Posted: 19 May 2013 at 7:31am | IP Logged
Hello evry1! hi i m muskaan...had dis stry in my mind since 8 months bt cldnt write , thanks 2 my nervousness for dat...bt i hav gathered some courage today ...so if i disappoint u den i m srry!
so dere are d same characters wit d same nature but d situation is quite different..i mean very very different! I will b writing dis story in a dairy format as well...so ...here it is..
Even on dat night she couldnt sleep...it was quite a normal situation for her...but doctors used 2 call it as some disease known as insomania! It was late night,her bed was like a battle ground-hot,violent and chaotic.Beneath her,the sheet was twisted into painful knots,the pillow hard and unyielding.Lack of sleep made her head ache and her body had grown stiff with discomfort.
At 2 o clock,she got up 2 fetch herself a glass of water.She stood in the middle of the room while she drank it,thinking abt somthing. As always,her mind was running over the events of the day.It was as if she had a video player in her head,showing the same scenes over and over again.If dey were'nt from the day just passed,they were from previous days-some of them years before, in a different part of her life.The scenes played demselves out,and paused 2 allow her 2 fret about whether she could hav done things differently.then dey began again,stalking backwards and forwards in her consiousness like restless feral animals.
Suddenly she remembered 1 more thing and she screamed ou-"MY DIARY!"she began searching something in d cupbord took out a fat book which was titled My Diary...she opened d 1st page n saw her name written on it-Navya. she took out a page some where in d middle n started writing...
(i'll b writing dis part in hindi coz i m more comfortable in it)
Sorry sorry, my dear dairy actually aaja mein kuch aur soch rahi thi aur tumhare baare me bhool gay..Sorry!...actually aaj,aaj mein kya bataaon ...poore din khoyi hui si thi...aaj kuch bhi karne ka mood nahi hai..kuch bhi...bas aise hi sochna chahti hun apni life ke baare mein...bt u know agar zinda rehna hai to kaam karna padega ...main batati hun tumhe aaj maine kya kiya...
aaj mein bohot low feel kar rahi thi to bohot dino ke baad tank bund (lake) gayi thi...yehi to ek jageh hai hyderabad(it s d capital city of Andhra Pradesh,india)mein jahan par khul ke reh sakti hun...tank bund ko dekhte hi mujhe marine drive yaad aata hai aur marine drive se car rides aur car rides se A----...ab meri problem samjhi...aaj poore din uski yaad aayi...office me kaam bhi nahi kar paayi...mein aajkal kya kar rahi hun,kyun kar rahi hun,kisliye kar rahi hun aur sabse important thing kiskeliye kar rahi hun kuch samjh nahi aata...bas man karta hai ki bas roan main...i know i shld b brave but aaj ki date dekh kar mujhe rona aa gaya...4 th feb
Kabhi kabaar chillane ka man karta hai but uske badle itne saare aason nikal jaate hai...agar chillaon toh kya farak padta hai...koi meri baat sun ne waala hai hi nahi yahaan pe...koi mera hai hi nahi yahaan pe!...
Aaj bhi vo din voh baatein yaad hai mujhe...tumhe pata hai dairy mein iss duniya ki sabse paagal insaan hon..kyun maine aisa kiya...kya yeh zaroori tha...aur aaj main itni lonely hun voh sirf aur sirf meri vajeh se hai...i just hate myself...kaashmein vaapis vahaan jaa sakti but it's late...it's too late to do any thing...aur aaj itni confused hoon ki main kya likh rahi hun vo samajh me hi nahi aa raha hai... main aaj isse zyaada nahi likh sakti...page poora geela ho gaya hai...sorry...kal raat ko main iss baare mein phir se likhungi...aur haan roungi bhi nahi zyaada...buhbyee..agar abhi nahi soyi to kal office nahi jaa paongi kal...aur kal priyanka ko bhi to jhelna hai...so buhyee...
She wiped her tears, kept the dairy in d cupboard n somehow went 2 sleep..
Why is navya depressed ?Where is anant?most importantly why is navya in hyderabad?btw navya confusing lagi yaa nahi?
so...srry agar yeh achcha nahi hai aur aapka time waste hua...i m writing something in my life for d very 1st time...so srry...n yeah,btw i m a silent member of dis forum since d past 1 yr...n i hav read every1s ff's n dey r literaly awsummm...so,waiting for ur comments...:)
prt 2 - pg 4
prt 3,4 - pg8
prt 5 - pg 12
prt 6 - pg 21
prt 7- pg 27
prt 8- pg 35
prt9 - pg 46
prt 13- 88
prt 14 ,15-94
Edited by mussu - 29 June 2013 at 5:40am