Posted: 30 December 2014 at 12:10pm | IP Logged
I dnt how to say this, I dnt knw how to express this, this feeling of emptiness. It hurts me when I see u smiling for sm1 else, I love ur smile bt when its nt for her or bcoz of her. Yeah I m selfish. I m nt d idol dat u think I am or should I say what u were used to thought bcoz now a days u never think bout me. Ur time with me is limited and it kills me every single second that I cnt do anything about it.
I saw ur photo u hd tagged me. U r doing this to torture me and to give me a slow painful death.
U hv forgotten that once upon a time we used to be the world to each other. And nw u hv a whole new world on the other hand I m still picking up d remaining pieces of ur past.
It hurts I wont lie I cnt lie when the truth is so evident. I want to be with. I want to be a witness if I cnt be a part in ur life. yes I m happy being an audience bcoz that way I cn both see u and save myself frm the humilation.
U r nt good for me. I hd knwn this bt my heart didnt listen to me. It just went ahead and exposes itself to u. For u to see that what a mess I m and how much I want sm1 to acept with all its flaws bt maybe I m nt that lucky. Maybe I just hv to accp that we r nt meant to be.
Bt look at d irony after one sec of my decision when I looked bck at d screen of my phone it shows "You hv liked d photo."
Maybe I need more time to move on frm u and nw when I thought bout moving on what u must be doing nw.
I m sry just rambling. Just wanted to write smthng so ..