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PG125 PAL PAL DIL KE PASS TUM REHTI HO...
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]R]Dr ashutoshstood before the mirror adjusting his tie while nidhi sat on the bed, clutching her one hand with the other...ashutosh asked"nervous kyun ho..?check up hi to hai..koi exam thode hi hai...aur mai hoon na saath me...chalo ab"saying so, he wore his jacket while nidhi stood up n came to the hall...It had been 10 days since she came home, she was now better as she interacted with the family, took care of nishu n smiled ...but even now at times during the night as she slept in ashutosh's arms, she would tremble helplessly...n clutch him...and he would have to caress her for long ..making his presence gelt, before she d relax her hold...she was still v frail n ate v little..ashutosh felt she must be in pain...but did not feel it...As they reached dr sudhir,ashu helped her out of the car..n walked, holding her hand...sudhir looked at her "hullo lil girl..kaisi ho ab"??he asked just to strike conversation, while ashutosh looked at him..almost pleadingly...nidhi replied softly"fine sir,..."as nidhi was taken away by the nurse..dr ashutosh confessed to sudhir"better to hai..she talks...plays with nishu...but doesnt talk of the loss...and bahut weak ho gayee hai...lost rehti hai..phir se insecure hai..apne father ke yahaan gayee thi , just for a day, shaam ko main pahuncha jub ..to she hugged me n asked if i would take her back or not...it was terrible..she feels she has disappointed me...failed me..."ashutosh's voice had deep pain...sudhir answered"yes, she is still in depression..n feels she has broken your dream...lets see...we have to helo her..you have to help her..come out of this...does she complain of any physical pain"??ashutosh replied"no...infact though she is so frail, she works...in the kitchen..kabhi kabhi panting hone lagti hai..i have observed ...but i feel pain hai...woh feel nahi kar paa rahi hai..."ashutosh's voice trailed off...as the nurse informed nidhi was ready for check up.dr ashutosh held her hand as usual while dr sudhir examined her..giving her a sharp look, as she looked at the cieling placcidly..n then he asked"nidhi, do you have any pain..anywhere "??nidhi stared blankly n then answered"thoda sa back mei,,..bus"sudhir patted her hair..as he signalled ashutosh to come..ashutosh, touched nidhi 's cheek came out...in the cabin sudhir explained"positively pain hoga..but she is numb to it...i feel you need to make her talk of the loss...or do soe thing to make her feel ...make this numbness go,..otherwise we will have to consult a psychiatrist...you see we cant let her slip away, aur i am writing some tonics...see that she eats...n yes has she asked you..if she could concieve again"??ashutosh shook his head"no...kuch nahi..."sudhir looked at ashutosh..sharing or trying to share his agony...as nidhi entered...sudhir smiled"so lil girl..you are better...n i feel normal life can begin...n do u want to join kgh back...mann lagega"??nidhi looked down..fumbling with her chuni "nahi...abhi nahi"sudhir looked at her"then learn to keep yourself busy at home...n no negative thoughts...ok"?as they stood up..n nidhi waled out..sudhir said to ashutosh"maybe ..if you d be intimate with her...it might help..."ashutosh nodded...n walked briskly to nidhi...
In the afternoon as nishu slept after having played with his train that ashutosh had brought for him,nidhi sat to arrange ashu's wardrobe...as she arranged stacks of his shirts..his tees...his jackets n trousers...she felt as if she was touching him...she sighed...wondering if ashutosh would ever hold her...that way again...did he still desire her??could he still love her..??she just had no answers,..n sat cleaning the lower shelf...his tracks, his sweaters..n she felt a bundle at the back...nidhi pulled it out...a bundle in a pink polybag...she opened it with trembling fingers...
Dr ashutosh, having completed his last surgery of the day,..drove homewards,...thinking of nidhi...what else could he think of??as nidhi opened the bag, ashutosh stepped into the bedroom...nidhi looked at the many pink frocks, panties...sweaters...n tiny socks...all pink..she ran her fingers thru them...n looked up...to see..dr ashutosh looking at her..he came n sat on the bed..his arms on her shoulders...she was holding a pink sock...a dream..that remained unfulfilled.."hey nidhi...kya hua..bolo"??nidhi looked at him n simply said...er eyes wide eith innocence..with grief"i am sorry dr ashutosh...mai..."ashutosh hushed her..."yeh nishu ke time laye the hum yaad hai...phir jab nishu aa gaya...to pink stuff ander rakh diya tha maine...pack ker do..keep them inside"nidhi had a deep hurt in her eyes as she smoothened the things...n then said"rakhne se kya faayda...phenk deejiye...de deejiye kisi ko"ashu sat on his haunches, in front of her,putting a finger below her quivering chin..."kyun phenk doon..??meri beti kya pehnegi phir..."???"nidhi almost sobbed...as he tightened his hands on her fingers"nidhi,.sardiyaan chali jaati hain to hum garam kapde phenkte nahi, andar rakh dete hain...agli sardiyon ke liye...in kapdon ko bhi rakh do...koi aayega inhe pehan ne ko..."and he held a sobbing nidhi to his chest,..caressing her hair ...as she closed her eyes n sobbed"dr ashutosh...yeh kyun hua..humaare saath"??ashutosh did not answer..he had no answers...
After dinner, everyone sat..as nidhi got coffee n milk for nishu..nishu looked at it n wrinkled his nose"mumma coffeee"nidhi smiled as she got up n took his mug into the kitchen to mix some drinking chocolate,..n came back,..as she handed it to nishu...who peeped in n satisfied ..began to sip...as nidhi sat..n kept her cup...out slipped her engagement ring from her fingee...this had been happening for a week,,infact now she was wearing it around her middle finger..ashutosh looked up..as nidhi held the ring...all seemed to be recalling their engagement,,,,the joy the euphoria...but nidhi was remembering the day before when dr ashutosh had come to measure it...n she had hugged him in delight...ashutosh recalled how a storm of desire had been unleashed in him...with that moment..of feeling nidhi's heart beat against his ...of her softness against his hard muscles...armaan touched nidhi..."hey nidhi..dekh kitni dubli ho gayee hai...kal se diet chart...nahi to pitaaye karoonga samjhi"??nidhi smiled as she held the ring...n looked at ashutosh...n baba looked at both of them..hoping against hope that they d come out of this winter of despair..."ashu...bhai may aa gayi..kuch socha hai apni anniversary ke liye"??dr ashutosh smiled.."baba...plan to kiya hai...bus finalise hone deejiye..tab bataaoonga aapko"baba smiled as armaan added"aur mujhe bhi...bookings to mujhe hi karaani hongi..tu to bus surgery ker"!!!
In the bedroom,as nishu settled with his teddy that col verma had given, ashu came close to nidhi...she seemed a lil taken aback...ashu touched her cheeks softly..n said"woh ring do to..plz"nidhi handed hin the ring,..he turned her around and opened her mangalsutra...she was shocked...was he ridding himself of her...tired of her finally...his shattered dreams hurting him???her tears were stinging her...as ashutosh put the mangalsutra back, around her neck...n then held it upthe ring in the mangalsutra..."jab tak weight nahi regain karti..tab tak isme pehen lo..ok"??nidhi did not say anything..just stood there...as ashutosh grazed his fingers on her cheeks...he wanted to take her..make tender really tender love to her..probably that would make her feel...something.but he was scared of hurting her physically..he would wait...ashutosh took nidhi to bed...n as he switched off the light, she came close to him..clutching his kurta...ashutosh pushed her hair back..as he kissed her...full on the lips...nidhi opened her lips slowly to the pressure of his lips...n he probed her mouth with his tongue...before withdrawing ...n kissing her forehead...pulling her closer n oatting her to sleep..she had not abhorred his touch...n he was happy about that..rest could wait...as ashutosh slept..he seemed to hear nidhi moan..he opened his eyes..yes nidhi was moaning...ashutosh put his hand in her waist...his eyes had a question in them...nidhi looked n answered"back dard kar rahi hai...zor se..aur thighs bhi...plz kuch kariye..."n she bit her lip in agony..dr ashutosh got up quickly n went to the kitchen..to return with the hot water bottle..he was traumatised seeing nidhi in pain but at the same time seemed strangely happy...at least she was feeling the pain..he put the bottle on her back..as his expert hands pressed the tense musles of her legs..her thighs...he knew it was common to have these pains after a miscarriage..he made nidhi turn and pressed her lower back...as she wasted to lie on her chest..he tenderly put his hand on her abdomen..knowing it might hurt in that position...slowly nidhi's discomfort subsided...n she turned on her back...as ashutosh withdrew his hand...nidhi just held it...n put it back ...on her abdomen...as ashutosh looked into her eyes...n kissed her once again...before both slept...
In the morning, ashutosh was ready n taking his files when nidhi got up..rubbing her eyes"arre 9 baj gaye aapne uthaaya kyun nahi...nishu nishu kahan hai"??ashutosh smiled as he looked at her dishevelled hair..."kya hua 9 baj gaye to??kal raat dard tha..theek se soyi bhi nahi thi...achcha hua kuch araam mila to..nishu ko ready kar diya hai maine..bahar hai vaba je paas..aur tumhari dawaai yahaan hai...nashta kar lena..samjhi"??n then he just came and held her..said absolutely nothing...just grazed his fingers on her throat,,.held her ring in the mangalsutra n kissed it...as he went..nidhinkissed it...n could feel his love...his commitment ..his strength..why did she ever doubt his love??no she never doubted him..it was just that feeling that did she deserve so much...so much of love n care from a man so much above her...in all aspects..but then this is what love is all about...thought nidhi as she toyed woth the mangalsutra...
In the hospital, during lunch, dr ashutosh came to dr ranganath"dr ranganath..mai soch raha tha..nidhi ko aapke ghar laane ki..anji ke saath kuch time spend kar leti..if it suits you.."dr ranganath smiled"zuroor sir..we d delighted..nishu ko bhi laayiega..khushi yaad karti hai bahut...aur sir plz aap poocha nahi kariye..waise bhi aap anji ke jeejaaji hain...you n dr nidhi are v special for us"ashutosh smiled as he thanked ranganath n dialled nidhi..."jee"??"nidhi shaam ko tum aur nishuready rehna..anji ke yahaan chalenge..ok"??"jee .."as nidhi cut the phone..she had a faint smile on her face...anji..the years they had spent together..the fights..the love..it was almost like sisters..
As dr ashutosh rang the bell at dr ranganath's house, he could hear khushi..now nearly 5 yrs ..clapping"nishu aaa gayaaa"anji opened the door,..as nidhi n ashu walked in while nishu ran into khushi ...anji took nidhi to the kitchen...as she roasted paneer tikka..she asked"nidhi kaisi hai ab"??anji had been thru it all..she knew the pain..the heart ache..but she also knew recovery...the beauty of life...which was overwhelming...n she knew the power of love that ashu n nidhi shared...nidhi stood..breaking paneer pieces..anji contd"nidhi..mann lagaane ki koshish kar...jeejaji ke baare me bhi to soch..unhe kitni tawleef hoti hogi tujhe iss haal me dekh kar..dekha hai kitne duble ho gaye hain...baal safed ho gaye hain...plz nidhi ..itni sazaa mat de..unhe bhi aur khud ko bhi...dobara se jeena shuru kar..plz..yaad hai tu ne ek baar kaha tha..zindagi hume sab kuch deti hai..par zuroori nahi ki usi waqtde jab hum uski maang jarein...nidhi plz zindaginko ek mauqua aur de...aur mere paneer ka keema mat bana"she ended laughing as nidhi gazed at the mashed paneer..her fingers had made...she smiled..n said"chal iske rolls banati hoon main"
Khushi pulled dr ashutosh"uncle chaliye na ..mera room dekhiye plz"as ashutosh got up...holding nishu n khushi in two hands...her room was beautiful..pink walls, light pink bed..dolls n teddies around..story books in a pink shelf...ashutosh gulped...as he silently remembered the pink bundle ...buried in the corner of his wardrobe n a dream...a desire buroed in the corner of his heart..."uncle story sunaaiye na plz..."said khushi...ashutosh looked at the books...but lil chatterbox said "yeh to maine sun li..cindrella, snow white..thumbelina ..beauty..n the beast...kuch aur plz"ashu rubbed his beard...n smiled...he started as the kids settled on baby chairs...nishu wide eyed...n khushi excited"ek baar ki baat hai...ek raja tha...bilkul akela..aur tanha,uska koi nahi tha...bahu gussewala tha..kisi se milta nahi tha...akele rehta tha apne lohe ke quile mein..."dr ranganath stood behind the door as he listened n remembered dr hardstone of yester years..."ek din pata hai kya hua..."khushi asked"kya hua uncle..."nishu repeated "kya huua pappa"??ashu smiled.."ek titli aa ke baith gayee uske quile ki khidki pe...aur baithi rahi...raja ne bahut koshish ki...usko udaane ki...daraane ki..per woh to gayee hi nahi...waise to sabhi titliyaan sunder hoti hain..per yeh titli shaitaan bhi bahut thi...uske pankh..rang birange the...bahut sunder..aur woh ..she was v naughty,..ek din raja ne khidki kholi..use udaa dene ke liye..lekin woh..woh to andar aa gayee...quile mein..."khushi stood up..n asked"phir kya hua uncle??raja ko gussa ayaa"??ashutosh closed his eyes...recalling those years of nidhi as an intern...his slow realisation of love..."raja pehle to bahut gussaya..lekin phir jaise jaise titli ne uske quile me rang bharne shuru kiye...use titli se shaayad pyaar ho gaya...aur ekdin usne dekha ki natkhat titli uska mukut pehan rahi hai..."ashutosh could never forget nidhi wearing his coat in his cabin...never..."titli ko bhi raja se pyaar ho gaya...usne raja ko muskurana sikha diya...aur phir..pata hai kya hua"??the kids looked wide eyed"kya hua"???"raja aur titli ne shaadi kar li..aur woh lohe ka quila...ek pyaara sa ghar ban gaya...titli ek sundar si raani ban gayee...uski aankhe..badi badi...baal lumbe..bahut lambe"...nishu interruplted"mamma jaise"!!!ashutosh was shocked...could their son relate to their story??"haan beta ..bilkul tumhari mamma jaise"nidhi had come out from the kitchen...n drifted to the room...she stood behind listening to the story...their story..."phir kuch saalon baad unke yahaan ek sunder sa raajkumaar aaya...bilkul nishu jaisa...raja aur titli bahut khush the...unka ghar sapno ki tarah khoobsoorat tha...titli aur raja ka pyaar badhta jaa raha tha...per phir..."nishu seemed worried"kya hua papa...phir"??ashu patted nishu"ek din...titli se ek gudiya kho gayee..woh jaanti thi ki raja ko woh gudiya bahut pyaari thi..."nidhi tensed ...her nails digging into her flesh..."titli udaas rehne lagi...uske rang pata nahi kahaan udd gaye...apni titli ko iss haal me dekh kar raja bhi muskarana bhool gayaa...ghar udaas ho gaya...raja kitni bhi koshish karta ,..per titli nahi hunsti...nahi bolti..."khushi asked"uncle kya raja naaraaz tha ki titli ne uski favourite doll kho di"??ashutosh held lil khushi...as nidhi seemed to tear with tension...behind the door..anji n ranganath watching rthem...from the hall...ashutosh continued"nahi beta...raja apni titli se nazraaz ho hi nahi sakta kabhi...aur phir gudiya koi jaan boojhkar thode hi khoyi thi...woh to bus kho gayee thi..."there was a deep pain in ashutosh's voice...nidhi could feel the pain...she saw his sideburns...completely grey ...in these days of pain...her heart yearned for him...as khushi went up to ashu..n held his face..."to uncle..phir kya problem hai...raja apni titli ko ek aur doll de de...aisa nahi ho sakta kya"???ashutosh was stunned at the simplicity with which khushi had given a solution...children truly could solve even the most complicated issues...he hugged khushi n said"you are right...raja apni titli ko ek aur gudiya dega...woh kabhi udaas nahi rehne dega apni titli ko...titli me hi to raja ki jaan hai..agar titli murjha gayee to raja...raja marr jaayega...sub khatm ho jaayega"nidhi could take it no longer...she could feel ashutosh's love...his agony...his helplessness...no she d not let him suffer..she d not let them suffer..she d not let nishu suffer...she d give life another chance...she hicupped in sobs..as she walked to touch ashutosh 's shoulder...n as he looked dazed, she said"raja ko kuch bahi hoga...uski titli usse kuch nahi hone degi...woh doosri gudiyaa ka intezaar karegi...unka ghar humesha hansta khelta rahega...humesha..."n nidhi broke down...opening all her flood gates...as ashutosh hugged her...accepting n absorbing her angst..her insecurity..her pain...n then as anji took the kids away...he kissed her forehead...promising her...n himself..a new begining..to their dreams..to their joys..to the story of raja n his titli...n their eternal love...
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Edited by indu6789 - 05 January 2014 at 12:40am
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