The winds blew with all its might.
The waves grew to a monstrous height.
The heart behaving like a toren sheet.
I just knew that you were no more to be seen.
Writing these words Sharon closed her dairy and her eyes automatically gave in with the flow and closed. She fell back to her seat and sighed.
'Ma aap kaho ho' a toddlers voice could be heard.
'Yahi hoon princess' Sharon got up to take the cutest lil child in her embrace.
' mumma' she said as her mom that is Sharon picked her in her arms in with alot of excitement.
'Kya hua princess? Itni kush? Kya hua baby?' Sharon questioned now who had a smile on her face.
'Mumma aaj teacher ne mujhe star diya haath pe for telling A, then then B, then c... Yaaayyy' she said clapping her hands adorably and Sharon to make her even more happy clapped her hands and kissed her forehead saying ' meri beti itni achi baby hai! Mumma loves princess right!'
She said waiting for a hi5. ' right' replied anaya with a harder hi5 and continued ' princess bhi mumma or papa se bahut pyaar karti hai' with a wide smile.
Sharon's face fell with the word 'papa'
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'Nurse nurse! Swayam shekawat kis ward mein hai bolenge please!' Unka accident hua hai or admit kiya hai unhe... Boliye pls boliye' she said shaking the nurse and with a broken voice and tears flowing down her cheeks.
An hour before swayam had called Sharon and said he's left office and will be reaching home soon.
That was the last time she heard his voice.
She was standing in front of the ICU with the gang there for support. Everyone were trying to console her but she wasn't stopping her rivers of tears and loud screams of pain.
'Sharon pls sambhalo apne aapko... Swayam ko kuch nahi hoga... He can't leave us... He can't leave you... Tum pregnant ho... And tumhare baby ke liye it isn't right... '
rey tried consoling her but there was no use. She just wanted run up to swayam hug him, hear his voice and assure herself that he's alright.
The doctor came out of the ICU with bowed down head. She ran up to him and started shouting
' doctor ... Doctor... Swayam teek haina... Usse hosh agaya haina... Mein mil sakti hoon...' She said all this trying to peep into the ICU.
The doctor with almost a faint voice replied ' wo Mrs shekawat... I'm sorry to say... But he's no more...'
He's no more. This echoed in Sharon's ears. Everyone started crying but Sharon stood there numb. Not reacting. A lone tear fell from her eyes. She wiped it and started moving out of the hospital.
This silence wasn't signs of grief but signs of something scary. She walked like an organism with no life process taking place. She walked and walked not knowing where to go.
By now she had reached the main road and was dangerously crossing it without sensing the horrid driving techniques adapted by drivers which could take her life. Rey pulled Sharon back to the side.
The gang reached there running behind her. She couldn't control more. She collapsed on the road and cried till her how much ever her eyes could produce tears from her tear glands.
She screamed out ' I love you swayam, I love you tum mujhe chodke nahi jaa sakte... Nahi ja sakte' looking to the open sky. The gang just stood there allowing her to let it all out. ' nahi rehna mujhe... Agar tum mere saath nahi ho... Then nahi rehna mujhe zinda.. Mein bhi aathi hoon tumhare pass... Mujhe kyun nahi leke gaye aapne saath... Mujhe akela kyun chod diya..'
There was no more breath left in her... She had cried so much.. She started coughing hard..
Simmi hugged her rubbing her back trying to ease down some pain and said ' shh Sharon... Shhh... Aisa mat bolo.. Tumhe zinda rehna.. Apne liye nahi to at least swayam ke liye... Us bacche ke liye jo tum dono ki pyaar ki nishani hai.. Wo bacha jis mein swayam jaise qualities hongi...you have to be strong... You have to live...'
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'Mumma kya hua?' Aap ro kyun rahe... Princess can't see you crying' anaya wiped Sharon's tears with her tender small fingers and broke Sharon's chain of thoughts.
Anaya continued ' mumma papa kaha.. Kab aayenge humse Milne... Wo muhse gussa hai kya? Bolona unko I got a star... chao to mein mein kan pkke mafi man lungi ' telling with her still unclear language as she had just started speaking 3 years ago.
Sharon's heart ached every time anaya asked about swayam. But she was helpless... She hid her sorrow smiled at her daughter kissed her cheeks... And said ' awww... Nahi baby... Papa gussa nahi hai... Wo ma'am pe gaye haina.. Aajayenge... Wapas... Chinta na karo... ' cooing her lovingly.
Anaya flared her hands up and wrapped it around Sharon's neck and said ' I love you mumma'
'I love you too princess' with a peck on her cheeks. And put her down so she could run off to play. Sharon sat back down sighed again, opened her dairy and continued.
'But there was always a sense of security
As I believed your presence was on us for assurity
The waves calmed and the winds softened
Things changed expect for one
My love for you swayam!'
You and I
Sitting in isolation wondering about you.
Making me feel secure with those
intense Gaze's through and through
making me a broken glass
wounds created by the beast in you.
Making me feel like an angel
Tearing apart the devils in the region.
Tiring me with your pleasurable torture's
Reasoning all done only for her
Making me ecstatic with the thought
of your confession
Going crazy with the impact
of acceptance.
Now I'm only a soul
waiting to be caressed
To have the satisfaction
of being loved till the last.
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''Swaron OS''
--By Shiri--
We were on the college tour. We spent one night in the tent. We were the 1st year students so were taken more care, each of us were given single tent. It was nearly 11 pm when i came out of my room. I saw someone sitting outside. I went to him.
"Swayam?"He looked up and smiled at me.
"soi nahi abhi tak?"
"tum yahan kya kar rhe ho?"
"tum sach much nhi janti, ya sirf pretend kar rhi ho?"
Yes, I know, he likes me, from the first day of college.
And i, have a crush on him the very day. And he is here to protect me. Coz he care for me.
"but why are u outside?"
"then where should i be?"
"what do u prefer more? Me, or the mosquitoes?"
He stood up with a confusion.
"andar aa jao"
i went inside saying this and he followed with a smile.
We entered in and i sat in.
"cover it or they will come in"
i said casually.
"who?"
"the mosquitoes!"
He smiled and covered the door screen.
"aao, baitho"
he sat near me and kept admiring. I turned my head but he kept his on my shoulder.
"look at me"
i heard.
I looked at him.
"would u mind me kissing u?"
He said looking straight into my eyes. I was speechless. I didnt know what to say. Then i realised him coming forward. I closed my eyes. I Suddenly felt Something on my fore head.
He had touched my forehead with his lips. Then slowly pressed his lips which automatically made me close my eyes. He then looked at me.
"sharon! Open ur eyes."
i did as i was said. He leaned forward.
"i want u to see it, dont close."
He gently pecked on my lips. Then i realised him making a distance. This time i took the charge. As he was going backward, i dragged his one side collar. He was surprised. I leaned forward. But did the same thing. I gave a small kiss on his lips. This was useful coz he now cupped my face. My hands were now on his chest he kissed me gently. I responded. It started with a soft kiss but soon turned to a passionate one. We were constantly smiling during the kiss. It was the sweetest thing i have ever tasted. It was unexpected, but was my first kiss. Actually, our!
"i love you"
he said after we were finished.
I hugged him as tight as i could and he closed the embrace.
It was not the end, it was our new begining.
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