VALENTINE
In this Valentine...I am thinking...
About my feeling.
What makes me so mad...
That I did so bad.
With her...
Its Valentine...
When people make promises...
To keep their Love happy and safe.
But what I did, that just make her hurt and unsafe??
From me!!
How I become that Man,
Who is so much hated by me.
I hope you will forgive me, though ...
That is excessive for me.
Tears pricked from her tiny beautiful black eyes. She had read the poem N-th time from now. When in Meredith's chamber the whole revelation took place, he was very silent. That was so unnatural to him. He neither questioned her about anything nor looked at her for once. Just when Derek brought the report and explain the thing he just threw the paper tearing from the slip pad where he was writing. He was writing this...for himself. He was loathing and hating himself for this. For loved her. Really she didn't deserve anything from him. She angrily swiped the brine away from her cheeks and noticed she almost reached. But before she could cross the road someone tugged her hand backward and she looked startled.
Reasons!
"Pain...snatches many things from one as well gives many things to one. What she/he can get or can't get that can't be foretold.
I am carrying your part within me.
But it is unexpected and uninvited by me.
If it will be girl...she has to suffer what I am suffering.
If it will be boy...he has to be like you what I won't wish.
So I have decided to kill it in its very early stage...
Oh God please forgive me for this sin .
Because suicide is ,in your view the biggest sin.
I too need to love someone and be loved by someone,
I too need to care for someone and be cared by someone,
I too need to respect and trust someone and be respected and trusted by someone.
But what I get is hatred?
I don't hate and want to hate any more.
And I don't want to be hated any more."
He crushed the page of the note pad in his fist. His teeth bit his lip hard and his jawline suddenly became rigid. He stormed out from the room.
She was pondering about the last few weeks. She was sitting on a bench in the park. The children were playing around her. People were enjoying the lovely evening around her. Some children were sprinkling water from the fountain which was placed in the middle of the park. Some old aged people were sitting at the benches at the sidewalk and beneath the tall, big trees and chatting with each other. But she had no interest in these activities. Normally she greeted the old aged people with her warm and radiating smile, was always ready to play with children. But her present condition had just made her numb. She couldn't relate herself with any worldly feelings and stuffs. She closed her eyes and the incident had flashed upon her eyes...
When she opened her eyes she couldn't understand what was the time? Her head was paining so hard that it may be blown out any time. She felt weak and her all over body was paining, was soaring at some places where she hadn't imagined or even expected. She tried hard to get up from the bed...but couldn't gather the necessary energy to lift her body. She fell back on her pillow. She breathed faster and longer and tried again. This time she finally managed to go on her feet but tripped and fell on the center table. The sound of the bumping rose louder and invited him into the room hurriedly.
"What happened? Apu are you alright??" He cautiously asked.
"Nothing. It's nothing, Neelabjo." She answered him in awfully cold way. Seeing her, this distant with him he didn't ask her again. As she staggered to the en-suite bath slowly without saying another word he kept looking at her in confusion and concern.
After 2hrs later she was with her Doctor who is eventually her friend and Neel's friend Derek's wife, Meredith.
"Please Mer don't lie. Tell me what you are suspecting..."Aparna asked Meredith.
"But Aps before I tell I have to know something about you and him. Doesn't you two are in love with each other??" Meredith asked confusingly.
"Ah...Mer can we talk about this later please." She told irritatingly, "Please tell what have you found after examining me??" She asked cautiously.
"Well...ah...I found that you two ..." Meredith stopped and frowned for a moment as she had thought what to and how to tell everything to Aparna. Then she coughed once to clear her voice and with all her Medical Professionalism and Doctor like attitude she told, "As per my examination...you and Neel was physically intimating extremely. The bruises on your body and other marks on your intimate parts along with other signs indicate that you two had inter-coursed repeatedly from past few days. In short you two have ..." she didn't finish her sentence but stared at her intensely. After studying her for a minute she said, "I don't understand Aps. Please, now you have to tell me what are you hiding from me? Please I am your best friend..." Meredith's last sentence conveyed her care and concern for Aparna which melted her icy-shield. She cried badly and said, "Yes you are right. He forced himself on me...he...he raped me...from past few days I was raped by him and that was too without my knowledge..." she broke down completely. Meredith readily got up from her chair and held her tightly.
"Don't worry. I took your blood and serum for examination. Report will come by from tomorrow evening. Then we go to the police." She said determinedly.
"No..." she forbade, "We can't go to police. He is now my husband. And NO...DON'T THINK THAT I WON'T GO TO THE POLICE AS HE IS MY HUSBAND AND I AM A TYPICAL LOYAL WIFE", she shouted. "I don't want to go because people won't believe that a husband could rape his wife. And they will question me why I don't inform them before marriage? And it's true before marriage I have had enough time to inform my family, police and his Aunt. I could easily call them when I was alone in the dressing room at the church or in the Hotel room when we just checked in. He was out for a while. I have had my cell and land phone both. But this was my fault to not to inform anyone. Actually I believed his words that he would not force me to consummate our marriage. I was betrayed." She iterated bitterly.
"But if you let him go he won't get his punishment. He will hurt people again." Meredith tried to convince her.
"I want to confront him first. And Mer if I know him well he will not harm anyone not any other girl. He had gotten what he wanted." She uttered with a rigid face.
Meredith observed her thoroughly and told, "Well I am expecting the drug traces in your blood and urine too. After I get the report I can find out by using which drug he was succeeded to make you completely unconscious for more than two days. Because..."she didn't finish and rose from her chair and came over to Aparna.
"Thank you Meredith. You really do everything for me. I don't know how to pay you..." Aparna expressed her gratitude. Meredith hugged her tightly and whispered, "Please don't do anything wrong and stupid. And if you want to go to the police I will be with you always." She told.
"No...if he did this to me HE WILL BE PUNISHED BY ME. ONLY BY ME,BUT NO ONE ELSE." She said. Meredith looked at her. Her jawline became rigid, her cheeks reddened and her eyes were burning in immense fire of hatred. Meredith couldn't utter a word but looked at her shockingly. She never had seen her so angry and her anger was coming from her hatred. She got scared. Because she knew her best friend, Aparna believed in Love not in Hatred. If she hated someone that bad, whom she had assumed he might be her Mr. Right...then this is the scariest nightmare she would ever have.
"A P A R N A" Neel shouted at her which broke her thought process. She looked at him reluctantly. He rushed to her, grabbed her wrist and pulled her up.
"I have some important discussions with you. Can you come with me?" Neel controlled himself seeing enthusiastic eyes of the park people. "We need to talk, shall we??" he asked her again keeping his voice normal and gestured to return.
Aparna noticed him thoroughly and replied, "Yes Neelabjo. Even I do need to talk with you. And I was waiting for you here."
"But I need a quiet place..." Neel was interrupted as she said, "I know. Okay let's go back to the house." She started walking indifferently without looking at him or asking his permission.
Edited by mmroyalkaterick - 9 years ago