Posted: 28 September 2013 at 9:01pm | IP Logged
Yesterday I was too tired to say anything about my" euthanasia "
I know Kanan will ask about it too.
This weak was the most Challenging week of my professional life. I found taking oral boards was easier so you know the depth of my fear . This wasn't fear of failing because I am not fearful of failing I know I have limitations . It was fear of loosing control and being disrespectful to students . I hate that .. I had so many encounters with lawyers and I have lots of bottled up anger . I never lost court case and never did any mistake on operating table but they have made my life missable .our Hospital and department with excellent reputation but trauma department has high mortality rate due to nature of the field I just didn't want to displaced my anger on future lawyers and get defensive . I made this very clear to Lynne . I want to stay offensive which is my nature and not judge these innocent students.
On Monday we came to know we will face 250 future lawyers . Only 50 ladies in the audience . this wasn't good Two very successful ladies presenting to mostly egotistic men . So we force Steave and Neil . ( groom from Rhode Island wedding )no time for them for prep .but we provide needed info to them . we were dress to kill just like lawyers and not like over exhausted doctors .
Lynne presented anatomy . I did normal and abnormal physiology .Steve did slide presentation on brain dead people and Neil did presentation on Brain cancer .
I opened up the session I introduced myself ( we always do that . No one says any thing about us ). minute I finished one smart ass asked me to describe my self .
So I told him I am very simple person with simple thinking who got in to very complicated field of medicine who has passion for very controversial subject like " murdering some one who brain dead who is not in pain which is known Euthanasia .and he really loved it . He was my friend from start . But Lynne hated that question ,I heard .Lynne muttering "Schmuck" .thank God , her microphone was not on . She was next presenter .
We kept the lecture as lectures and didn't open for Q and A till after lunch . we needed to regroup and get our thoughts together .
Q and A was surprisingly pleasant but went on till 5 PM . 8 to 5 was longest seminar I have ever done . they asked very good questions mostly on medicine . Ethics . Working against families , no code . living will . and methods used and about our feeling and conscious And guilt .
They asked me how do I know , That person is not in pain.and what right I have to tell family " it's time "
So without getting angry, defensive , or rude we all did very well .many questions were fair . No religious fanatics no lunatic . We only get them in meds school . I had encounter with my rude lawyers son . We were waiting to see if he had violated HIPPA he did but the kid was just too good so we ignored it .I hope , we will nnot regrets our mistake but we shouldn't hold any grudges. His father is a jerk not not him .
Long rant . BTW Shama came over and sat In for entire session. ( last time my husband snuck in ). She told me that "I was too easy on these future basters " what can I say. Hoping for the best for all of us.
Edited by Heema22 - 28 September 2013 at 9:04pm