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I am not very good at this...Infact i wrote this story in less than 1 hr because it was needed for an assignment to be submitted next day....Just thought of sharing with you guys..Please leave your comments , Suggestions ,remarks..
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Standing by the window, he watched the run rays entering the otherwise dark roomā¦.as if trying to defy the darknessā¦.Morning had finally dawnedā¦.at least it seemed soā¦.
There was something special in that morning, something that made him excited, happy and nervousā¦.maybe the warm weatherā¦.maybe the freshness of the morning air or maybe just the fact that he would be released todayā¦.
Yes, he was going to be Free, to go back to his homeā¦.
'Home'ā¦ just a mere thought of his family was enough to bring a smile on his faceā¦if it was possible for anybody to be eager for something and scared of facing it at the same time, he was.." Anu will be happy to see me. I have got over those voices, "he spoke unconsciously as if trying to assure himself ā¦
Five years agoā¦that was when it had all begun. He had lost a job again and plunged himself into drinking. "Why the hell doesn't she understand me? Sitting outside his room, frustrated and angry ..Inside the room, Anita sat on the floor, head on her hands upset at him for not believing her, for losing yet another job, for not sharing his problems with herā¦ They had had another of their huge arguments and this had scared their seven year old terriblyā¦ "But I can handle it myself, "he had shouted and stormed off the room muttering "they are rightā¦You are my enemyā¦Marrying you was my biggest mistake of my life." Anu just sat there shedding silent tears, hating herself for calling him insecure and irresponsible..Her once happy family was breaking up and she could do nothing to save it..
The sudden chirping of a bird on the window sill brought him back to present. But he still couldn't shake off the nostalgia that going down the memory lane had brought him nor the guilt that rose as a lump in his throat. He knew if anybody was to be blamed for turning his heaven into hell, it was he himself.
Four years backā¦..he sat on his knees, pleading to Anu not to leave him.. "what could I do ? I tried to fight those inner voices but I couldn't..They kept repeating that you and Arum will leave me..Nobody wants to be with a loser. I'm sorry .I never meant to hit you." He was sobbing uncontrollably.. Like a small vulnerable child fear and anxiety was evident on his faceā¦ She knew at that moment that she couldn't leave him, no matter what he had doneā¦
****"Schizophrenia,"the doctor told her," that's what he is suffering from.He feels everyone is his enemy and is plotting against him..He still loves you but his mental illness coupled with his frustration is bound to make him violent at times. He needs adequate treatment and your support but I would suggest that you send your son to some relative for the time beingā¦He had heard that no doubt But now he cursed himself for not believing her. A silent tear traced his cheek as he remembered the day he had so mercilessly beaten her.."I deserved to be sent to the rehab, perhaps a lot moreā¦But I promise I will make it up to u.
Clickā¦He heard the door openā¦So that was it..The moment of freedom, of happiness, of new beginings..He wondered if she would be there to meet herā¦.Probably notā¦
His heartbeat was racing uncontrollably as he knocked the door of the apartment he once called home. A mingled feeling of apprehension and anticipation took over himā¦The door opened but he was welcomed by a rather unfamiliar face, an old lady to be precise
"Errrrā¦..Can I meet Anita Sahai???, she still lives here, right??"
"I am really sorry son. She doesn't ..She died about three years ago due to severe internal injuries, a week after her husband was sent to rehabā¦.Poor girl..I had met her once.. She was such a nice woman..deserved much betterā¦.Had a little boy too..But he now lives with her motherā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦.
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She hadnt stopped talking but he could hardly hear herā¦His mind was foggingā¦He had caused the death of the only woman he ever lovedā¦
He was numbā¦Or maybe just couldn't feel anyomore with the burden of guilt, dejection and hopelessness that he feltā¦ Nothing seemed to exist anymoreā¦He crashed on the floorā¦ not even realising when the lady got scared of his reaction and went to call help..
It was more than an hour when he finally came back to his sensesā¦..Everything was over..OR WAS IT???
he could vaguely remember something she had said about Arun..He lived with her mother ā¦.
"Anu, I know I was a terrible husband but I promise to be a good father" ,he promised her for he knew wherever she was she could hear him..HE stood up, his resolve strenthened by the realisation that this was his only way of defeating those inner voices..THE ENEMY WITHIN..
****Schizophrenia, a severe mental illness which has a debilitating effect on the lives of the people who suffer from it. Symptoms- Delusions, hallucinations, bizzare and frequently violent behaviour, social withdrawl etc
..A person with schizophrenia may have difficulty telling the difference between real and unreal experiences, logical and illogical thoughts, or appropriate and inappropriate behavior. Schizophrenia seriously impairs a person's ability to work, go to school, enjoy relationships with others, or take care of oneself.
Although there is no cure for schizophrenia, effective treatment exists that can improve the long-term course of the illness. With many years of treatment and rehabilitation, significant numbers of people with schizophrenia experience partial or full remission of their symptoms.
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