The Missing Page Of My Life..
Monsoon times are as pleasant as usual..nthing can be better than having a cup of coffee near my balcony with my beloved anant, sitting in the balcony and having some romantic talks..but on the other hand rain gloomyness,sadness...I wanted to strt this diary with fresh note and a happy start..but that wasn't possible..life is not a straight road..it has many curves..some curves which u truely do not want them to come near u...but thats not possible..seriously not possible..oh god..!..i have truely turned itno a philosopher yaar..
Y god..y why..did i deserve this...i knw u hav given me anant and the best part is his family did accept me..but this jhatka was truely not expected...i feel my life is soo incomplete..incomplete without them or her or she..i was soo excited..never in my life did i think that those bloody reports were going this way..i knw u do have some or the other plans..but wat use for?..wat is the use...when i ..i cannot...i seriously dont knw what to do..will his family love me after this news like before..i have told anant abt this..i have told anant that according to my reports i can never ever b'come a mum!..nd u knw what did he reply to me?..he just told me that navya,u r my life..the only thing which is important for me, is you and nothing can change my love for u ever..but i have seen the grief in his eyes..i still remember that moment when i told him that this month i may be expecting..the joy the sparkle in his eyes cannot be compared to any damn thing on this earth..and today..
sometimes i feel like i shld run away frm here..i m spoiling his life..but..there is always a 'but' in the middle..the truth is that i cannot live without him..i was soo excited b'fore..i had read so many books on pregnancy..when i read i felt like catching my baby in my hands and just love him..anant loved children..he had expressed his d'zire to hav a bunch of children..and i just kept rofling by hearing this at that time..god!..do u truely think that i m perfect for him..
god..this is unfair..i will never be able to express the most beautiful feeling in life ever..i m literally craving for it..there will always be a missing page in my life..
Anant came inside their bedroom..navya was shocked and closed her diary and hid it under the pillow..she was sitting on the couch and had tears in her eyes..anant walked towards her..she secretly wiped her tears..but anant had seen them long before..navya stood up and asked him how was the day...anant smiled and hugged her tightly..and told
A: i knw u were crying and also the reason behind it,shona..
navya culdnt stop her tears and strted crying..anant too got tears in his eyes..but he controlled them.
A: navya..meri taraf dekho navya..
N: nahi anant...
A: mera shona hai naa tu..kya hua ki hum parents nahi ban sakte to..
N: anant but..
A: navya i luv you..nd i truely love u..nd as i have told u b'for that i vl love u no maatter what happens..hum vohi rahenge..meri taraf dekho na paagal ladki..
navya did not reply this time...they were still hugging each other..this time anant broke the hug and made navya sit on the bed and he too sat there..after a long time navya spoke something..
N: anant ek baat poochon main?
A: poocho naa..
N: anant kya tumhe lagta hai jab maa papa ko yeh baat ka pata chalega..kya voh tumhaari doosri shaadi karwa denge...
A: paagal ho gayi ho kya?..kabhi nahi..kabhi bhi nahi...samjhi tumm..
N: yeh tum keh rahe ho anant..baba aur bhua dadi nahi..mujhe aisa kyun lag raha hai ki ab hum kuch dino mein hi door ho jayenge..
A: aisa kabhi mat bolna tum..kabhi bhi nahi..tum meri ho..aur meri hi rahogi...i just cannot live without you..
N: same here anant..main tumhaare bina ek pal bhi nahi soch sakti..
A: toh fir aisi baatein kyun?
N: voh..voh toh..
A: aur kuch bhi nahi navya ab..khaana khaaya tumne..
A: wow aajkal meri bivi jhoot bhi bolne lag gayi hai..
N: main jhooth nahi bol rahi hun..
he poked on her stomach many times..
A: fir se jhoot..dekho kitne choohe daud rahe hain tumhaare pet mein..aur bol rahe hain ki tumne thik se khaana nahi khaaya..
N: acha aisa kya..
A: haan ji..aisa hi..
N: maine sach mein khaana kha liya hai anant..
A: hmm..ek dairy milk ki toh jagah hoyegi hi na pet mein..
she blushed..they shared the the dairy milk which anant had brought for her..
A: chalo sleeping time..!
they layed on the bed..navya slept while hugging him..
N: anant sachi mein kuch bhi nahi hoga..
A: mujh pe vishwaas hai naa..
N: khud se zyaada..
A: fir no fikar..
navi slept but tears rolled out of her eyes..anant couldnt bare his navya being so sad..but he cldnt do anything..it was god's will after all..
navya woke up..and saw anant was not in the room..she had a look at the table clock and got suprised by coming to knw that it was 11'o clock..anant entred by that time..he had a wide smile on his face like never before..he looked way more more relaxed than last night...
A: good mrning dear..
N: good morning..srry late uthne ke liye..
she hurriedly got up frm the bed..
A: sambhal ke zaraa..
A: baby ko chot lag jayegi..
N: arey voh nahi..mujhe samajh mein nahi aa raha hai anant...
A: madam, aapki report koi navya shirke ke exchange ho chuki..
A: itna kyun uchal rahi ho..navya shirke thodi naa ho tum..hmm..agar kuch baat tumhe bataani hai na toh pehle hi bata do..
N: chup anant..pagal ho kya?...i m soo excited...but meri report mili tumhe..
A: haan mili toh sahi..
N: kya tha..she was quite nervous..
A: anant voh naa..ab tumhe main kaise bataaun yaar..kuch serious hai yaar..chodo main tumhe nahi bataaungaa..
N: nahi anant plzz mujhe bataao naa..chalega agar koi buri news hui bhi toh..
A: hm..navya yeh baat hai...uff..navya yeh baat hai ki ...main ..nahi..tum..haan ...tum..maa banne waali ho..
A: dara diya tha na maine pehle..
N: matlab main sachi main maa bane waali hun..
A: haan navya..haan..he shouted...and carried her in his arms...i luv u..i luv u..i luv u..i luv u..soo sooo sooo much darling...thnk u thnk u thnk u...
N: neeche utaaro mujhe..
A: arey srry main bhool gaya tha..
he kept her down..
A: i luv u navya..
N: i luv u too..
they hugged each other..and anant placed a kiss on her forehead..anant came forward to give a kiss to navya on her lips..navya too moved forward but but she rubbed her nose against his nose with a naughty smile..
A: cheating navya..
N: cheating kya..mr.bajpayee..dad banne waale ho..sudhar jao..
anant placed his fingers in the space between her fingers..and they again rubbed their nose against each other..
A: mrs. navya anant bajpayee..tumhaara aane ke baad na kabhi main sudhra hua tha..na hun..aur na hi rahungaa...
A: mrs mumma..
N: mr papa..;)
Edited by mussu - 15 August 2013 at 7:52am