Okay as we know direction and production value it bit
loose in the show..and in some cases performances too.. but it has
touched our accurate nerve with no doubts. okay,i may sound bit spazzy
at times coz i m way too touched on the self discovery part.
wil talk mostly about self discover scenario of hers. and about her
character,we all know what she is,living in material world with no
connection with Almighty. thinks way too much high about ownself and
thus kinda arrogant towards others. but as i read in the review,i too
feel more than arrogant,she is ignorant,she didn't have the right
Falaq insulting the first suitor - that totally showed
her pride levels. she used to judge people from outside appearance,even
herself too. she telling humza that his love is not as deep as
hers,another example of that.
once she only said acid throwing
is a criminal offense and such men should be hanged and later she only
went on to do it with Tabinda which showed her total downfall,limit of
her blind self esteem or pride. and that was the moment when Almighty
showed he the real face of Tabinda,first time it striked in her mind
that love is maybe not about 'looks'.. that's why Salman chose Tabinda
over her. she feels the slap on her face really hard and has her
breakdown that night,where she asks her mother why she didn't made her
meet Almighty,why she kept her away from that.
and the convo she
had with her mom about men and women. she realizes Salman as the door
which has stopped her way from reaching Almighty. and she didn't just
meant the period when she met Salman,but all her life..coz in her
imagination she had this idea of a dream man of which she makes a
sculpture also. and even Almighty makes her meet that man in real as
well!!! but not the perfect man she desired,still she goes behind
him,knowing somewhere deep down he doesn't even care about her. she just
keep running after something which never cared for her or loved her.
meets nani and asks how come his heart has taken a U turn and nani
tells her it is about Allah's wish. and there she admits she has no
relation with Allah. she forgot Allah.
then comes that scene with
mud.. also that day,she met Rushna and says Allah has shown her her
worth. i guess a lot have been said on this.. it is one good scene.
one of my fab scenes is where she compares her love for Salman and
Allah's love for her..if she would have loved Allah instead of
Salman,the consequences have been something different. this was not
about her fear or she was begging but she realizing the power of love
and what true love is. and none can love us like our God.
child incident which makes her understand where she has been wrong,how
she has been uttelry rude with fellow human being! this time she
welcomes the lil guy but there was also a scene initially where she
shoos away a guy when he came to beg. then she meets a lil guy and read
out the story of Abu Bin Adam. and realizes to reach Allah,u need to
love his every creation first,those who loves allah's creations,allah
too loves them most. she says the lil girl if u wil read it with moral
then u wil memorize it better and also realizes the message for herself
in this. she helps the lil guys family and sees how much pain the family
went through and their struggle to survive which again makes her feel
so low of herself. with these two incidents she realizes how shallow
life she ash been leading till date where she never bothered to look at
or care about such persons.. and then has her breakdown in front of her
mom where she throws her clothes and all. and i loved how she protested
her mom on saying Allah only gives u desire/lust and she shows her the
real lust of material thing which their family has.
comes of Salman's marriage. and she recalls nani's words - Almighty
gives u that much pain which u can bear. next she tells her mom now she
doesn't care if he has re married. here i must say she ahs came out of
that phase where she used to feel possession over Salman coz now she
knows he never belonged to her. shows she has finally stepped out of
that material world. and as she was way too much obsessed with him,so he
had to be scanted away from her. the she recalls nani's words that only
love for Almighty can last forever,any person can ditch u,it can be
anyone,ur parents,ur children,ur beloved anyone,we have seen such cases.
but still after all this,u can go to ur Almighty/god..whose doors are
always open for you.
she goes to nani and sees lil girls reading
Sura fatiha and then next she learns how to do waju. the she realizes
the next level,even if she loves his creations,how can she be blessed if
she has no relation with him.so indulges herself in Allah's prayer.
next nani suggest her to move to Salman.
she goes to Salman and
realizes there is really no place left,maybe time really slipped out of
her hands. then she has a closer look to life of their servant and she
again learns something out of that. as she again got another shock when
she saw Tabinda taking her place completely in Salman's life,again
another lesson was out there for her. when the servant still thanks
god,she kinds gets surprised and asks ho can u still be thankful? and
she learns to appreciate something,it is not compulsory to have material
reasons.if u r thanking Almighty in ONLY during good times,then how
that 'thank' matter anyways? ur thank can only matter if u have the
ability to thank him during hard times too. it is about a habit which
shows the depth of ur belief.
and then she unfold the truth to
nani that she went to threw acid on Tabinda. and she admits that she
really went down. and then the beautiful scene about the dog - which
totally has shaken me. it was way too much deep for me. also loved how
she said i won't beg for Salman.again she sees how much she has wasted
her life behind all those fancy stuff when low class ppl can do it in so
less money but still they have a smile on their face.
she signs divorce papers and next beach scene where she again cribs why
Almighty is still not looking at her? and the lady tells her that
beautiful thing about a mother's love..way too brilliant. then she stars
to run in an open beach and realizes what the vastness of this sea and
sky was trying to show her..the vastness of Almighty's love..u can never
ever measure it.
last epi where she cries on jaynamaz and
says i don't want Salman anymore. i want something else.. but deep down
Almighty knew what she wanted and it was his way to teach her. she
forgives him,nani suggest her that . now many think it was not right
that she forgave him but as i saw in mahira's comment...i too agree with
that and i can feel why Umera said now she sees her old self n Salman.
honestly it is beyond my words to describe how it has affected
me or what it has taught me. all i would like to say is to all of us
Almighty/god is our private thing,every one has different definition of
it. but one thing u shld have in u is to love him unconditionally like
He loves us (as we assume). as i read in that review only a few can get
the zaat and Falaq was one of them,the special and loved child of
Almighty. everyone goes through this journey of finding Almighty/god aka
ur zaat aka ur own soul..some takes ti way too lightly,some gets really
afraid to explore but some of them are really blessed who finds the
real self in midst of all this..and one can only do it when he learns to
love his zaat.his soul aka his rab more than anything! once u can do
it,can detach urself from this material world and relate to ur soul,make
a new world revolving it..u wil be bale to bear any kind of pain comes
in ur way,it won't affect u so deeply that u can harm yourself or others
or so,it wil change something in u and make u a strong person who can
stand anything as she has found his zaat. then u wil discover an ocean
of love,compassion,respect and patience in u ..u wil always have a smile
of satisfaction and learn how u can thank instead of having the extreme
time of ur life. u wil realize if u don't have something doesn't make u
an unhappy person..rather wherever u lose something,that is a chance
given to u to improve urself,to reach a higher level.. this is what
faith does to u when u have no fear working behind it.
PS : pardon any kind of typos or error..can't go through this long essay.
and plz do not get offended at any word of mine..totally have written my POV.