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Episode 130: Koshish & Truce
"yeh Kya hai Lavany? Yeh kya pehna hai
tumne!!"
his loud yell echoes throughout the whole RM, mounting
tension on a room full of women. Lavanya had gone to open the door for ASR in a
dress similar to Khushi. He was furious, he had just promised
himself "ab aisa nahin hoga" determined not to let Khushi give him
any more "taqleef"...another words cause him farq only to come home
and find La, the girl that never makes a difference dressed like the one
that only makes a difference
"ek to mein pehle koshish kar raha
hoon ki.." (I've been trying to -) oh the tireless effort of
"koshish," poor guy almost gave himself away, that he has been
working hard to forget her, words that echo into the future "Itni koshish ki maine..."
how would this "koshish" ever see
success when everything/everyone around him won't let him...even her
trademark "gotas" at some point have started to make a difference!
" aur yeh, ye cheez" grabing the
tacky things hanging off the sides of her dress, grinding his teeth profusely
showing just how much he really hates this what she does to him "isse laga kar tum itni
stupid lag rahi ho, bilkul uss- " (you look so stupid wearing this just like that-)
a brief pause when he sees Khushi coming,
but he remembers his determined promise to himself. He takes his gussa on a
notch up when La tries to explain that he liked the dress
"mujhe pasand nahi ayaa, mujhe aisi
cheezien pasand hai jin mein koi class na ho, jo itni cheap ho ki"
"idon't lilke it, i dont' like it, i don['t like things that have no
class, that are so cheap that-" indirectly he sends more message of
naftrat and insults and the quiet girl listens quite aware.
La interrupts, " all i did was wear
clothes like Khushi, why are you getting so angry,why are you like this?
"I am what i am" he tells her and orders her to change
The man who always told La to be herself,
stuck up for her rights in front of nani when she moved in, is ordering
her out of these clothes like some control freak. La knows anything-Khushi
related gets to him immensely, later she says she kept lying to herself, but i
wonder if she grasped just how much he feels for her...
For the first time La refused something he
was asking, but he remained adamant "you'll do as i say, you'll change
this dress right now" and he storms off.
Khushi couldn't bear to see her friend
crying especially when she knows La is unfairly getting the burnt only meant
for her. She decides to go talk to him. In his room he paced back and forth,
forth and back, uneasy and frustrated failing miserably from dealing with all
the farq.
Interestingly she arrives from the
poolside, sliding the door open to his room, to him...and before she could even
begin he fumed "Get out"
Never afraid to speak her mind to him she wasted no time "Nahi,
I want to talk to you"
"Toh karti raho, mujhe nahi sun ni (then
keep talking, i don't want to listen)" and he slides the door shut,
only for her to slide open again right away. So this sliding door becomes
a prop for the CVs to make their point today. Symbolic really, it becomes the
great wall of ASR. She opens the door, he closes it, she opens and makes him
listen.
" it important i talk to you" she
quickly finishes before he can cut in "to remove your
misunderstanding...La bought the dress because i told her to, so take you
anger out on me, not on her"
"you needn't tell me how to behave
with Lavanya. thats non of your business" He never did like when she ever
talked of La and him in the same sentence.
"aap ke aas paas ke log aapse kitna
pyaar karty hai, aapko bilkul bhi andaaza nahi hai na? aap jaante bhi hai ki
aapke iss kadve bol se unke dil par kya beet ti hai?"
Translation: "you have no idea how much people around you love you do you?
Do you even know how much your bitter words hurt their heart?"
What was it about this sentence that melted
him? was he just touched to hear about how much people around him love him? or
did he just know that she was including herself in that group of "aas paas
log"...letting him know just how much his bitter words hurt her as well?
"hum jaante hai ki aap hum par gussa
hai" "I know you're mad at
me"
Her short sentence spoke volumes, but it
was the words that weren't uttered by her that may have been even louder to
him...words about the reason for his gussa. She knew the reason and he knew she knew and
in no time he is over the edge. Anger in full swing, index finger pointing
down, ready to make his point
"Tum samajh ti kya ho apne aap
ko?" his yell gets louder "mein jo karta hoon tumhari waje se karta
hoon? agar tumhe yeh lagta hai ki mujhe tumhare hone ya na hone se koi
farq padta hai then FORGET IT!!" he startles her "meri life
mein tumhari itni importance nahi ha ki mein tumhara waje se gussa hot jaaoo
aur woh gussaa kisi aur par nikaaloon!" " you don't even exist
for me, do you understand?" He continues his non-stop kadve bol "bitter
words '"Tum ho ya na ho, kuchh karo yah na karo , much uss koi faraq nahim
padta SAMJHI TUM?!
Translation: "who do you think you
are? whatever i do is because of you, if you think that whether it makes any
difference to me if you're here or not here then FORGET IT! You're importance
in my life is not so that i take out my anger for you and someone else! you
don't even exist for me do you understand? Where you're here or not, you do anything or not, it doesn't make a
difference to me UNDERSTAND!!
Everything about his body language said
"attack" but everything in his eyes said something totally different.
Every word that came out of his mouth was the exact opposite of what she meant
to him...i felt him breakdown in this gussa of his. In awe of Sobti here, total
perfection, his body language (for some
reason i feel the ASR behavior of pointing his index finger down is something
Barun came up with, don't know why), his line delivery, and especially the
eyes that screamed louder than his voice
which he spoke here...if it wasn't on tv, i wouldn't know he was acting.
amazing depth.
By the time he finished talking, those darn
tears had already started to emerge forcing him to turn around, it was the
second time today and it was getting
impossible for him to bare the pain they returned. Unfortunately for him turning his back didn't help, he could feel her shedding him.
He closes his
eyes in her agony for a second time eventually having to turn to her. Her tears
had only gotten worse, once again she was told by the man she can't help but
love regardless of her koshish, that she doesn't mean a thing "koi
ahemiyat nahi"... he fuming anger had disappeared to some place and total remorse
set in while quietly enduring the chots the tear causes. she was the last to
speak
"hum jaante hai hamaare hone ya
na hone se aapko koi faraq nahi padta' IT hurts him coming from her. "par
hum yeh bhool gaye the ki aap Arnav Sing Raizada ha, aur kisi ka dil dukhane ke
baad, aap kabhi maafi nahi maangte...hamaari ghalati hai ki ham aapse baat karn
aaye the,"
Translation: I know that my being or not being makes no
difference to you, but i forgot that you're ASR,and after hurting someone you don't
apologize to anyone., it was my mistake that i came here to talk to you.
and this time she closes that door herself
while looking directly in his eyes, his eyes that almost begged her to read
them and open that door back up...wanting badly to keep that great wall down
for her, wanting to make it all ok and
show her just how much faraq her being or not being there makes.
"Kya
kar diya tumne Khushi mere saath? Itni koshish ki maine, itni
zyaada koshish ki mein tumse nafrat kar sakoon par tumse nafrat
karhi nahi paaya"
"what have
you done to me Khushi? I tried, i tried so hard so i could hate you, but i
never could hate you"
What a perfect example
of this "koshish" in this episode. Well he tried and he failed,
perhaps he know it was time to call truce to this war for faraq that he
declared on her. He goes to La's room where Khushi and Anjali are consoling
her. He hand her the dress with the gota
and told her to wear it and apologizes for the way he reacted, elated La hugs
him "ASR, I love you." With La still in his arms, he looked to Khushi
witht he most honest eyes
"I'm
sorry" he softly says to her...the words hit her hard. This look in his eyes, his apologizing
like this ...how could she hold anything against him? they're both in a pickle aren't
they? Anjali's phone rings conveniently for her exit. La couldn't help give him
a peck on the cheeck for his sweetness while his eyes, mind, heart all with
Khushi's face. He finally catches that faraq he was looking for all day on her
face, thanks to La's peck, in his reaction, there was no arrogance of
"winning," he just looked at her allowed himself to feel, maybe embraced her
feelings for him. He just seemed so much at peace after giving up (for now).
She starts to walk out, but not without the palat, he knew it
was coming, so he looked away not letting her know that he was indeed watching
her. A rabba ve as helples as these two enters...iss pyaar ko kya naam doon?
DROOL CORNER!!!!!!!!!!!!
β€οΈ his heartfelt apologyβ€οΈ
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