Iss Pyaar Ko Kya Naam Doon


Iss Pyaar Ko Kya Naam Doon
Iss Pyaar Ko Kya Naam Doon

~Bad Deal Series~ (TS) by Krani

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Posted: 22 June 2013 at 8:37am | IP Logged
You will find sentences and words similar in this version, and the one I had linked in the above post. That's because this was my first time writing angst, and I wrote so many versions of the one thing, that eventually I had two which I loved and wanted to share. So there are certain things that are kinda similar, but apart from that, they are different in terms of the mood and...just the way it's written I guess. 

Khushi sat next to the pool, her hand dipped in it, swirling the liquid around, as she looked on at the black-blue water, only slightly illuminated by the moonlight above. She could feel calmness around her, and her throat constricted as she realised that she wouldn't smell the same flowers again, she would no longer hear the chants and prayers in the morning, she would no longer wake up to him sleeping on the recliner.

Every day for the past 6 months he had slept on the recliner. She had swallowed her pride and tried convincing him to sleep on the bed. She had come up with schemes to get him to sleep on the bed, but he had remained adamant. He had not come close to her, he had not touched her, nor had he stared at her with the intense desire she had been seeing during the initial phase of their sham marriage.

She had tried asking herself the question, why had he suddenly distanced himself from her? Why had he decided to stay away, not look at her, not touch her, not be with her?
Anjali had seemed to notice too. She had not missed the dark circles that had formed under her Chote's eyes, nor had she missed the solemn desperate look in Khushi's haunted eyes. She had not missed the loss of weight Khushi had experienced, nor had she missed how Arnav seemed to spend more time outside the house than inside. She had tried questioning, tried getting answers, but Khushi had remained mum. She had been unable to come up with any clarification for hers and Arnav's behavior.

It was not her secret to tell.
Arnav would have to explain to her why Khushi was soon going to be leaving. Why Anjali would not longer see her around the house.

Her heart clenched as she gazed up at the moon, her hand still dipped in the cool water, a tear making its way down her cheek. This was her last night. She was no longer going to be Khushi Kumari Gupta Singh Raizada.

She would have to make a new identity.

She would disappear from everyone's life, and stay away.

Her name meant happiness. But looking around, all she seemed to bring to everyone was sadness, distress, anger.

She would not say bye to her Amma, Babuji or Buaji. She would not say goodbye to her sister.

She had decided to get up in the middle of the night, and disappear from everyone's life.

She just hoped that whatever pain had been brought upon both the families due to her, would soon disappear. She wished that they would soon be happy without her presence.

She felt him before she heard him.

She could not help the slight flutter in her stomach, or the goosebumps that seemed to erupt on her skin. She could not help the hitch in her breathing, nor could she help the longing that settled in the pit of her stomach.

He was early.

For the past 3 months, he had stayed at the office till late, and only came home after everyone was asleep. Except Khushi. She had pretended to be asleep, however she could only let herself succumb it, after hearing him lie down on the recliner safe and sound.

She halted in her movements of running her hand around in the water. She stilled, and her body stiffened.

She felt her eyes tear up as she waited. She waited for him to do something. For him to hold her. For him to tell her to stay.

But he stood there, watching her, and Khushi sat there waiting for him. She could not help how her breathing increased, and she knew that he was aware of how affected she was by his presence.

She heard him take a step forward. Then another, and another, till he was standing behind her, his legs almost touching her back, the heat from his body warming the flesh that was exposed through the blouse she was wearing.

She had worn red for tonight.

She knew that she should not have. She knew that she should hate him for the pain he put her through. But she could not find it in her heart to hate someone whom she loved so much. Whom she seemed to desire so much.

She sat there, her back still facing him, and her hand started its movement again, the tears dried in her eyes, and she let out a content sigh. She was glad he was here with her in her last few moments in the Raizada Mansion.

He moved and sat down next to her. Khushi was aware of how his body was so close to hers, how his shirt sleeves were brushing against her arm every time he inhaled and exhaled. She was aware of how his strong jaw had stiffened as he stared straight ahead, refusing to look at her.

She did not need to acknowledge him. They both needed these few moments alone.


It was so quietly said that Khushi almost missed it. But she would be a fool to miss the raw emotion that seemed to resonate with that one word. She would be a fool to miss the crack in his voice as he said that one word. She would be a fool to miss the tears that threatened to break lose with that one word.

She took in a shuddering breath, as she tried controlling her own emotions.

She saw him put his hand inside the pool, before searching for hers, and holding it. She was strangely reminded of the time he had held her hand inside the pool when she had been searching for the bangle.

She clutched onto his hand hard, as he held onto hers firmly. One apologizing, and one forgiving. One asking her to stay, while the other refusing. One begging her, the other defiant.

He gently took out her hand from the pool, and held it in his. He put it on his knees, and continued to stare ahead.
The glint of the diamond caught Khushi's eyes, and she realised with a heavy heart that she would be leaving behind something that she had grown accustomed to wearing for the past 6 months. Her hand tightened in Arnav's and he looked at her, tears glistening in his own.

Khushi looked back. She could see the desperate plea in his eyes. The apology, the anger, the shame.
But Khushi refused to bow down to any of those emotions. She needed to be strong. She needed to leave, because if she didn't she knew she would destroy all self-respect she had for herself.

She gently took her hand away from his, his grip tightening for the briefest of seconds, before allowing her to withdraw. She got up and made her way inside, each step laden with a heavy weight that seemed to slow her down, that seemed to make her want to run into his arms. She kept her head high, and she took one step after another.

This was her last night here in Raizada Mansion.

She went to her suitcase that was neatly packed with all her clothes, jewelry, everything she had brought from her own home. She opened the top and took out her night-suit. She wanted this last night of normalcy. To perform the daily ritual that she had done for the past 6 months. Get ready for bed, slip under the covers and then wait for Arnav to come home.

She walked into the bathroom, not bothering to switch on the light, letting the darkness engulf her as she stepped in. She needed to master her fear for darkness. If she could master her fears, she could face the world with anything.

She slipped out of her sari, unhooking her blouse, letting it slide down her arms, letting the petticoat pool around her ankles. She picked up the night-suit and held it in her hand, softly fingering the soft cotton fabric that held so many memories of Gupta household, of Raizada household, of Arnav, of herself.

She slipped on the pajama, and tied the knot, letting it rest on her hips. Just as she slipped on the suit, she heard the door open. Khushi stiffened, knowing he was standing there. She looked in the mirror and she could see his silhouette leaning against the doorframe, his arms crossed across his chest, as he looked at her. She let him.

She slipped the kurta past her chest, and let out a small sigh as it loosely rested against her frame, letting her skin breathe.

Just as she turned around to move out of the bathroom, past Arnav, she felt a soft, firm hand on her stomach, pushing her back into the bathroom and backing her against the wall. She let out a small gasp, the soft moonlight that was coming from the small circular window on the top corner of the bathroom illuminating the room lightly, highlighting his sharp features, his eyes as they peered into her own, reflecting the fierce determination she was used to seeing.

"Stay" He whispered, demanding her to listen. Khushi continued to look at him, the answer clearly written in her eyes. He scowled, hurt by her refusal and took a step forward, his hand digging into her waist as he pressed his body against her, causing her to take in a sharp breath, her heart accelerating as heat seemed to radiate through her body.

"Stay" He said again, and Khushi remained silent. He bent his head, his breath washing over her collarbone, causing her to shiver, and turn her head away. He let his lips softly press against her skin, leaving behind a trail of fire as he moved up her neck, deeply inhaling her scent.

"I am sorry" He said, and Khushi closed her eyes painfully a few tears escaping past her eyes and making their trail down her cheeks. He softly kissed up to her cheeks, kissing away the tears, letting his lips dry her cheeks. Khushi took in a ragged breath as she tightly clutched the sides of her suit, and he pressed into her firmly.

"Stay" He whispered, his voice husky, sending a surge of desire through Khushi. But she kept silent, her resolve solute, not letting him or his techniques waver her decision.

He moved his lips to her closed eyes, softly kissing her lids, and Khush's eyes fluttered open as he moved away. He looked at her, his eyes holding hers in a piercing gaze, a fight between the two expressive pairs of eyes, with one demanding for her to stay, and the other refusing.

He bent down closer, and Khushi closed her eyes again, her breath increasing, as his breath slowly washed over her lips, making her tremble with want. His hands travelled up the curve of her waist, his fingers digging into her soft flesh, demanding for her to listen.

"Stay" He whispered again, but Khushi kept mum.

He let his lips brush against hers, and Khushi gasped. He pressed down firmly, angling his mouth over hers, punishing her for not listening. Khushi responded with equal vigor, telling him she was not backing down. She had been emotionally exhausted, and she could not suffer more.

He apologized through his kisses, by slowly softening the pressure, gently kissing her, moving his lips over hers, sucking on her bottom lip before coaxing it open.

Khushi forgave him by complying.

He moved away, and Khushi kept her eyes closed, trying to catch her breath.

"Stay" He pleaded, and Khushi's eyes snapped open upon hearing the request. Her eyes teared up, as she looked into his eyes. The same eyes that had once looked at her with hatred, the same eyes that had looked at her with disgust, the same eyes that had made her feel nothing of herself.

Khushi didn't say anything, and he closed his eyes in defeat, dropping his head to her shoulder, taking in a deep breath. Khushi wanted to run her hands through his hair to calm him, but she kept them by her side, clutching her suit, letting him come to terms with her decision.

"Please" He tried again, his voice breaking, and a few more tears slipped past Khushi's eyes. She slowly shook her head, and he let out a sigh of defeat, his grip on her waist loosening.

Khushi realised, for the first time that Arnav Singh Raizada had given up. The one person who challenged her all along, had now finally given up. The old Khushi would have rejoiced at her victory, at having made Arnav Singh Raizada give up on something but Khushi knew she was losing something too. She was losing a lot more. She was as much a loser in this as he was.

"This wasn't a very good deal, Mr. Raizada" She whispered, and he looked up at her, taken aback for a few moments before nodding. She put her other hand on his cheek and stroked his face, memorizing his strong features. He leant into her touch, and let out a sigh. He let his eyes hungrily roam her face, memorizing her soft features.

She tore her eyes away from his, and closed them around his hands that were gripping her waist. She forced him to leave her, and then took a step outside. She walked to the bed and picked up her suitcase, keeping it beside the door. 

She was ready to leave in the middle of the night when everybody would be asleep. 

She looked over her shoulder to see him leaning against the bathroom door, his eyes following her, pleading her, begging her, asking for forgiveness and Khushi looked away.

As she slipped under the duvet and turned to her side to go to sleep, she felt him removing the duvet slightly, before slipping in beside her.

Khushi held her breath as he wrapped an arm around her waist and brought her closer, his nose nuzzling in her hair, inhaling deeply. Khushi let herself be moulded into his body, as he firmly pulled her tight against him, and reveled in the feel of him.

This was the first and last night Arnav Singh Raizada cuddled with Khushi. And this realization just made the tears that silently made their way down her cheek, harder to contain.


I am sorry about any typos, and please let me know what you thought of the series by dropping in a like or comment :)


Edited by Krani - 22 June 2013 at 10:37am

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Posted: 22 June 2013 at 8:48am | IP Logged
very very nice ...khushi confronting arnav was amazing...and wow the second one was too calm and soothing one ,too good dear...whole ambiance at pool side the water,khushi and arnav siting side by side...her hand in water and then arnavs too holding it...awesome ...his kisses ..."sorry", "stay " and "please" my...dear loved it to the core...just superbHeart

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Amazing ...looking forward to it

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Posted: 22 June 2013 at 8:59am | IP Logged
This was your first time writing angst? Hard to believe. A job very well done.

Thank you for keeping it real. Ive read all the versions. Even where there's a happy ending, it's real. No melodrama.
That's one of your strong points, how you keep things real. Makes it easier to go with the flow and believe.

The body language was very well explained and it complimented the emotions quite well.

I liked the fact that he conveyed his apology through words. His actions did support him but when it comes to apology, it's done best with words since we hurt the person through the same way. It only makes sense that words are used.

That's how it happens in real life too, sometimes staying with your soulmate is too painful. It's better to let go. Love alone isn't enough and sometimes the pain is worth it.

Beautifully written Kay.
God bless

Edited by IronButterfly - 23 June 2013 at 1:32pm
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Posted: 22 June 2013 at 9:05am | IP Logged beautiful...Khushi's confrontation in first part...too is Arnav's pleading in the second part...And the ending is just awesome...loved it....

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