Posted: 19 May 2008 at 3:04pm | IP Logged
Saagar looked up, and for a moment, his mouth dropped open. This was the first time he had seen Rhia in casual wear, and she looked equally stunning. Without the business attire, she had a more comforting look about her, which only caused a deeper connection between the two.
Saagar (getting up): There you are (hugs her and then leads her to her seat)
Rhia (settling down): Well, you're here early, how come?
Saagar: I got the job done early. How about you?
Rhia: I really didn't have anything else to do, since someone has forbidden me from work. (saagar grins) So I just gave Ritesh a quick call and by the time I was done, it was time to get ready.
Saagar: That's great! How is he doing?
Rhia: He's doing very well, thanks. Says the interview's tomorrow, and he's really psyched about it.
Saagar: Wow, so big day for all of us tomorrow, eh?
She nodded and sipped her water when Saagar got a sudden call. As he received it, his eyes lit up and he smiled. Rhia realized that call was from Aryan, his little boy. Saagar asked him how everything was going at home in complete detail. Rhia was very impressed by how in synch he was with his family despite being so busy. When he finally hung up, Rhia was staring at him with a wondering smile.
Rhia (shaking her head): How do you do it Saagar?
Saagar: Do what? (puts cell phone away)
Rhia: This! Juggle work with home. Business with kids. How do you handle all this?
Saagar (with a gentle smile): Simple. One is my means of work, and one is my life. When I get my work outta the way, my kids ARE my relaxation. Trust me Rhia, it all works out. You just have to make some time, but when you do, its all worth it.
Rhia: I cant even imagine living that way.
Saagar: No, it looks tough, but it really isn't. Don't let your work get in the way of family Rhia, that's one lesson I always teach everyone. You should really think of kids in the future, they're a blessing.
She shifted uncomfortably in her seat at the topic. Noticing her discomfort and lack of response, Saagar raised a brow and questioned her cautiously.
Saagar: You are planning to have kids, aren't you?
Rhia (uncomfortable): Maybe, we'll see.
That said, she gulped down the rest of her water purposely to seem preoccupied. Saagar didn' catch the hint and pressed on.
Saagar: What's the matter? Rhia, don't tell me you don't want kids.
She sighed and shrugged her shoulders as Saagar stared at her wide eyed. The truth was, Ritesh had always prodded her on that subject, but she always avoided it, claiming that she didn' feel ready to be a mother yet. But as time went by, she began to get the feeling that she never WOULD be ready for motherhood, especially with her busy lifestyle.
Saagar: Oh come on, why?
Rhia: I dunno, k. I just feel that I'm not really the maternal type of woman. Besides, I'm so busy Saagar, that how will I manage kids even if I do have em?
Saagar: That's not an excuse. I do just fine, and I'm a single parent. You at least have Ritesh. And yeah, what about him? Doesn't he want kids?
Rhia (fidgeting with breadsticks): Yes, but I'm just not sure anymore.
Saagar (after a pause): Rhia, excuse the question but are you happy?
Rhia (surprised): What?
Saagar (clearing his throat): Are you happy with Ritesh? With your marriage?
Rhia (stunned): WHAT? What kinda question is this? Ofcourse Im happy. Very happy! Why would you even ask me that?
Saagar (matter of factly): Well, I'm just saying. Sometimes, when a woman refuses to bear a man's child, its coz maybe she doesn' feel that secure with him. Or that she feels her future is uncertain.
Rhia (getting annoyed): That' absurd. Saagar that is the biggest bull I've ever heard. How can you even say that?
Saagar (shrugs his shoulders): Its something I've noticed. I have had so many friends that had this problem to the girl feeling that kids weren't for her. Some of them, when they got divorced, instantly became pregnant with their new partners (snaps finger) like this. And now they're all happy.
Rhia (standing up): I've had enough. How dare you insult my marriage? (coolly) I don't need to discuss this. Thank you for the wonderful lunch. Bye.
Saagar jumped to his feet and grabbed her hand as she tried to walk away.
Saagar: Woah, hold up! Wait wait, Rhia, just calm down, here, just a minute, please? Please! Just sit down, listen to what I'm saying.
He managed to seat her back down and put his hands up.
Saagar: I'm sorry ok, I shouldn't have said that. Ok, I'm sorry!
He kneeled by her and placed his hand on his heart.
Saagar: Truly, I'm sorry Rhia, ok? Listen, maybe my views aren't the most optimistic views you're heard, but that's because my experience with marriage wasn't all that great.
He moved back when he was certain she was calmer, but she still refused to look at him. He sat back down on his seat and proceeded.
Saagar: I don't have high views about commitment. In fact, I guess you can even say I stray away from it. But that doesn't give me any right to impose them on you. I'm sorry. Rhia(calling her name again) Rhia! Look at me please. Damn, I really messed up. Rhia come on yaar, dont let my foolishness ruin our friendship. Look, I admit I was wrong, ok?
She finally looked at him, but bore no expression. She seemed to be judging him.
Saagar: Plz can we just forget this happened?
Rhia (after a long pause): Ok but don't ever say anything like that again.
Saagar (sighs with relief): I wont. I promise. (smiles)
She nodded and both relapsed into an awkward silence. They were both glad when the food finally arrived, and shattered the icy silence between them. By the end of lunch, they had become somewhat normal. But that night, as Rhia slept, she dreamt of her and Ritesh arguing, and a crowd of babies yelling all around them.
Edited by desigal90 - 19 May 2008 at 3:08pm