Hi dear Nyna Dear Harshada First of all I am so very sorry for being this much late.
You don't know how guilty I am for delaying so much in replying for this beautiful piece of writing but really could not help it dear.
Past two months went in settling down the messed up things in life and then struggling for recovery from my health issues.
I hope to get forgiven for my delay.
I am upset - because you have said sorry (Which is in absolute contravention of Sunny boy's rule and should be followed with no exceptions.) So please no sorry, no thank you and absolutely no asking for forgiveness for delayed comments. As I just mentioned to Nita above, I am aware of how hectic life gets and the fact that you have not only read but are taking time out to write a comment - that itself is a great reward for me.
I read this today at 5 AM...my sleep got broken as it was raining heavily here.
There was no meaning in getting back to sleep and remembered about this.
And read five chapters [5 to 9] in a go.
Once I started reading, there was no way to stop in middle.
I was kind of lost in this amazingly wonderful world of sweet deals. I feel absolutely great that my story was engrossing enough to make you read it and not miss sleeping (I am a voracious reader and at times have to be threatened with physical violence to make me go to bed when I read a book) so your words have me floating in the clouds I just love the quotes used and the titles given by you in this SS
I missed commenting from 5 th chapter so will give a short reply about all.You loved the quotes - I sort of collect them and simply look for an chance to start quoting them, so as it is my story I simply could not resist
I really like the conversation in between Swaragini.
Ragini's description about how she fell for her 'special friend'[ aka bipul aka laksh]
The way Swara blurted over Ragini for hiding her relationship from her for almost 10 months, it showed her care and love for Ragini.
I am the one who really like Swaragini in serial as well [ though I never liked when Ragini was negative...but I just love these sisters when both are positive...fighting for each other not with each other...protecting each other]
I loved how Ragini was determined if Swasan doesnt approve her BF, she would break all the ties with him because she knew these two would never take any wrong decision for her.
The sisters' bond in the serial was - as I have oft repeated myself - completely butchered. I do not have any sisters, only one brother, but I am sure that the sibling bond is anything but that which the serial portrayed, especially Ragini turning a tad too negative (her molestation charge against Sanskaar was the one that finally killed all my sympathy for her). And Ragini - as she said, Swara and Sanskaar are her family, and after knowing what they went through, decided to take their approval for her love story.
No words to write something for SWASAN moments But that itself says so much Beautfully described Sanskar's confession......I loved how simply and elegantly Sanskar put forward his feelings for Swara, "I CAN NO LONGER IMAGINE MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU"That is Sanskaar - he does have a gift of words and understands exactly what to say, especially when it comes to Swara. I agree that frills and long declarations of love are very thrilling but then something is to be said about those short and sweet speeches which convey the deepest emotions in the least possible words. And then those words do convey everything that Sanskaar feels for and wants from Swara
Loved the way Sanskar held his lady love with his soothing yet loving words when she was too feared to get into that phase again which had been proved as a scary nightmare for her...for which she was still repenting...
You took my heart by writing the philosophy of wabi-sabi
It was so beautiful reading all what you wrote taking that point.
Sanskar was ready to wait no matter how long swara would take to make up her mind Sanskar Maheshwari...name itself is enough to make me fall for him again and again.
As I said above, Sanskaar does have a way with words. And he was well aware of how Swara could feel about love and affections as she had made up her mind that she would never have a chance at that love once again after her fiasco with Lakshya. And when Sanskaar tells her about kinstugi - it must have been so lovely to know that one could be beautiful in spite of past scars - often most of us try to convince others that scars do not matter, that mistakes donot count - but to acknowledge that one could be beautiful with scars - that is indeed true love. And the very assurance that she could be loved in spite of her stupid mistake, was just what she needed.
The point when Swara told Sanskar that Ragini not only adored him but considered him as a big brother and a father figure which she always craved for.Your tale made a special place for Sanskar an ragini bond in my heart.
Ragini and Swara both had a father but not much of one, so Sanskaar did become the elder brother /father figure Ragini always craved for.
Not to miss the hilarious conversation between swasan when he said "Or I am not a man to which I vehemently disagree" I was all by reading that para. Am so glad you liked it, I simply was on a roll and actually love that bit the most in my story
Well I had slight guess about Laksh being Bipul.
I seriously do hate Laksh here for the deeds he had done.
Laksh's revelations made me hate him even more.
He left a girl after igniting rays of hope and expectations in her
The way she stood up for her sister despite of the fact that she loved Laksh.
Well, that was a small attempt from my side to build up some suspense - but then I guess it was not difficult to identify that impulsive and immature person as Lakshya. Ragini, there was no way she could choose Lakshya over Swara.
Chapter 7 made me absolutely adore Swaragini's bond and especially ragini here.
Ragini took a knife for Laksh saying he did not deserve to live after what he had done
he once again took my heart by saying Swaragini might forgive him but he would not.Such a perfect he is as a personWell done Ragini...I love her for this
Ragini - well she was always the more passionate one - so there was no way she could keep calm after all those conflicting emotions that Lakshya caused in her - she knew she loved him and hated herself for that because she knew how much Swara suffered - so she did resort to that attempt. Sanskaar - a cool guy - with a very capable head on his shoulders - he knew that she would regret it the most and that rather than resort to a physical restraint (Which Swara had already done) decided to appeal to her sense of reasoning. It worked, did it not?
Such a lovely swasan moments and described so very beautifully.
The way swara ran into sanskar's arms and broke down in front of him and the way he held her protectively without stopping her, letting her to cry out all what she had inside but at the same time not letting her to lose herself in that process...he stood like a firm support for her
You are so right - it is such small moments that lead to large decisions, when a simple gesture can convey what a thousand words do not. She need to have one last cry and who better a support for her than him? Sanskaar simply holding her and letting her cry - it gave a strong message to Swara - he would always be there for her. Am so glad that you could read into it and get back with such a lovely comment
I am kind of person who likes reading this little little moments.A big hug to you for writing this
Our darling Sanskar, blaming himself and our sweetheart swara, made sure to not let him feel guilty for something he had no role in.
"Wow what a transformation!!! my wet bedraggled kitten seems to have metamorphosed into the bengal tigress that she should be" what a line Nyna Swasan's one more kiss
Swara is a bengal tigress - she just need Sanskaar reminding her of it. And Sanskaar is such a gentleman, so much in love with her, he will take any blame rather than have her feel sorry. But Swara is no less in love with him, how can she let him do that - the kiss - it did stop the need for further words, right?
Wonderfully written Raginis's self realization that she could have done better years before because of which they might had not forced to live the way they had to, her guilt about the way Swara had to live her life in that bakery while she herself went on living the one she wanted to
Ragini - well - every person does have a chance to introspect and make amends, but Swara's selflessness did make it a little difficult for Ragini to make amends, so she does carry a sizeable amount of guilt. Finally Lakshya's truth gives her a chance to come out.
So her karma is coming back to her... Well the one have to repent their deeds here only ...today or tomorrow.
Mrs Das's story was extremely touching and heartbreaking at the same time. Reading this chapter, did clear about the mystery of character Mrs. Das.
The flashback was a revelation of what happened to gadodiya family.Liked Dadi's character here, for thinking it might be her strict behavior her granddaughters left because of.
Sharmishtha believed her daughter's were alive
Finally Mrs Das convienced swaragini to get back to their home with assurance of being their for them always.
It was so beautiful when Swara said she wished Sanskar was there And ragini's statement about the sanskar and mrs das who sort of dragged them back there
Karma - well - it is indeed payback time for Annapurna. As you said, you pay the price for your deeds in this material world itself.