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Srikanth came by again on Sunday... II was startled... she quizzed Amma "DOES HE HAVE NO FRIENDS?" "Inge edukku varaan tiruppi tiruppi, innikki paada maaten, Why does he show up everyday I WILL NOT SING TODAY" Amma and Appa spun it like "His best friend in Delhi is getting married, he is unable to spend time with him, plus he is helping u with ur careeer so why not kanna" She SULKED, for the sake of courtesy went with him to Delhi Haat, two malls... and had coffee at Taj Man Singh It rankled her A LOT... "I hope u guys DONT GET ANY CRAZY IDEAS.. Naan pannikka maaten kalyanam. I will not marry... (she didnt say ANYBODY... Phew!!). Subbu dumped me a year ago Oru varusham kooda aagale, Pongal weekend, he dumped me no? Its two weeks to Pongal Amma... its not even one year" Amma:Dump dump sollaade kanna (DONT SAY dump) II: WHAT DO U SAY THEN Amma? (her tears welled up, NOT AT THE REJECTION, but at the humiliation caused by it... the associated emotional drama, pity sympathy she received from family friends... coworkers luckily did not give a damn) Baldev said "Tu chinta mat kar tere liye maine 4 baniya ladke soch rakhe hain, tu haan kar main aaj raat ko bata karta hoon aunty se" She giggled between tears at the Daily Perk... "chaaron se kar loon?"' Kyon nahi, jab aadmi do biwiyan kar sakte hain to tu kyon nahi? 4 aadmiyon se zyaada kamaati hai Iyer..." HE ALWAYS KNEW HOW TO MAKE HER FEEL GOOD
"Rakhoongi kidhar?" she asked
"Chadar thodi hai... apne apne ghar mein rahenge, you can visit them daily" She rolled on the Daily perk floor laughing
"4 bache socho Baldev"
"Nahi yaar ATLEAST 2 EACH" he laughed
"I can tell u a easier way of getting rid of me, u moron, PREGNANT 8 TIMES?" she had laughed
"Appa please DO NOT GET IDEAS" she said coming back to the present, braiding her hair stiffly Sunday night... really cold look on her face...
a look that could cause snow in Delhi...
Srikanth has not approached nor has anyone from that family... BUT as parents this prospect does excite us, yes... Appa was HONEST like II "Natesam Mama is gold kanna" Appa began "U shud consider urself blessed to be even part of that family IF EVER SOMETHING COMES UP"
A fear snaked up from the pit of her stomach... at the thought of marrying... marrying and moving away...
She wasnt willing to articulate to herself what she would miss but felt intense fear of some sort...
Amma and Appa lied again... "Its nothing kanna... we will not take any decision without telling you first... he was here ONLY TO HELP YOU (LIARS)
You are SO SOCIAL AND SUCH AN EXTROVERT, he spontaneously showed uup today... there was NO MOTIVE
ALL THIS aAFTER sending her horoscope to Srikanth's parents in Vadodra(?)... II was unable to shake an uneasy feeling...
While her parents were secretive for fear of rejection, they couldnt be too honest either with her at this point... she gave Amma a piece of her mind in the kitchen as she wound up for the night... Appa had already gone to bed in fear of her wrath
Amma and Appa would later talk in bed... "If he agrees and things work out she may forgive us, if he doesnt agree,
then this can be a weekend of "Oh a friend stopped by to discuss overseas career prospects for II"
"If he SAYS YES, she will blow up" Amma worried.
"WHY will she blow up... she is not dating any one, we have not rejected her love...
she broke off with Subbu yes... or Subbu did I am sorry but she knows we would think about THIS some day ille? Madhu?
Amma nodded reluctantly "What if NOW was not the right time? Vishwa?" she muttered sadly
"WHAT IF NOW IS the GOOD TIME?" Appa asked... OPTIMISTICALLY CHEERFUL... and upbeat She went to bed Sunday night extremely troubled... she didnt know WHO to expect honesty at home from... Amma or Appa
she had NOTHING to hate about Srikanth either. NOTHING
Not his teeth, he did not burp loud, or pass gas... or pick his nose.. his nails were clipped, his cologne albeit a lil strong was OK ish also
He SHAVED EVERY DAY... BOTH DAYS...
"I HAD NO IDEA I WAS GOING TO SEE YOU" he had said.. "If u knew what wud u have done?" she wanted to ask He didnt allow it he was plundering already... she turned in bed... clutching her churning belly... her toes clenched tightly to somehow
control her express heart beats... she placed a hand over her heart and one over her belly
"Rakshasan" she said softly listened to how it sounded... she had whispered it on his neck... and chest.. and hair.. many many times
Alone in her dark bedroom it didnt sound the same...
WHAT IF Amma Appa are tricking you? she asked herself... there is a good possibility the guy may not be expecting to marry anybody his Periappa chose for him... He probably has a girlfriend in the Bay Area... a Ph D student or something...
II relaxed a lil when that thought occured..
There is a thing called "keeping things in perspective" Accountants do that well.. however much their brains might be fried...
OK fine... will make a Srikanth list she muttered... shaking and uneasy... a Rakshasan list was impossible there was ONE THING ON IT
HE MADE HER GO WEAK
1. Works in USA
2. Lives in the USA
4. Well informed
5. Understands women need a career
6. Very resourceful
7. LOVES TO COOK
8. Does not like crazy out door sports, only watches cricket and American football
9. LOVES HIS PARENTS
10. Shaves every day.. ermm.. doesnt have to..
11. Great for my career
1. DOES NOT TURN ME ON ONE BIT
2. Not 6'3"
3. Does not know French
4. WHY Shave every day?
Work was either dull or she was fighting fires, there was nothing in moderation... to say "they were not seeing eye to eye" would be an understatement.
Totally incompatible professionally, their egos many times NOT allowing them to see reason or logic... Baldev was HER voice of reason
R&B had none...
Just when Gurgaon deployment seemed to be moving forward... they began talking about which auto workshop to deploy it first...
they requested, no demanded additional tests and reports and diagnostics on systems placed there... workshops typically employed 100s more...
financial processes were way more transactional than a showroom, a car costed Rs. 4 lakhs, a new dashboard light switch costed Rs.118...
The volumes were 100 times higher... people in workshops typically less trained, less skilled... they chose Gurgaon due to proximity
To say it was a nightmare would be sensible
They had a workshop in Gurgaon, and in Mehrauli.. not to mention a few strewn around other parts of Delhi...
she quit copying Mr Bansal in a bout of frustration, told Baldev about it, he nodded in approval...
She took her car EVERYDAY... no matter what Amma's emergency was, Amma's car was sold because it was too old,
they hadnt gotten around to getting her a new one... she was car pooling with a Dhaula Kuan teacher when she could or she would take a chartered bus
II felt bad.. Appa did too Appa didnt have to go to work until 10, many mornings Appa would skip his pooja and give Amma a ride, losing an hour in the process.
Monday she again spent most morning warnin, convincing and pleading with Amma
Amma nodded understandingly, like she would do whatever II wanted...
She let Baldev handle the initial face to face meetings at the workshop... and chose the showroom instead... Ashwini was beginning to smile,
they hired a contractor from a Tata company and another one was expected to join soon in the next couple weeks
II started looking at initial deployment reports, the showroom was running two systems parallely, their run down broken down original and the KMPG version
She had audit experience... extensive audit experience so this was heaven for her
She carried his note in her purse... she looked at it when no one was around, examined the hand writing...
he had struck off one word and rew written it... CHOPPY FRENCH SPEAKING SKILLS
Rakshasan... just like everything about work... JUST COCKY
Sometimes HOW he wrote mattered to her, MOSTLY WHAT he wrote...
A Giddy teenager II?
Amma Appa have no clue.. here you are... receving notes in the study from some randome Punjabi Dude
On the personal front She was restless and unfocussed until...Thursdayish she went to Crosswords... next door to Daily Perk on the 5th and bought a book
"Everything Learning French: Speak, Write, and Understand Basic French in No Time!" by Bruce Sallee & David Hebert
Had it wrapped and sent to a certain someone on the 20th...
Friday morning, a package awaited AT HER DESK
She decided it must have been CDs she ordered from Flipkart, opened it with a smile
It was a book
The Power of a Positive No : How to Say No and Still Get to Yes
by William Ury