Anger towards Jalal. For not giving me his heart, for taking me completely for granted, for not understanding that my love for Position is somehow, far more intrinsically attached to him than probably anyone, but he, will understand.
Bitterness towards him for cheating me of that very deewangee that I always craved for, yet did not know, but know now.... Towards myself for not letting my relationship stagnate by knocking my head to believe something that I never really did believe - That Jalal has no dil.
Self-loathing, self-pity.
But ultimately, love. And acceptance. Love & acceptance not for Jodha but for Jalal. For the pure & fierce love he has for Jodha..
For ultimately, you test Love in how happy you feel for the Beloved, not for the Lover. 😊
Edited by Mallika-E-Bhais - 10 years ago
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