So rightly said, Twinkle. Yes, Manik is that shadow of Nandini, come what may, will not leave her. And yes, Manik probably does not know the depth of his emotions, as this probably is the first time he ever felt that way- so badly wanting/ needing someone and wanting to be needed the same way, by that person.
Now coming to the idea that did he know whether it was love during Soha's track...and if he did then what was that one thing which triggered him to express that love to her. I like to think about this as a "want" vs "need" notion. See when we're on the verge of losing someone, we realise their true importance... we realise of their needful need.
For Manik...love defined trust...just like love is trust for Nandini too.Manik's trust was hurt on the day at the magistrate's office...but we mustn't forget that Nandini's trust was wounded too during that sacrifice track. But they never stopped trusting each other for a single second. The trust was wounded yes, but it never shattered.
Now when Nandini saw Manik slipping away from her and she feared that Soha may take him away...she was not hesitant at all to run back to him on the night of NYE. SImilarly on the day when Manik saw Nandini walking out not just the college because of her expulsion letter but also his life...he made that announcement in front of the college in the hope that she will stand against him and stand up for her right or even that someone else would stand up to fight for her stay in the college.
Woww, Twinkle. This thought did not cross my mind. I have wondered a lot, watching that episode and even later when replaying it- as to the rationale behind the announcement. See, that is why I like U. U have the great capacity to read and understand MaNan like no one else does.
He probably was expecting something similar happening, like in the past- like a poll by other students to keep her back, or she standing up for herself or someone campaigning for her, like she did for Navya. Now, it makes sense.
His love...his love was there otherwise he would have stopped trusting her...but I can never forget that scene when the next morning after valentines day, he tells Nyonika that "Nandini jhoot nahi bol rahi"...he tells Nyonika that she won only because he let her win.
That struck a chord with me too. It showed us that he still trusts her but its his ego and hurt stopping him.
So then the question was raised why was he being so egoistic...why was he expressing his so called "hatred"? But isn't it true that we only express our anger with the ones we love the most? Wasn't his furstration justified.
Hmmm.. maybe this is where, my thoughts might slightly differ from you. Leaving aside the justification part, I would like to talk more about his ego. I dont think it was his anger, that led him away from Nandini. I think it was his immediate hurt, that led to his ego of Nandini failing him and not trusting him, which in turn moved to anger. It is quite complicated. So, the question now is: given the same situation, 2-3 months down the line, since Soha track, would he still react the same way???
If he wouldn't, then isn't it because of the growth of their relationship to such an extent that ego has no place anywhere between them???
I think this discussion will continue with the next para.
I actually replied to another post on this thread who said how ironic it is that the manik who once said he could never kill anyone, is so loudly claiming how he should have killed pandit yesterday. Manik could and would've killed at that time too if the need had been...we all know that. But the circumstances were different at that time. See it's human tendency to take offense when someone blames you for something you weren't even thinking of doing. We shatter when our loved ones accuse of us doing something that we didn't do. That was Manik's state of mind at that time. Killing soha was never part of his mindset...his plan was only to save Nandini. So when Nandini's words fumbled at the magistrate's office...he was wounded and he shattered. But today the situation is different. His intentions weren't only to save Nandini...his intentions were also to punish pandit. Today if Nandini says to Manik that Manik you nearly killed pandit...he would scream and yell and tell the whole world that "Yes, I should've killed pandit"...and have you realised...that whilst he has muttered the word kill so may times now in the last few days...his realisation that he can kill is still incomplete yet. His love has driven him to such an extent that he sees nothing beyone Nandini's tears, her shocked state, her scarred soul. He is still yet to discover how much his "very very much" is! The day he realises he can kill for Nandini...the day he makes sense of the words he's talking...that may be the day when he comes one step closer to realising jiust how deep his love is for Nandini. But still...he will never be able to define his love for Nandini...she's not just a girl for him...she's ...I don't know how to put it but I think the best way to put it is that she is that breath who can determine whether Manik will be living or dead in the next breath. She is the only reason he lives today...he can kill for her, yes. But if something ever happened to Nandini...no life would remain in him either.
Yes- natural human tendency, to take offence when blamed for no reason. I understand, that was Manik's state of mind then, as agreed- his only intention was to protect Nandini. Today, as you stated, it was being a protector as well as the punisher of the evil.
So, why do the intentions appear different from then to now, when his love has always been true and pure?? I think its because in Soha's case- he did not realise the true nature of Soha till the last minute and he thought he had it under control. But yes, he still wanted to make sure his Nandini is safe, hence the extra precaution of having her before his eyes. Another thing that strikes me is: Nandini did not trust Soha and hence that makes things easier.
Coming to the Pandit, Manik, right from day 1, developed a dislike/hatred for Pandit. Call it an intuition, the natural protective instinct he has for Nandini. To worsen his fear, Nandini completely trusted Pandit and not pay heed to Manik's warnings. Though, she started to doubt occasionally, she did not share those incidents with Manik. Hence Manik considered Pandit as a DANGEROUS PREDATOR. And Manik and Pandit have always been at logger heads. Not only that, its NOT Nandini's life that Pandit was after- he was going to violate her. Manik has been preparing himself to attack/ punish/ expose Pandit, not just that day, but for quite sometime.
So, in my opinion- its NOT just the TIME factor that was so different from Soha Vs Pandit. Its Nandini's state of mind as well. Fortunately she was unconscious in Soha's track, some physical injuries but nothing major. Here, we have a completely broken Nandini, gone into shock and psychologically and emotionally scarred. That another trigger for Manik's out bursts as well.
Yes, I dont think he realises what he has been verbalising about killing someone.
And again- u r so absolutely spot on, he really doesn't know, how "VERY VERY MUCH" he loves Nandini.
I have no idea if all this made sense but it was about MaNan so I just couldn't stop myself from letting my thoughts loose lol
Ok.. wait a minute, now, did I make any sense. Rambled on and on. What is the purpose of this discussion? I forgot.
On the same note as you- its about MaNan and am discussing with who- but, our dear Twinkle. Hence I couldn't stop either.
And thankyou...thankyou once again for leaving me utterly speechless with your beautiful words of praises. The thankyou will never be enough but till I can't find another word, I guess I'll just have to use that word. aha
Thank You too.. for always taking the time and replying back.