Sumo, my Sumo
Notice the emphasis on MY. You are my Sumo. You are my drama queen. You know when I said you could do anything; I didn't quite have this (read: flirting) in mind. That too with that Goglu. What were you thinking ? I told you to stop him..not to flirt with him ! But more on that later. I have other things I need to say first.
I need to say that I am doing this all for you...for you, my Sumo. I told you this before. This is all for you and Nana ji because like I said... agar tumhara haq nahi hota toh mein yeh sab kyu karta. You think I care about your relatives and what they want ? Heck no, those people are selfish down to their last bone. They don't care about your Ma's innocence. They don't care about Tiwari Killa, they just care about money. And honestly, I could less care about them. Had this not been for you, I wouldn't even taken this mission on. I am doing this all for you. Because you are important to me, your happiness is important to me. You matter to me, Sumo. You matter to me...you matter more to me than I can accept. you matter to me in a way no one ever will ! And I need your support. I need your support in this case..and in life. I am asking for your support for this case. Deep down, I wish I could ask for your support for life !
I don't know why I get so reckless, so impulsive around you. I am supposed to be this cool, composed Oxford grad lawyer but with you, without you even trying, we go back in time and I become the Shravan I used to be. The Shravan whose world started with you and ended with you. That's why I think Goglu wasn't entirely wrong today about one thing ! That diabetes Saale (yes, I am still pissed)! He thinks we are in love with each other. He isn't entirely wrong about that. I am afraid that I am just delusional. I keep telling myself I have moved on..that the feelings I had for you aren't there anymore. I think they are.
Why don't you understand why I am acting this way ? Because I am..angry. I am jealous..there, I said it ! I am jealous. I can't believe you said those 3 words to him, even if this was all for a purpose. Those 3 words... I always wanted to hear these words from you but I wanted them to be for me. Those words are mine. I want your love. I want your support. I want you to walk next to me...for a lifetime. Because agar tum saath ho, If you are with me, I can conquer the world !
Your Shravan
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Hola my peeps ! Please be warned that this letter is not my best work. I had a late evening exam and I got home really late so this is a quick scribble. I haven't even read it over. It might not make much sense. And quite frankly, today's episode was a little difficult for me to pen on cause while the latter half on the episode was supposed to funny, there were raw emotions going through Shravan. Today, he showed us a glimpse of the but he used to be..he was angry..he was jealous..his emotions were all real because Sumo still really matters to me. He had his moments of insecurity (thinking that he may not be good enough for Sumo) such as where he checks his appearance based on Sumo's comment. Let us not forget that Sumo has rejected him in the past, I think a part of him hasn't forgotten that.
Thou the episode was kickass fun and like everyone else, I have so much fun watching it.
And yes...my exams are officially over ! So I should have our threads business sorted soon.
Do leave me your thoughts.
Loads of love,
Reya <3
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