Joined: 27 March 2012
Joined: 27 March 2012
A Confession ...
"Fear can only grow in darkness.Once you face fear with light,you win."
Arnav who delved in the darkness after losing the light of his life , His mother , has been shown the ray of light again by the fear of losing the only light of his life , His Khushi...Today ,the moon which has the power of holding all the craters of darkness by getting light from the Sun is illuminating proudly under the visage of this Sun by marking him as hers through his confession...
The fear of losing love made him hate Love and made him hurt the only one who introduced him with this soft petal of touching feeling, murmuring his heart to see the light in the darkness, to beat in rhythm with someone whose heart only beats for him"Har bar"...[Always..]
Today again in the captivity, the fear of distance form his loved one made him leaping through this darkness to embrace the path of light full of Love and endearment.His mind is compelling to take care of his two important people in his life ,Di and Khushi..."Di aur...Khushi ka khyaal rakhna" - [Take care of Di and Khushi...]
Yes he hates her but dying thousand times saying this one sentence...Her tears which makes him halt as always , the pearls which he broke but he's been tying those priceless, soft,and pure nuggets in a thread of care , affection and in his ajeeb Love... Her heart finally recognized it with his one word...her name from his mouth,..."Khushi!!!" ..That's all she wanted...hear her name from his mouth for which she was calling him over and over on the phone, running after on the airport but he didn't utter her name to give her solace, a healing bam on her wounds which he gave her and he knows that... "Khushi"... and she cries her heart out over his shoulder by holding the phone imaging him with both hands just like always...getting strength from him and transferring strength in him...Yes he the one who hates her , he who gives her tears, but he is the one who always hurt himself in return for giving those tears "kyuon karta hoon main aisa..har bar uss ki ankhon main ansoo..."[Why I became a reason of her tears, why do I do that???]- ...Yet he is the one who can sense her tears over his heart without her saying a word... He can sense her miles away because you can realize that when you know what you are to the other person... Khushi Rona band karo..."I am fine"...yes he hates her and wants to snatch himself away from her but his part knows that she can sense and feels his pain miles away as he is part of her too... he knows she'll be worried for him...Bas...STOP!!!
The pain in him...The pain in her...the pain which they both feel for each other makes them to submits their souls to each other ...His breaking of words,"Khushi main..." ... His stammering words ,holding her tight , getting strength from her and and relinquishing himself over the moment by conceding and admitting without hesitation. "Khushi...I love you... " without caring of Truths and Lies of Shyam or anything...just taking enough strength from her and transferring enough to her to come out of this shell of fear...to come out of this mask of denial...to come out of this darkness by spreading light around her ...Today he broke the cocoon of fear by stepping out of this shell... by cocooning her in his safe harbor of Love which is always her safe heaven...
"I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out."~~Roy Croft~~
His dwindling hope of losing her in his fear makes him finally confess his state of mind without caring the truth of Shyam.It is only his belief , trust and love makes him say those words for which he did turn to go back to Khushi on Airport as he never needed evidence to confess the Love , he just needed to be needed by her..."Baat aapki hai...fadak padta hai..." to "Khushi ,I love you..."
Barun and Sanaya you just nailed it...Both are stupendous in this scene...!!!
A journey to Confession...
Joined: 27 March 2012
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~~A Circle of Eternity~~
Continue from "A Connection of Heart to Soul"
Emergence of a woman through these words is shaping up a new storm behind this temporarily calmness of the surroundings .The brewing up anger in her is settling into deep concerns, concerns are raving up into realizations and that turns hopes up with rebellious desires "to be with him" no matter what , "to claim him as hers" no matter what ...indeed "ek din nafrat bhi sharma jati hai ...agar ek mauqa diya jaye..."..[Hate gets defeated in front of love eventually]...
She is entering the temple where he broke her fast on Teej .Her each step is closer to that eternal touch of his by sipping the "Abe Hayat" which he gave her couple of months ago but she scolds at him for that "Why did you give me that ... you broke my fast", yes broken fast "mujhe nahi pata tha keh tumhara...tum behosh ho rahi theen.."[ u were getting fainted..I didn't know you are fastening]...He never knew about Her getting trapped into Shyam's games but he still saved her from all the dizziness of this whole game under DeviMaiya's supervision...He offered her eternal life with him and that's what he's been offering her all along either in hate or love and today she understood that by embracing each step towards it.
She is standing in front of Lord Shiv not Devi Maiya and praying for her Arnavji's welfare as his wife... aap bas unka khyal rakhein aur haan unn se kahiyega jaldi wapas aa jayain"...[ Just take care of him and please tell him to come back soon]
Shiv,The Lord of "mercy and repentance" ...as She is repenting for all of her actions today .Lord Shiv also has the power vanquishing evil and she is gathering that from Lord Shiv to vanquish Shyam's evil plot as their positions [Khushi is in between Shyam and Anjali]...while standing in front of Shiv is ringing those bells. "aap hamein chodiye...hum apni mushkile khud suljha lenge...aur haan "humne apni dil ki baat aapke saamne rakhi,yeh baat aap Devi Maiyya se mat kahiyega". [ I can take care of myself..Don't tell DeviMaiya that I opened up in front of you]...Last time she declared to Devimaiya that she won't speak to her and doesn't have any intension to stay here but today she is here for her husband...her Arnavji...She has done every ritual under Devi Maiya's supervision and today she is completing the circle with Lord Shiv with her pure , innocent and eternal acceptance of her Love for Arnavji..."Apne pati keh liye..jin se hum bohat pyar karte hain.." and She will declare these words to the Evil later.
Khushi is asking strength for him , so he can fight with all the demons within and around him. Here comes Anjali's words with Arnav in front of the mirror..."tum khud bhi nahi jante keh tumhain Khushiji ka kitna Khiyal hai..." and that made him realize to say "I love you.." because he just does and doesn't want any reason to do so...For Khushi here comes Naniji's words ..."hamre chotey hai na agar woh kisi se pyaar karte hain aur unke liye kuch nahi kar sakte to khudhi ko sazaa dene lag jate hain"...
Today the soothing sound of spreading pearls make her understand the true meaning of Arnav's pearled oceanic Love which is way deeper than anything...Which was always around her to sooth her from every storm and today she is feeling alone walking , facing the heat of it but his Love is her strength and that will light her path to find all the treasures of their moments to go through this darkness till she finds him..."hum ne aapko dhoond hi liya" ...till then he will be his guardian angel of strength..."aap hi hamari taqat thai..." [u were my strength] ...Yes she has unlocked the real meaning of Love of the man who is everything for her since from the beginning and today she wants to claim him...to embrace him..the way he is ..
Kuch rishtey ajeeb hi Dor mein bandhey hotey hain
Takraar se shuru hote hain...Nafrat ke saaye mein panapte hain
Girte hain...padte hain...par Kaayam rahte hain
Nafrat badhti jaati hai...aur Rishtey ki gaanth aur gehri hoti jaati hai
Itni ki ek din Nafrat bhi aur badhne se sharma jaati hai
Aur woh rishta sirf ek bandhan bankar reh jaata hai,lekin sirf Nafrat waala
Kabhi kabhi aisa lagta hai...Nafrat ke us maahaul mein kuch to hai
Jo humse kehta hai -
is unsuni,anjaane se,ankahe se rishtey ko ek mauka to do
Par jis rishtey ki neev hi Nafrat pe rakhi gayi ho -
Uss sey kuch bhi ummeed lagaana naadani nahi to aur kya hoga
Aur shaayad yeh naadani hum kar baithe hain
warna kyun itni nafrat ke baawjood hamein aapki yaad aa rahi hai
Kyun hum aapse ladte hain,jhagarte hain...laikin aapke jaane ke baad
Aapki hi ki raah dekhte hain, hawaon se aapki baatein karte hain...
Khushi's each line is enveloped in layers and layers of pain, yearning, forlorn and discontent but right from her Heart dipped in pure Love... which is bleeding for him only..Yes This is a merger phase from "Hate to Love"..."Main tum se nafrat kar hi nahi paya...hum ne kitni koshish ki aapse pyar na karne ke liye.."...Today she cried her heart out to clear all the dust of dust...yes she loves him , she just does ,the way he does... Fadak padta hai from both sides...
Khushi's walk was alone and she is standing alone while talking with Arnav,though at both places she is with her family but the beauty is she is looking forward in her life towards Arnav , A man who drags her , hates her, hurts her but always stands by her and she has connected that strong "Dhaga" thread only with him .Everyone has their place in their life but now it's them what is the most important to them. He spoke to family like an anchor but now it's time for them...Love his control over himself delivering strength to his Khushi..."I love you"...A single tear rolls down like a first drop of water on a dry land...
Yes that drop of hope, she finally opens the door of her heart and finds her Rajkumar ,right there lightening her dreams by removing her darkness of every single doubt...
She steps forward to insure him , to embrace him, to hold him in his path of remorse by accepting him as hers .Their union started with the broken pearls and today it is symbolically getting encircled in those pure nuggets which he ties around her neck by giving her ...respect and pride ...by making her his half...his equal...and marriage got approval by both today for eternity...in her dream...
but she still feels this "I love you Khushi " in a bottle as a hint of him in a trouble..."Sab Kuch Chalte huwe , wo hum se itni badi baat nahin kar sakte...[He can't say those words in a normal condition]
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W h e n d i d m y h e a r t k n o waarwen wonders
When did my heart know it had fallen for you? Was it when I first met you and you were nasty to me? Was it when I met you again and you dismissed god and everything that I believed in? Was it when I saw you again when I least expected it? You hurt me, mocked me. Did my heart know at that moment?
When did my heart know it had fallen for you? Was it when you first stood gorgeous in front of my eyes? Was it when you drove me mad in anger with your words? You handed me a key but I had long closed all doors. Did my heart know right then it would soon open up for you?
Through all our fights, through my tears, through those fears did my heart just smile? When you saved me that night and saved me again another stormy night did my heart cheer?
Through all the times I tried to ignore you, through all the days and those nights I fought not to adore you, did my heart just smile? When I saw you in red and held you in my arms like a porcelain breakable treasure did my heart in delight roar?
I entered your house when I thought I would go away. I saw you with another and never knew why the tear escaped my eye. You looked at me and one day my heart dreamt of sparkling stars and colorful flowers that you brought just for me. Was the dhak dhak my heart's way of telling me something?
You entered my house when I thought I would never see you again. I was safe with another then why did you start to matter more? Those times I saw you sad, those times when your dupatta beckoned to me what was my heart really telling me?
That time when I ran to you. That time when I know not why I needed you. That time when I held you and cried. You were the strength that kept my heart going.
That time when I stood unable to move. That time when I knew not how to make things better for you. That time when I wanted to stop your tears. Wish I could be the reason your heart kept joyously beating.
That night when you looked at me across the room. That night when my heart raced, and my eyes sought you repeatedly. That night when you returned my ma's payal to me. That night I wanted to know what your heart was saying about me?
That night when I could not take my eyes away from you. That night when your hypnotic gaze held me prisoner. That night when I wanted to touch you and could not walk away . What would your heart have said if I asked you?
I knew I could not be bound to another. I knew you hurt me , but were hurting more yourself. I wanted to reach out to you. My heart wept for you as it did for me.
I didn't know why I wanted you to belong to no other. I did not know why I felt this claim on you like no other. I wanted you to be mine , but you would belong to another. How my heart wept at losing you before you could be mine forever.
My heart danced when you danced with me. All those times you came close. All those times you smiled. All those gifts you gave me that told me you were longing to be mine.
My heart was feeling adventurous, boisterous, young. How beautiful you looked. How my hand felt on your waist. How it was an addicting taste. How your blush told me you too longed to be with me.
Then what went wrong? Why did my heart have to break? Why did you say all there was between us was hate?
Then why did it have to go so wrong? Why did my heart have to break? And even the why could I still not only hate?
You are gone. My heart is a lonely crying curled up ball somewhere in my chest. It needs to breathe. It needs to beat. It still hopes you will somehow magically stop it to bleed.
I am stuck. My heart can only worry about you. It is frantic. It knows what it wants. It knows to who it belongs. Is it strong enough to make everything all right?
I cry. I sob. I hear your voice and I come apart.
Don't cry darling. Don't sob my beloved. I feel your tears and come apart.
If this is what you need to hear, this is also what I need to say, my dear.. Khushi I love you..
A VM by Wiwy
Joined: 24 July 2012
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