Originally posted by CogitoErgoSum
Had to step out yesterday on some errands, plus teaching kiddo to cycle without training wheels. So my follow up comment got delayed to today.
That is so sweet, today without training wheels and soon she would be doing it without even Momma's help. I am sure you would be feeling both pride and wistful that she is growing up.
So many delicious tidbits in this chapter, I covered quite a few in my earlier comment and putting the others here.
Swara's rather dazed and breathless reaction to Sanskaar's brief and gentle kiss was And the supremely funny, yet romantic moment was, when after their conversation, she tells him she needs time to decide how to go ahead with their relationship; but in the meantime it might be better if he avoids kissing her, as it leaves her feeling incoherent and befuddled! This is like telling Sanskaar she loves him without actually telling him!
Nothing like a dash of humour to cut the bite. She is confused as it is, and Sanskaar's kisses do confuse her further. She is trying to be honest with her confusion.
I knew of the concept of wabi sabi before, but kintsugi was new to me. You have knit these in so well to Swara's situation. Its so very true, that there is beauty in imperfection. Sanskaar's avowal was so sincere, profound and to the point. Very much like the man himself! It was very moving, what he said about Swara's inner strength and beauty shining through in the way she had emerged stronger from her mistakes and heartbreak; the fact that she was all more beautiful because of what she termed broken and shattered, not despite it. Now how can Swara resist this guy? No wonder she shed tears at such a profound, deep love.
I learnt of kintsugi first which led me to the underlying philosophy of wabi-sabi and both are beautiful concepts. And it somehow it is true - we often believe that someone is beautiful despite the scars they carry which in a way undermines their courage and strength for scars indicate battles fought and won. But when you acknowledge their scars then you acknowledge their courage and strength. And how could Swara now resist a person like that?
I really loved the Swara conveyed her insecurities to Sanskaar as well. She admitted that she was gradually falling in love with him, but that she was still afraid of stumbling while she found her way to him. That entire para was so lovely--and when she says that she was afraid, both of loving him and losing him, it was so redolent of what a person in her situation must be feeling. Even the Swara in the serial, must have felt this confusing, volatile mix of emotions, which didn't really get conveyed as poignantly as you have done here.
Often when we have had a bad or bitter experience, we are not too sure of taking up a second chance (which is why we content ourselves saying that life rarely gives second chances, I think we are hesitant to give ourselves a second chance) Swara decides to take up the chance to love again, one step at a time.
And there was the resolute, matter of fact Sanskaar again--calmly assuring her that he would always love her, and wait for her to make up her mind about if, when and how fast she wanted move their relationship forward. And that he was ready always to be her friend, if she decided that was what she wanted; just that she should never ask him to stop loving her. What a steadfast guy...caring, protective, smart and doesn't lose his cool easily. Swara---slay the ghosts of that worthless Bipul Kumar.
I think Swara is over BK, and she is quite in love with Sanskaar, she just has to let herself go a little. And it is my story, maybe I can give her a push
What Sanskaar told her a little earlier in their conversation was lovely as well---about how nothing she had done was really irredeemable. Making a mistake of judgement, and even acting irresponsibly for a time, did not and should not render her ineligible to find love again, to find happiness again.
That was based on a conversation I had with one of my very good friends when my life was at its all time low. She had said, "nothing is irrevocably wrong" and that one sentence at that time gave me the strength I thought I never had. I think it was quite appropriate here considering how Swara refused to believe that she could be forgiven.
Time and distance do heal wounds, and Swara perhaps, was doing an injustice to her family, by not giving them a chance to address and resolve their estrangement. After all, her family might actually react far better than she feared.
I think so too
I already mentioned how much I loved that banter between SwaSan--it was so hilarious and romantic all at once. A very courting-couple like exchange, too! Sanskaar is so much fun in his firmly tongue in cheek, slightly brazen moments. His advances are with a very deft touch, no? They are certainly not too subtle or indirect anymore---he has declared his intent openly after all. But he doesn't cross a line, either...though his teasing is quite flirtatiously suggestive.
Yes, Sanskaar is quite openly flirtatious, he had declared he loves her, she admits she is falling in love and above that goes and tell how affected she is with his kisses. He is convinced he has the green light, okay, slightly amber at this point which is why he does not cross a line.
And after that supremely lovely moment, all sugar and spice and filled with things nice; comes the bitter and salty aftertaste of---Aoow Gaawd, Bipul Kumar alias Lakshya Maheshwari!! Who, somehow, despite all odds, persuaded both Swara and then Ragini to consider him (however briefly in Swara's case), the man of their dreams. Yikes! I only hope he developed a sounder intellect, a stiffer backbone, and a larger heart between his callow and cowardly casting off of Swara, and the time he seems to have developed an affection for Ragini. In RagLak's case, their love (affection?) for each other seems genuine enough...waiting to see what explanation Lakshya has for his past conduct, and how he redeems himself now. Not that it matters to Swara anymore, but Ragini, certainly, would find it difficult to easily forgive the man who caused her beloved sister so much sorrow and tribulations.
BK /LM does not matter to Swara anymore but having him materialise as Ragini's boyfriend was a shocker. She is going to be worried for Ragini and Ragini is ...her reaction coming up in the next chapter Sanskaar had wanted to find Bipul and give him a slap or two na? Or was it a sound kick or two? Well, now he got the chance he never thought he'd actually get! Wonder if he would go through with it? One slap, please, Sunny boy!!
Sunny boy is a man of his word! That is all I can say at this point
Once again, loved it, Nynu. And waiting for the next chapter. Am sure the salty, spicy concoction would be intriguing indeed!
Loads of Love,