"Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night...
Very dark, but there were stars, points of light and
reason ... And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly
everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When
you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went
black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I
couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason, for anything."
-Stephenie
Meyer, New Moon
This would be how Asad would feel like if Zoya leaves tomorrow and goes away from his life.
Before Zoya came, Asad's life was like a moonless dark
night.. there was no brightness except for a few stars dotted on the dark
skyline..There was his mom, najma, Ayaan and his job... those were the
only few bright spots on the horizon of his dark life.
And they were the few reasons for his existence.. And the few reasons which gave any meaning to his gloomy life.
And he actually now wants to hold on to Zoya and the light she brought.. but he is having conflicting emotions... his heart knows that he does not want the brightness of his life to go away... but on the other side, he is also scared... scared and afraid to face a future with Zoya and share his life with Zoya... It's hard for him to believe that life can indeed continue to be bright and beautiful.
So despite wanting to stop Zoya, the demons of Asad's past prompts him to let go of Zoya.
But deep down, nothing would remain same.. and even the few
bright stars which used to light his
world, his horizon would not give him any happiness.. because he would be blinded
by and missing the light brought by Zoya.
Once Zoya goes away life will not hold any reason or any meaning to Asad any more.
It is for these reasons that my heart goes out to Asad every time he tries to push Zoya away.
Zoya is the bright light which would always try to shine
regardless of what life offers her.
But Asad will plunge in to a dark abyss from which neither he will try to come out nor anyone can bring him out. Hence, more than zoya I feel sad for Asad for what he may face in future or any time if he is separated from zoya.
It's really Asad's luck that Zoya is ready to grasp at even the slightest hint from Asad which indicates that he wants her in his life. So despite telling today that she will never stay back unless Asad holds her gaze and tells her to stay back, tomorrow hearing him say it with his back facing her, she is still going to stay back.. Asad is really lucky that Zoya has the courage to let go of her ego and be ready to plunge in to an uncertain future with him.
Hope that Zoya would always have the courage and determination to face all the inevitable complications of a life with Asad and be there to colour his world and brighten his horizon.
Great post! 😊 Thanks for the PM
She is definitely the light that brightens his life and he really needs her because she is the one who lives in the moment and tends to look at the bright side of things. It is these things that Asad needs to embrace and learn and let go of his deep rooted fear of hurting or causing pain to the woman he falls in love with. My heart also went out to Asad yesterday because his monologue reflected his struggle, the conflict in his mind and he acknowledges "the unsuna khichav" between them but wants to overlook it. But he is unable to as after all the heart wants what it wants. He can't stop himself from feeling that way about her. Her happiness brings a smile to his face and her tears melt him. He was so hurt and upset by the fact that she called a taxi whereas he was looking forward to dropping her, perhaps spend some time with her on way to the airport.
It's really Asad's luck that Zoya is ready to grasp at even the slightest hint from Asad which indicates that he wants her in his life. So despite telling today that she will never stay back unless Asad holds her gaze and tells her to stay back, tomorrow hearing him say it with his back facing her, she is still going to stay back.. Asad is really lucky that Zoya has the courage to let go of her ego and be ready to plunge in to an uncertain future with him.
Great post! 😊 Thanks for the PM
She is definitely the light that brightens his life and he really needs her because she is the one who lives in the moment and tends to look at the bright side of things. It is these things that Asad needs to embrace and learn and let go of his deep rooted fear of hurting or causing pain to the woman he falls in love with. My heart also went out to Asad yesterday because his monologue reflected his struggle, the conflict in his mind and he acknowledges "the unsuna khichav" between them but wants to overlook it. But he is unable to as after all the heart wants what it wants. He can't stop himself from feeling that way about her. Her happiness brings a smile to his face and her tears melt him. He was so hurt and upset by the fact that she called a taxi whereas he was looking forward to dropping her, perhaps spend some time with her on way to the airport.
Thanks Dear.
Its always nice to see your comments and feed back... because you write long comments and write so well, explaining what you feel and its nice to read them.
yea yesterday Asad was hurt by that taxi thing as well... he now likes to do things for her and help her in any way he can. he feels happy doing even trivial things for her.. so taking her to airport was important for him and like you said he wanted to spend with her those last few moments as well.. so the thought that she did not even expect or want him to drop her hurt him... little did he realize at that time, how hurt both of them would actually have been if Zoya was actually going and he had gone to drop her..
Zo has definitely accepted him the way he is.. her Akdu Ahmed Khan is everything for her now... and yea i also feel that she would not shy away from expressing her feelings once she realizes it.. may be she might feel awkward to do it verbally.. but she will definitely try to pull Asad from out of his comfort zone..😃It's really Asad's luck that Zoya is ready to grasp at even the slightest hint from Asad which indicates that he wants her in his life. So despite telling today that she will never stay back unless Asad holds her gaze and tells her to stay back, tomorrow hearing him say it with his back facing her, she is still going to stay back.. Asad is really lucky that Zoya has the courage to let go of her ego and be ready to plunge in to an uncertain future with him.
Thanks Dear.
Its always nice to see your comments and feed back... because you write long comments and write so well, explaining what you feel and its nice to read them.
yea yesterday Asad was hurt by that taxi thing as well... he now likes to do things for her and help her in any way he can. he feels happy doing even trivial things for her.. so taking her to airport was important for him and like you said he wanted to spend with her those last few moments as well.. so the thought that she did not even expect or want him to drop her hurt him... little did he realize at that time, how hurt both of them would actually have been if Zoya was actually going and he had gone to drop her..
Zo has definitely accepted him the way he is.. her Akdu Ahmed Khan is everything for her now... and yea i also feel that she would not shy away from expressing her feelings once she realizes it.. may be she might feel awkward to do it verbally.. but she will definitely try to pull Asad from out of his comfort zone..😃