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Lotus Cafe (The 24 hr coffee shop at Marriott Hotel):
Anji finishes her coffee and folds her hands over the table: so..tell me more Armaanji. You chose your profession or your profession chose you?
Armaan puts the coffee cup down with a smile: I chose it. i was always interested in the intricacies of the brain and how it reflects our behaviour and is affected by our surroundings. And you?
Anji: I initially took the biology subject just to defy my dad..you know..he is a lawyer and wanted me to become one. I guess its my way of rebelling. (Armaan huffs out a laugh earning a mock glare from Anji) Then Nidhi and I wrote the entrance. Nidhi ended up there and I ended up here.
Armaan gets a twinkle in his eye: suna hain aaj kal dentists kaafi kamaalete hain.
Anji laughs: yeah. there is that. (then her laughter dies and she gives him a soft look) are you grateful now..for becoming a psychiatrist? (she gestures towards the hotel in general) you know..you can help you friend this way and all?
Armaan looks out of the glass window: I am thankful. Yes. because Ashu is not a very trusting person. so he wouldn't have opened up with just any body. I am glad that I am there to give personal as well as professional help. But..(he shrugs)
Anji: its tough, isn't it? I admire what you are doing Armaanji. Really.
Armaan's face glows at her words but he deliberately tries to lighten the atmosphere: chalo ji..at least you like something in me. (Anji just continues to look at him and after a while, he glances at the table, then back at her before picking up the red rose from the table flower vase and extending it to her) Happy Valentines Day Anjali!
Anji takes it with a shy smile: thank you. (she carefully puts the rose in her bag before looking up at him) toh..?
Armaan: toh..chale? your parents must be waiting na.
Anji nods: sure. (they both make their way out of the coffee shop) ek baat poochu aap se? (Armaan nods) you said jeejaji doesn't trust anyone easily. Then how come with Nidhi..?
Armaan: I don't know Anjali. all I can say is he has developed a very strong attachement to Nidhi in a very short period of time. he has started to associate everything that's peaceful in his life with her. (then he puts his forefinger on his heart) in here. There is no logic to it.
Anji: I just hope he starts feeling better soon. Can't imagine the hell he has been going through all these yrs. (she shudders a little and hugs herself)
They get into the car and Armaan drives off: I hope so too.
Armaan drops Anji at her residence: aap ka ghar aagaya. (Anji looks at the apt then back at him..her reluctance to end the night very obvious. Armaan looks at her for a few moments) aap kal shaam ko kya kar rahi hain?
Anji: nothing. why?
Armaan: want to have dinner with me?
A heartbeat of pause and then Anji: I would love that.
Armaan: good night Anjali.
Anji: Good night Armaan. Happy Valentines Day. (He continues to gaze at her retreating figure when his phone starts ringing. He checks the caller id and immediately answers) Ashutosh? everything ok buddy?
Nidhi's voice is literally trembling: Ar..Armaan..help!
Armaan: hang on Nidhi. I am on my way. (he hears the sound of a glass breaking just before he disconnects the call and with a squeal of tires, he quickly backs out the car)
The name "Richa" out of his lips echoes through Nidhi freezing her insides and shattering her to pieces. Her arms fall away from him and she squeezes her eyes shut as her heart breaks into two. It takes a few moments for her to realize that Ashu is not on top of her any more and the words coming out of his mouth are not filled with desire and passion but with fear and pain. He has rolled away from her and curled himself into a ball with his fingers gripping the hair on his head tightly while his moans turn into screems. "NO NO..Don't do it. NO. STOP! I AM GOING TO KILL YOU bas***dS! STOP! God! Help! Somebody! HELP!" Nidhi is stunned and she immediately gets up from the bed pulling her sari hastily around her. what do I do now? should I go near him or should I talk to him? the decision is taken out of her hands when he starts kicking and throwing the lamp on the bed side table down in the process. She runs to him and hugs him tightly. "Ashutosh! Ashu! please! Ashu! calm down. Calm down. Ashu." none of her words seem to be having any effect on him as he continues to struggle with the demons of his past. Tears leak out of his eyes and he falls down on the floor on his knees: "NOOO..PLEASE..NOOO..NOT THAT! NOOO.." she looks around wildly for Ashu's phone and finds it on the table beside the cake. She runs to it and with trembling fingers calls Armaan: Ar..Armaan..help!
The sound of the glass breaking makes her throw the phone back on the table and run towards Ashutosh. his feet almost trample over the broken water glass when Nidhi hugs him from behind and stops him: ASHU..please! Ashu..mon amour!
Ashu staggers back at her pull but pushes her hands away. NO NO NO..GOD! I can't take this any more. please. Why won't you just kill me? JUST KILL ME AND BE DONE WITH IT!
Tears leak out of Nidhi's eyes but she hastily swipes them away with the back of her hand and forcefully pushes him on to the bed, makes him sit on it and hugs his head to her tummy: buss..Ashutosh. buss..hogaya. its over. You are here now. with me. (then she cups his cheeks and makes him look into her eyes) see..look..look at me. I love you. Ashutosh..I love you. please. Come back mon amour! Come back to me. (he continues to tremble and shake all over. His body is drenched in sweat and his breathing is still laboured. His eyes have become red with the combination of tears, rage and pain. He looks into her eyes as if clutching a lifeline and understanding that, she doesn't move or even blink. A soft knock on the door forces her to release him but he doesn't let her go and burrows himself in her tummy and wraps his arms around her waist. The knock repeats..louder this time and she forcefully pulls away from him, pikcs up her bagpack, opens the door and moves into the bathroom and closes the door. Armaan literally barges into the room, takes one look at the shattered glass, table lamp and shivering Ashutosh before taking out the syringe and medication from his pocket. Without another word, he loads it and injects it to AShu. Ashu doesn't move from his position and Armaan doubts if he even registered his presence or the fact that he had been given injected with a sedative.
Once inside the bathroom, Nidhi pulls away the sari from around herself and opens her bag to find a night suit along with another sari. Mentally thanking Anji for putting the night suit in, she quickly grabs it and puts on the pants and buttons up her night shirt. Then as if sha had finally run out of the energy, she collapses on to the toilet seat and covers her mouth to stifle her cries. Ashu's whimper of "Armaan..Nidhi Armaan.." stems her flow of tears. She splashes some cold water on her face and after running a hasty hand through her hair, she takes a deep breath and opens the door just as Armaan finishes giving Ashu the injection and has cleared away the broken glass on the floor. Not knowing what to do in this situation, she just stands there with a helpless look on her face. Armaan raises his head to her after he throws the glass pieces in the trash can. Poor girl! what a way to end her wedding day! I wish..damn..this is what happens when one blurs the lines between his personal and professional life. Ashu has fallen back on to the bed while sitting on it. he has one arm covering his eyes and the second one gripping the sheet: Armaan..Nidhi..i need her Armaan..Armaan..i beg you..please..NIDHI..Ni..(his cry of pain gets cut off as she puts her palm on his forehead and his breath sighs out in obvious relief. Though his eyes are closed, he turns his head towards her touch and his voice gets slurred) Nidhi..don't go. Please..don't go. Stay. Stay with me. I can..i can breathe now. Nidhi..(his voice trails away as the sedative takes effect and he drifts off into sleep. she continues to run her hand through his forehead and hair until she is sure that he is in deep sleep. with a deep sigh she adjust his position a little and covers him with a blanket before turning to face Armaan. both of them look at each other as if not knowing what to say and finally Nidhi leads him to one of the 2 chairs and each of them take a seat.)
Armaan: I am..i am sorry Nidhi. (Nidhi looks at him with tired sad confused eyes) I should have anticipated this. (he pours some water into a glass and extends it to her and she gulps it down in one go) Nidhi..all I can say is Ashu never once thought that this would trigger that incident to him or that he wouldn't be able to..(he leaves the sentence hanging) it probably caught him by surprise tonight. You know..the mistake is more mine than his. I had my doubts but then I used to watch both of you together and think "may be I am thinking too much. May be my fears are ungrounded." I am sorry I let you down in the process Nidhi. if I had just been Ashu's psychiatrist, I would have insisted on a joint session with both of you before the wedding. I would have talked to both of you. but..as his friend, I did not do that. I hoped for the best and left you to face the worst. Mujhe maaf kardo Nidhi.
Nidhi swallows and clears her throat: I don't think a psychiatrist would have come running in the middle of the night at a time like this just because I called him. so I for one, am glad that you are his friend as well as his psychiatrist. ab..ab mujhe kya karna chahiye Armaan? and please..don't hide anything else from me. Not any more. just say it.
Armaan: look..for now..for the next couple of days..give him some space. Once he wakes up he is going to feel bad and guilty not to mention weak..effect of the sedative that I just gave. Let him settle down with his thoughts for a while. Then let him speak on his own. Just tell him that whenever he wants to talk, you are ready to listen. I will also talk to him in the meanwhile and update you on the next step. (he looks towards the bed and with a sigh gets up) mein chalta hoon. and I will be here tomorrow morning to pick you guys up. Sms me when you are ready. ok? (Nidhi nods and Armaan leaves, closing the door softly behind him. Nidhi sighs and takes a pillow before settling herself awkwardly on the 2 seater sofa.)
Next day Morning:
Ashu rolls over and squints his eyes open slowly. Morning light is filtering lightly through the thick curtains making the room slightly more bright than the night but still leaving it a little dark too. he props himself slightly and looks at his watch. 7.30am. sighing, he gets up and his feet land on a cushion of scattered rose flowers on the floor. His gaze immediately searches and lands on Nidhi, who is bent at an awkward angle and sleeping on the sofa. He closes his eyes as memories of the previous night rush through him like a fast fwd film reel. Damn! Shit! Hell! he looks around as if not knowing what to do before getting up and making his way slowly to where Nidhi is sleeping. He extends his hand as if to touch her and wake her up, then turns it into a fist and pulls it back. he takes a step back and calls out softly: Nidhi?
Nidhi immediately wakes up and makes a move to get up before sitting back down and holding her neck: ouch!
Ashu: what happened?
Nidhi: nothing. I just..i got a kink on my neck. Kuch nahi. teek hojaayega.
Ashu looks away: subah hogayi. I think we should leave.
Nidhi rubs her eyes: yeah. you go ahead and get freshened up. I will order some coffee for both of us.
Ashu nods, picks up the towel and makes his way to the bathroom. Just before going in, he swallows and says: I am sorry Nidhi. (and closes the bathroom door)
At Ashu's apt:
Rukmini: arre tum log aagaye beta! I was just about to call you. Nidhi..your papa is her. tumhe pagphere ki rasm ke liye leejaane aaye hain.
Nidhi puts her bag down and hugs her dad: how are you Nidhi beta?
Nidhi: I am fine papa. aap baitiye. Mein abhi aati hoon.
Ashu: hello uncle.
Yog: hello Ashutosh. kya baat hain Ashutosh? are you not feeling well?
Ashu tries to smile a little: no uncle. I am fine. just tired.
Rukmini: aaj toh tera hospital nahi hain na. have a little bfast and sleep. you will feel better. Abhi chai peeyoge?
Rukmini: aur Bhai saab aap ek aur cup leejiye..
Yog: arre nahi nahi. already had coffee twice this morning. Nidhi sunegi toh subah subah daant padegi mujhe. Ek baar aisa hua ki I was in the middle of some case and I was tense so just kept asking Nandini for one more cup. Nidhi saw me drinking coffee for the 3rd time and she got the whole coffee powder jar and dumped the contents on my head and said "leejiye jitna chaahe peejiye." (everyone laugh at that and the imagery brings an involuntary smile on Ashu's lips too)
Nidhi comes down with just her handbag: chale papa?
Everyone get up and Nidhi takes Alok and Rukmini's blessings before coming and standing before Ashu: see you.
Ashu looks down at the floor before looking back at her: see you Nidhi. i..i will pick you up in the evening. (Nidhi gives a small nod and a smile before moving away. Ashu raises his hand as if to catch her wrist and hold her back but once again pulls back at the last moment. Nidhi leaves for her maika)
5 days later:
Nidhi wakes up at the sound of the alarm and she automatically looks beside her. no Ashutosh. again. she sighs and rubs her face tiredly before looking at the sofa where he has taken to sleeping ever since they got back from the hotel. She had gone to her maika for her pagphera and that evening Ashu had an emergency at KGH. he had to rush there so she ended up returning home with baba. (since the day after the marriage, she has taken to addressing her in laws as ma and baba. Like Ashutosh. for her her mother and father were mom and papa and in laws were ma and baba) she was so tired by the wedding and the previous night's events and pretending to her mom that everything was fine, that she had litereally collapsed on the bed and had immediately fallen asleep. And the next morning she woke up to find Ashu sleeping on the sofa. She wanted to shake him awake and ask him what is bothering him. but she held back. Armaan told her to give Ashu some time. may be he is feeling guilty at the way things ended the previous night. May be he thinks I am angry with him. I will show him that I am not angry. I will make it easier for him to talk with me. That goal set in her mind, she had quickly got ready and went down to greet her in laws. But it didn't work out that way. She hardly got a chance to have a word with him let alone show him anything. And it has been the same since the last 5 days. Everyday he waits until she is ready and down in the kitchen or gets up early to go off to play tennis and then gets ready, gulps down some bfast before rushing off to KGH or his sessions with Armaan. their conversations were limited to hi and bye and a few words in between. after the first couple of days, Rukmini, with her feminie intuition got the fact that all is not well with her son and daughter in law. but Alok had pulled her back and told her to keep quiet for a while and that they would sort things out on their own. At this pt, making Nidhi comfortable was the first priority. And that's what Rukmini does. Nidhi ends up having lots of fun in the kitchen with her mother in law as she tries to teach Nidhi the basics of cooking and telling her own flashbacks about how horrible she was when she had got newly married. Alok and Nidhi have long discussions about musicians and songs over the lunch table. Evening all 3 go for a walk where Alok regales stories about his days as DIG and his various postings. Dinner was a family affair where Ashu opened up a bit and updated her on the goings on at KGH and among his friends. By the time she helped her mom in law in tidying up the kitchen for the night and came up to their room, he was already asleep. Nidhi sighs impatiently. How long is this going to go on? Why doesn't he talk? How will I know if he doesn't tell? (then another thought strikes her and she stops folding her blanket and sits back down on the bed) or..is he..does he still love Richa? Is that why he is not coming near me any more? is that the reason for his detachement towards me? Enough! I can't go on like this. I have to do something.
Later that morning:
Nidhi's phone rings: hello?
Mallika: hi Nidhi.
Nidhi grins: hi Mallika. Whats up?
Mallika: how is married life so far?
Nidhi: filhaal toh my saasuma is trying to explain to me that its almost impossible to boil toor dal if I add salt to it.
Mallika laughs: oh ok. I think you and me should have a competition one day to see who cooks worse.
Nidhi giggles: I wonder who will decide!
Mallika: our respective husbands..who else! Achcha suno Nidhi..i wanted to ask you something. your leave is almost at an end and once your college starts, you won't get time to breathe. So what say we have a get together dinner tonight? I will inform Ashutosh and Armaan also and we all can go somewhere.
Nidhi: uh..ok. sure. That would be great.
Mallika: cool. Then. come over to KGH in the evening and we will leave from there straight. Ok?
Nidhi: ok. see you.
There is a knock on Armaan's cabin door: come in.
Nidhi: hi Armaan.
Armaan gets up: hey hi Nidhi. come come. Have a seat. I tried to call you a few mins back but you didn't pick up.
Nidhi sits: I was already near KGH so I thought I would directly come and meet you. how are you?
Armaan shrugs: as well as can be when one is dating Dr Anjali Solanki.
Nidhi grins: oh yeah. I heard about that. Anji told me. You know what..i was the first one to smell the fish. But Ashutosh didn't believe it when I told him.
Armaan: so..you ok with that? me and Anjali?
Nidhi frowns: why wouldn't I be? I mean as long as Anji is happy, that's all that matters to me.
Armaan smiles and then looks at Nidhi again: how are YOU?
Nidhi loses her smile: ok I guess. Armaan..can i..can I ask you something? please aap galat mat samjhiye. (Armaan nods his head as if to say go ahead) does..does Ashutosh..is Ashutosh still in love with Richa?
Armaan: Nidhi..no. he loves YOU. he is crazy about you. I thought that was obvious. Nidhi..do you remember that night? The way he kept saying "Armaan Nidhi..i need Nidhi"? (Nidhi nods) that's how he is during his sessions with me. He screams out for you. he thinks everything will be ok if you are with him. he says he feels suffocated when you are away from him. that's how much he loves you.
Nidhi bites her lower lips to stop her tears: then why? Why doesn't he talk to me? He never discusses his sessions with me. I can understand that. but how will I understand anything if he doesn't TALK? before..he would at least seek my company and talk general topics or listen to me sing..but now..its been 5 days Armaan. how long will this go on? I don't know what to do any more. you told me to give him time. but how long?
Armaan: Nidhi..right now, the only thing ruling Ashutosh is fear. Fear that if he comes close to you, he will end up repeating what he did that night. He is stuck Nidhi. he can't stay away and he can't come close. and he doesn't know how to tell you that. if he doesn't talk, you talk. You need to take the first step here. You know what I mean? I know its not easy for a girl but..Nidhi..you need to reassure him and make him believe that both of you together can overcome this. That avoiding is not going to take the problem away.
Ashu's cabin: around the same time:
Mallika: Ashutosh, I need your opinon on this case.
Ashu raises his head with a smile and gestures her to have a seat before taking the file from her hands: whats the problem?
Mallika: the patient has congenital heart disease and now she is pregnant.
Ashu sighs shaking his head: why don't these people understand? if a person is treated for a heart disease in childhood, they need regular check ups. Now the pregnancy would have put extra stress on the heart.
Mallika: itna hi nahi, now she wants to terminate the pregnancy at this stage.
Ashu looks up from the file: terminate? Why?
Mallika: she is filing a divorce from her husband. that guy apparantely is in love with someone else..has been since before these 2 got married. He keeps calling out to that other woman..you know..when he is with his wife..(she shakes her head as if unable to envision that scenario) I sympathise with her, you know. I mean..pata nahi kaisa lagta hoga na usko..jab uska pati uske saat bed pe hain aur kisi aur ka naam lerahaa hain..? Ashutosh? Ashutosh..where are you going? (Ashutosh rushes into the bathroom attached to his cabin, closes the door and pukes into the toilet. Mallika knocks and opens the door a bit) Ashu..you ok? kya hua? Tummy upset? (before he could reply, Jagan comes into the cabin)
Jagan: kya hua? Mallika?
Mallika: I think Ashutosh is not well. he is puking.
Jagan gets a confused look on his face: par yeh itni jaldi ulti kyon kar raha hain? I mean its hardly been a week since he got married na. aur ulti honi bhi hain toh Nidhi ko honi chahiye. Phir yeh kyon?
Mallika hits his back hard: you are totally shameless Jagan. I am trying to tell you that Ashutosh probably has some kind of stomach bug and we should postpone our dinner plans.
Jagan shrugs: sure. Ok. no problem. I will go and tell Armaan. and he will call and tell Anji. before Ashu reaches home, news with reach his sasuraal that unka damaad ultiyan kar raha hain. (Mallika shakes her head and pulls Jagan along with her after telling Ashutosh to go home and relax.)
Ashu splashes some cold water on his face and rinses his mouth with the mouthwash. He raises his head and looks at himself in the mirror. he continues to stare at it as Mallika's words echo through him again and again. pata nahi kaisa lagta hoga na usko..jab uska pati uske saat bed pe hain aur kisi aur ka naam lerahaa hain..? he did the same thing didn't he? He took his bride of 3 hrs to bed, had her under him, her tender loving arms wrapped around him, her heart and body bared to him and he said "Richa!" how did she feel then? what she must have thought! that he is with her and he is thinking of some one else? Is that what she thought? (the thought that he did that to his Nidhi was so abhorrent that his stomach heaves again although nothing comes out it) Is she still thinking that? she would. Wouldn't she? Afterall, he didn't explain anything to her. he didn't tell her that the act of making love suddenly threw him back to that night and he could only see those monsters and what they were doing. so..this is him. This is what he has turned into. Mean..selfish..self centred. By the time he realized his feelings for Richa, it had been too late. He never even got a chance to tell her that he loved her. she died not knowing how he felt about her. thinking that he only saw her as his friend. He lived with that guilt along with all other feelings for all these years. That he had been too late. Then..then Nidhi walked into his life. like the first rain after summer. Surrounded him with so much love, life and laughter that he had drowned in it..never wanted to come out of it. Fate had given him a second chance at love and he didn't want to let go of it. he became selfish and turned blind eye to everything including her feelings. He didn't want to waste a single day. He wanted to grab it all up..he wanted to grab HER up and never let her go again. SHE asked him if he was sure. But HE didn't ask her..not once..if SHE was sure..that if she really wanted to marry a guy with so much emotional baggage. Hadn't he even wanted to know? Or was he afraid of her answer? Afraid to even LET her contemplate that particular question? She just came and said I don't want to break the engagement and that's it. he grabbed her and hung on to her. what is she thinking now? behind those smiling lips and laughing eyes, what is going on? She must be scared na. away from her parents..away from her house..new house..new people..and a bas***d of a husband!
He is jolted out of his thoughts at the knock on his bathroom door. Nidhi: Ashutosh? you in there? are you ok? (He shakes his head and opens the door. And looks at her. just..looks at her. at the worry and concern evident in her eyes. she cups his cheek) kya hua? Jagan said you were not well.
Ashu clearly his throat a couple of times and continues to look at her: I am fine. tum..tum kab aayi?
Nidhi: buss..abhi abhi. Me and Armaan were about to come and fetch you when Jagan said you had some tummy bug and that..are you ok now?
Ashu: yeah. yeah. I am fine. Nidhi..lets go home.
Nidhi nods: ma aur baba bhi baahar gaye hain. baba ke kisi dost ke ghar. So I got the keys. Can you drive? Or shall I?
Ashu: no. its fine. I'll drive.
Nidhi: you need any medicine? May be you should have a digestive enzyme or something.
Ashu: no. its ok. I am fine.
Ashu sits down on the sofa and Nidhi gets down on her hunches in front of him: kuch soup banaake doon? Don't worry. I won't make it from scratch. Ma didn't teach me that yet. Maggie ka heat and eat tomato soup hain. I will get that. ok? (she gets up and makes a move to go to the kitchen when he catches her arm, pulls her back and looks up at her)
Nidhi frowns: why? Why what?
Ashu: why are you so concerned and worried about me? Because we are married and I am your husband?
Nidhi smiles a little and puts her hand at the back of his head and pulls it close to her: yeah..all that is there..but..hhmmm..you know the real reason? Shall I tell you? because..because..I Love You. (and she joins her lips to his. He taught her how to kiss and she is a fast learner. She slides her lips along his and licks them with her tongue as if telling him to open his mouth and let her enter. His breath releases itself in a shudder and he gives in. he lets her taste him as his hands wrap themselves around her waist to pull her close. his eyes drift close as his lips, teeth and tongue reacquaint themselves with hers. Then just as suddenly, he tears his mouth away from hers with panting breath)
Ashu: No Nidhi.
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