize yuvi playing it for herrrrrrrrr...😆😆...and now am searching for those basic AY traits in the two couples am really really liking..😉
to cut my eendless story short...AY r my mirror...i view everything else via that mirror...if anyone or anything even comes close to reflecting the same light which AY has..i wld respect dem like dem uphold dem...but i can't ever worship demmmmmmm coz that feeling i wld just feel for AY..."bluuuuuuuuuuush"
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