Dear humsafar,
I read you.
You cannot be tied down.
You are as much of a free spirit as your careless tresses that refuse to be disciplined.
You are the light to the darkness in me.If you could rewrite my destiny...
It has only been a short while since you joined me in this journey; if we could be together in this voyage of life...
Am I right? Am I wrong? It is a constant tussle in my mind...My past is my teacher.
...If only I could live without a care for the world and its judgement of me...
It is true.
My every breath whispers your name...Every smile of yours lights me up.
But this is a secret I carry. Let not the world or EVEN YOU know how you affect me.
If my steps are lighter, my face is brighter...let it not be known it is because of you.
I am scared to wish.
So I will just say this- It'd be good...if this journey of ours... could continue on...
Is it too much I ask for?
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Decoding:
1. Yeh zulf agar khul ke bikhar jaaye toh achha hai...
He wants to be set free.
2. Is raat ki taqdeer sanwar jaaye toh achha hai...
...he wishes the darkness ended...
3. Jis tarah se thodi si tere saath kati hai...
Baaki bhi is tarah guzar jaaye to achha hai...
He has found someone...his humsafar.
4. Duniya ki nigaahon mein bhala kya hai bura
kya
Yeh bojh agar dil se utar jaaye toh achha hai..
He changes not.
5. Waise to tum hi ne mujhe barbaad kiya
hai
Ilzaam kisi aur ke sar aaye to achha hai...
Of course..He is devastated.. He didn't see this coming.
Wants to keep this secret to himself...😳
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What I found striking about this monologue was Sahir's expression in the end.There is a sense of peace that contradicts the beginning of the monologue. In fact, by the end he is not the Sahir we know now- brooding, suspicious, untrusting...
It really feels like someone has taken the weight off his shoulders.
He continues to live in his own space.
He appreciates his Humsafar; at the same time, he is not willing to change WHO HE IS.
He simply states that it'd be good if life could flow on like this...
He thinks this is the end he wants- A CONSTANT...
He has no demands, and cannot imagine Arzoo needing anything more from him.
When will this complacency change to passion...possessiveness...a sense of responsibility?😳