Misery. I was in utter misery for 3 months due to a medical condition. There have been times where I was so so sooo close to committing suicide, the opportunity was always there, one step forward - one pierce with knife that I held... But IDK what stopped me. Parents' love perhaps. I used to research about euthanasia too, lying on my bed.
You know how I feel about it now? It scares me how close to the foolish act I was SO many times. I seriously, do not know what stopped me, whatever it was I am thankful, I cannot even put it into words.
You know, mental "misery", is nothing, NOTHING compared to bodily problems, pains - misery inflicted by bodily problems.
One just has to hang in there, hold on tightly, say to himself that this shall pass - no matter how unbearable the pain, just BELIEVE that time will pass and that you can face anything.
Hard times only teach. One is compelled to grow during hard times. One will find ways to become stronger.
Whatever I say is really no where near to what is experienced - taken during and after these situations.
Now, my faith in everything is just unshakable :)
What I've learnt is, as long as you are breathing - you must live. If you were not capable of handling the miserable situation you are in, you wouldn't be there.