I wont ask you about your present life raman
..and you don't probe into mine...we promised that to each other...and we wont ever cross each others paths after today...but since fate decided to give us this evening...just for today can we give in to what our hearts want?? I cant take this torment anymore raman...for me ...and then we go back to our worlds...
Raman felt like time had stopped for him...she was really in his arms...closer than she had ever been...how he wanted to tell herv that he loved her morev than anything in this universe..and how she made his heart race the way no one ever had done. .
And then he heard her...he thought it was him dreaming again...did she really want him...just want him?...as a lover...nothing more. ..is that what she was asking? ?
The need:
He felt a weird anger rising within him...is that what she thought of him...but he would give her what she wanted...he resolved...
What was he feeling.?.anger at her audacity..after all he had done for her.?..anger he wasnt the first to ask for this. ?..anger it had to be like this. ?..and not all the places he had imagined confessing and making love to her...he didnt know. ..but now he couldn't care less...he was boiling within...and he had to end it too...as much as she wanted it to end...
He jerked her back roughly..and looked straight into her eyes...she was still waiting for an answer...
Without waiting to hear anything more from her.or bothering to give her an answer...he turned holding her wrist tightly...and walked ahead...into the hotel...
Raman she said...what?
.are.. .you...she stammered...
..what is your room no?...he asked dragging her into the lift...
Ishita didn't know what came over her...the nights staying awake...longing. ..the dull ache in the heartv that refused to go...and a weird emptiness deep within. ...in his arms she felt safe ..so safe she just couldn't let go..so she said the first thing that came to her mind...no her heart. ..she wanted him...she ishita iyer..the woman brought up with kilos of virtues n traditions...just wanted this man ..her husband. .no her lover. ..to make love to her and get it over with. ..yes she had said it...there was no going back. .
When he pulled her back..she thought he was going to slap her...her raman...she knew he would have never expected her to say this. ..
But the very next moment he had dragged her into the lobby of her hotel into the lift...her heart n mind could no longer keep pace. ...and she felt a weird sensation deep in her gut...was it fear...was it anticipation. ..was it something else...she didn't know...
She held her breath tight ...she had asked for this... she told herself..as raman swiped her room open and dragged her in...slamming the door shut with his foot...his grip still tight on her wrist...
He turned her round with her wrist still clenched in his hand ..making her wince with the sheer force of his action...
The surrender:
She fell back towards the dresser..her free hand holding the dresser for support..
He paused for a moment ...using his free hand..to move a strand of wet hair sticking to her face...she saw his eyes ...a fleeting look of affection in them...and then something darker took over..and she was slammed against the dresser ..toppling everything on it as his lips crushed hers...there was just possession ...just raw desire...a desire that mirrored her own she thought. .as her mind blanked with the feel of his lips n tongue demanding entry into her mouth. ...
He had taken one look at her face. ..her beautiful face...oh how much he loved her...but she had just thought this was what she wanted to remember their relationship as...that strand of her hair...it made her look lovelier than she already was ...he moved his finger pushing it away...but then didn't she want just this. ...them...two bodies...two people who had held their desires captive so long...god how much he wanted her too...he clenched her wet hair and with a jerk kissed her...
Her soft lips and those lingering rain drops. ..he knew he had to go slow...but his anger and all those sleepless nights thinking of this moment were driving him over the brink...he deepened the kiss with a vengeance...he felt her struggling to keep up...moving her hands through his hair..to try breathe. ..but ..he had to have her...you asked for it ishita he thought. ...
Ishita was not shocked by his pace n insolence...she always knew her raavan kumar would be a passionate lover...in fact she had replayed this scene in her dreams so many times. ..but the fierceness...caught her off guard...she caught her breath and tried to keep pace...his tongue ..his teeth...his lips...all ...her mind had numbed...she wasnt going to compete she told herself...she would let him have his way. ..
He felt her relax and breathe in ...moaning.. with his assault..
.he felt a stirring within him..he hadnt felt in years...why hadn't he claimed her earlier he lamented. ..
His hands moved to her wet saree. ..pulling it off her shoulder and out of his way...as his hands moved all over her wet back...his lips still not leaving her...
With a quick movement he unhooked her blouse and paused for a moment his head on her shoulder n his lips grazing her collar bone...
He then felt it...her fingers...as she ran then through his hair...kneading them..down to his neck ..n down to his back...his jkr was a quick learner he thought amused...
Ishita felt his hands linger on her back ...unhooking her blouse. .then her underclothes...her breath hitched...his touch nywer on her body would drive her crazy...but the thought of his hands over the most intimate parts of her..made her brain shut down...
But she wanted him...to be the only one to know her this well..this intimately. ...to own her like no one could. ...she was going to give him this right she thought. ...as she ran her fingers through his hair ..n down his shoulders n back...oh how she had always wanted to do this. ..she thought ...n smiled to herself
The culmination:
He couldn't wait any longer...it was killing him...the sweet torture her fingers were doing to him...a side of his mind knew this was it...but he wanted to desperately hold onto this moment...hold onto the night. ..and hold onto her...
He felt her run her lips over the back of his neck ...he couldn't take it anymore...he pulled her off the dresser ...lifting her up and putting her down on the bed...
He bent down ..next to her knee ...tumhe yahi chahiye thaa na ishita. ..he asked...his voice unrecognisable. ...ishita looked at him ...surprised at that question and his tone...but he wasnt really looking for an answer. ..
She felt herself being pushed back on the soft pillows..as his hands moved all over her...moving her wet clothes aside...
She shut her eyes trying to register every touch of his...on her bare body. ..this is the only time...the last time...her mind told her...
His need had overtaken his thought now...he wanted to make her his own. ...mark her forever. .nobody could take that away from him. ..this memory. .
He ripped off the last remaining wet clothes of her body and then his own...he pulled back n watched her...arms thrown above her when he had pushed her down...the most beautiful sight he had ever seen...
He loved her...whether he got to ever tell her that or no ...he would express that too her today ...he told himself...pulling her close...his lips now tender and affectionately moving all over her...her neck...her shoulders. ..her breasts...he felt her stiffen n moan ...and her fingers held onto his sholders ...digging into his back...
He moved down her navel alternating between licking n kissing herv sensitive spots...
He reached her core n felt her stiffen ...relax darling ...he said..his voice husky...sending shivers down her aroused body...yes...I will try. ..she said breathless...
His jkr was now totally in his control he knew...he smirked. ...powerless. ..resigned to him and only him...
He lowered himself over her ...careful not to transfer his entire weight on her...and with his hand protectively around her head he kissed her..on her forehead...and then slowly..and punishingly on her lips...while with a slow thrust he entered her...
He felt her shudder n then gasp aloud...and he moved ...while running his hands over her heated. .burning body. ..and his lips still kissing n reassuring her...
His thrusts increased speed as his passion took over...he had made love many times before...but this was different. ..he loved her...and he was losing her...but he wanted her to be part of hin forever..and her to be part of his...with a burst of final spent energy
.he felt his mind and heart explode...is this the ultimate happiness he thought? ?...as he collapsed over her...drenched in sweat...
Fulfilment:
Ishita was not naive. ..at least she thought. ..she had her share of mills n boons...her steamy romance novels tucked away to be read when amma was not watching her...and she had imagined every scenario in her lonely months... About how he would make love to her... would he be rough .. Would he be too gentle. ...and the fact b that she knew it may never happen..just made her fantasies wilder...
But nothing ...just nothing ...had prepared her for what she had just experienced. ...the feelings her body. ..her heart her mind gave...as she felt him inside her...the weird sense of ownership she felt when he moaned out her name as he shuddered and came...and his trembling body over her as she realized what pleasure she could give him...her love for him expressed in the way she never thought possible...
She felt something amazing inside her.. a kind of happiness she never knew before...yes the kind she saw on that girls face in the park...that of fulfilment...
She felt his breathing even out as he rolled over her...pulling the duvet over both of them...she turned to look into his eyes...and she got all her answers... she saw only love. ..and the purest form...
Are you okay ishu...he asked...
Raman ...I love hearing you call me ishu... do you know that ... she said...
He felt tears welling up as he pulled her close...
Why did u let me go raman ... she asked... I am a stubborn idiot...but you could have held me back. .. You are more stubborn than I am you know. ..she smiled..
I can never see you hurt ishu.. and I can't see you in pain...I just want to see you happy ...and your happiness is in staying away from me. ..he said ..not meeting her eyes. ..
Raman...look at me..have I ever looked happier? ?..she asked. ..
She was right he thought. .his jkr...was his finally..and had he been happier ever in his life? He thought. ...
He smiled...at her...and she got her answer...they had both been idiots trying to buy each other happiness whereas their true worth was right here...in each others arms..
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